Monday, June 9, 2008

FINAL - Episode 1

June 09 2008, Monday

MY SIGNIFICANT 5th Y CAMP IS OVER!!!

Ok… Now over the 4 days 3 nites, I haf attended my 5th and the most significant y camp in my volunteering history has juz been over… Its the most memorable one, though in the initial stage, I wasnt happi wif all the changes and wat is happenin for me in the programs team and in y camp preparation BUT I had to admit, I will always rmb the programs team for life…. With them, my 5th y camp has been a great one…



June 05 2008

Now comin to june 04’s late nite… ard 11 plus pm, I am still preparin my station 2’s material… OOOH… hw I wished I had someone to be beside me to help me thru it… As the clock ticks… I realised its 4am plus and I am still cuttin and pastin my materials… OMG… at tis time, my dad has alreadi woke up lol…

Ard 5 plus am, I had finalli finished all my station games’ preparations and finished packin… Nt bad…. Arhx… needed some slp… so dozes off… Until 6am, my dad woke me up, den I realised y camp is juz a few hrs awae… Due to fatigue, I went back to slp again until 6.30am… Nw den I woke up, had my breakfast and took all my stuffs and left my hse headin for SHINES…

7 plus am, my cab reached SHINES and I met huiting at the gate… We walked in…. Well, my dae in the programs team has finalli started….

The dae started off for me wif pitchin the tents… Though I dunno wats it for aniwae… Den I had a little chat wif jerome… Ard 8 plus am, Jerome and me went to get the banner up on the SHINES gate…. Woah… Y CAMP CHALLENGE JUNE 08 is here….

The programs got busy now… Initialli I didnt knw wat to do… but somehw hearin tat charlene needed gamemaster for her programs, I stepped up and told her to gif me one station… Well and I gt it, its the Hula tunnel… Hm… startin of the ice breaker part, my stn had no teams yet, so I managed to walk ard and tinkin deepli of wat I shld do later….

Den finalli ard 9 plus am, teams started to come in…. startin off wif warriors, riders, sailors and runners… hahaha… I was like shoutin here and there, gettin them to get off HIGH as a start… Kool manz… I truli felt successful as a leader for the first time, as I managed to stand up confidentli leadin teams after teams to participate in my game… N of course, makin all of them so hgh alreadi on the first dae….

After lunch, I helped out in Jerome’s amazing race… Though at the initial stage I wasnt included in any of the stations, but Jerome still let me join phillips at the Duck Tour stn which the teams are supposed to do 100 no NGs…. Ard 2 plus pm, I reached the area, put the teams down and waited for the 1st team to arrive….

Hm… tink tat royce’s team arrived 1st… Well, the game is abt a series of actions where the team haf to do it in 100 seconds wifout ani mistakes… Haha… Had fun nt onli wif royce’s team, but subsequent teams which came to my stn also had trouble clearin it…. Ooh yar, tahnx phyllips whom came in time to improvise the stn…..

The last team to come is yining’s grp… I dunno, but somehw I felt tat she’s lucki… Ooh, there’s still the tv stn comin to film her grp doin the game…. Haha…. In the end, I see her so mai li, I decide to let her pass somehw wifout wantin to torture her grp and her… Aniwae, her team gt 1st ehx… Nt bad….

Dinner time and I managed to get a rice box… Den all the gamemasters sat justin’s van back and I had to sae, its like drivin initial d’s car, he’s driftin all the time lar… OMG… haha… guessed the most funniest part is yinghui crackin jokes in the van to and fro … hahah….. Hm… nathan and charlene were like chit chattin till I was like arguin why am I sittin in the middle of the 2 couple… OMG…

Hm… Nite game was cancelled… So, the rest of the programs team waited for our debrief… Well, the 1st nite was good… Each of us gaf on suggestions to improve tmr’s game and nightwalk… Ooh… I haf to sae a word of respect to jerome and nathan, they bth walked all the wae to kallang river to recee lar….

I slept ard 12 plus am… wifout coverin myself wif my fav slpin bag…. (hm… if u knw wat happen on dec07’s y camp, u shld knw why I liked my slpin bag so much… hahah)… Ooh… I was usin it as a pillow and I gt mani mosquitoes bitin me….

June 06 2008

I woke up ard 6.30am… I was woken up actualli by guo sheng’s alarm, as he was slpin juz beside me lar… After some dress up and stylin of my hair… I took my bag and left the camp site…

After restin at home for a while, and also chargin my hp, also to take my slippers as I forgotten to take it yst… I set off back to seletar camp for the last time I guessed… Ard 9 plus am, I reached the camp…. and after some adminstration work done… I HAD FINALLI ORD LOR!!!!

Kool… but sad, coz I never saw ani of my camp mate… Actualli wantin to bid gdbye to them de, but somehw dunno where did they went to… sigh… aniwae, I had my last breakfast at the 35 canteen… N I left the camp wifout lookin back wif a glance… So, finalli I stepped out of the camp back as a civilian… FINALLI>>>> Nw movin forward…..

Back at the Y camp site… The programs had nth much to do except wif natalie and charlene doin the high elements… Nathan and Jerome were playin wif guitar… As for me, I didnt wan to waste my time, so I began to plan who my gamemaster for my stn games were be…

After lunch, the beneficiairies come in… N u knw its realli touchin tat most of them still rmbs u… WOAH… I am so touched… Den ard 3 plus pm, I went back to my stn games… I can feel tat tis time round the programs team realli unite together as we discussed on wat we are doin ltr… I also had my moments as I advise them on wat shld be done….

As I was sick before the y camp, my voice hasnt initialli returned… but somehw, in my 2nd dae at camp, I still managed to find some energy to shout… Ok…. again, I made all the teams high after seein them at a lvl low energy…. Gd tat they came to my stn as I saw them cheerin for their teammates and buddies…. Of course, tis shld be wat a camp is, where everione gets HIGH….

After tat, I gt to rest as its charlene and shiqi were doin mass dance…. After dinner, I gt busi again as I will be helpin nathan wif night walk… Actualli nathan is the most busy as he had to tink of guidelines and mani other things…. Ard 7 plus pm, he gaf out the instructions and thus, we headed out for the night walk….

I guided riders in their nitewalk… Nt bad lar, seein their teams walkin as one and nt leavin ani one out…. Hwever time wasnt on all teams side, as I rushed the riders back to prepare for tmr’s water conquest and to bath….

Ard 11 plus pm, the whole program team gt news tat one of the beneficiairy is missin and we all went ard the site to search, though he was nt found, but ltr, we got news tat he’s back home… Phew… I guessed the volunteer has to play a BIG part in tis… Even if he cannt communicate wif his buddies, he shldnt haf even argued wif his buddies….

Ard 12 plus am… The whole programs were havin our debrief… Haha… I guessed everione was realli tired after the 2nd dae, but nevertheless, we had put in our best effort… Hm… well, gd job done for eveione on 2nd dae… MOVIN on to the 3rd dae…. OOh yar, I slpt at 1am plus lol….

June 07 2008

Woke up ard 6.30am… I left the camp site again to go back and take my bicycle pump… Argh… I realli hate it… Why do I haf to leave the y camp a 2nd time???? I realli dun get it… Aniwae, I was back at the camp site ard 10 plus am, after finishin my breakfast though….

After returnin to camp, I realised tat mai was alreadi there… ho ho ho… Aniwae, it was den tat I realised tat the programs team are preparin for the wet weather programs… After my station games debrief, the programs team also started to get ready for their wet weather program….

Initialli I started to watch the mass dance, but tinkin charlene and shiqi had no problem though…. After all, the stage were meant for charlene…. I went over to the wet weather programs side… but wat I saw was leadin me to tink tat they are nt goin aniwae, I told jerome and nathan to change their games….

I den suggested to use KFC and modifyin it…. As the next 2 teams come… we started to let them to do team cheers…. Den I had to show the teams on hw to play the KFC…. haha… actualli I had no more energi and voice left… seriousli… tats why I wanted to let nathan and jerome take over the job…. But somehw, responsibiliti let me continued wif the job….

Nw encouragin them to play is something I had been doin for the past few daes, so I encouraged the 2 teams to play on…. Until seriousli cannt play ani more, den we had to stop… But my larrararin was like go up to another lvl lar… Aniwae, jerome surpises me by shoutin like me… hahah… gd gd… he’s got the potential, but definetli needed someone to guide him…. I guessed he did well…

After lunch, my gamemasters and me went over to a college to set up for my y olympics stn games…. I was quite angri lar as some of them were like takin their own sweet time to set up the games… ARGH!!!… Finalli after some time, the Y Olympics game started….

I wasnt happie wif the attitude some of them gaf me… If the game is still playable, play on, why shld it be cancelled??? They are nt me, they seriousli dunno hw much I put in to prepare lor… DAMN IT!!!! I can improvise ani stns in my games, but definetli nt cancel it….

After the 1st session, I sent a few of them back to their log team… yesh, I didnt haf enugh ppl in programs team, tats why I needed to borrow ppl frm the log team… N tis is wat I got???? Hey, the attitude is SERIOUSLI NT RITE lor…. Aniwae, I had to thanx jerome, nathan, mai, alicia and huijing for supportin me till the last moment… hm…. had to thanx chritstabelle for stayin at her stn for so long….

I did explained to jerome, nathan and even justin and eileen on why I dun like the attitude of some of them… Ooh… thanx jerome for takin over a particular stn…. Phew…. For me, tis Y olympic has been a success…. Coz eveythin went out well… Haha… I guessed the most interestin part is well, I had a heartfelt tok wif yining, after seein her so stress and tired…

I guessed some encouragement realli helped yining… She seems like cldnt take it ani more lol… ai yoh… overburnt liao… But well, she will be STRONGER after tis y camp…. she will be…. yining jia you orhx…. I guessed though its her 1st time as a sub camp commander, she had did well…. but she juz needed some encouragement… N as her gd friend, if I hasnt gaf her, I realli dunno if he cld still take it animore lol…. yining, I believe u can do it de…. U haf did well….

After the Y olympics ended, I sent bth sailors and riders to prepare for their performances ltr… Den, its busi and chaotic moments for nathan, jerome and me as we 3 went to help the log team lor… After all the helpin and dinner, its camp fire time….

Its a touchin moment, seein teams after teams performin for all…. N seein the photos, I almost cried, becoz the hard work, all of us in the programs team put in had finalli paid off and worth while….

11 plus pm, we all sat the charted bus back and ard 12 midnight plus, the programs team had their final debrief…. I guessed the emotions are there, and its the 1st time, I felt encouraged and felt tat wat I haf done are all worth it and the whole team recognizes wat I had done for the team… I also had to sae a BIG thanx you to all in the programs team… Coz wifout u all, my tis y camp will nt be the BEST one….

We went on to go out and had some tokin wif each other…. Hm… I guessed all of us were too tired and slpt ard 5 plus am…. Woah…. next morning and last dae in y camp had juz came…..

AFTER THE CAMP

Ok… before anything else, gotta thanx the programs team for agreein to my idea of lettin Sailors and Warriors for being the best 2 teams… Hm…. actualli choosin sailors as one of the best team came frm the idea of hw yining did her best for her team and hw she sacrificed so much which makes me feel tat she needed some confidence booster…. As her friend, I haf nt been helpin her much in ani wae, so tis cld be the little tat I cld haf done….

As for warriors, nevertheless, huiting haf shown me her leadership skills improve greatli among the yrs… Though, my decision of nt supportin durin her times when she was the president of interact club, but nw, she has shown me sth a leader shld haf…. a aura which a ideal leader in my mind shld haf….

I haf to congratulate Sailors and Warriors again….

After some clearin up, takin of photos wif each members in the programs team, n biddin gdbye to all the guys in the programs team… I left the camp site and headed home at 3 plus pm… I slpt all the wae till the next mornin…..



Hm… yesh, tis entri came in a little bit late, I had been accompaniyin my dad for his day surgeri in the mornin… Den I was dyin my hair to a different colour… Hm… its the 1st colour, will haf 2 more colours to go….



As for my dec 08’s y camp which will be my 6th camp, I had nt been told of my roles yet by eileen… but well, I am nt goin to expect too much coz I realli dun wan to get ani disappoointment… We will see hw it goes lar…. so dun expect ani thing 1st lor….



Finalli, I still haf to sae a BIG thanx U to jerome, nathan, natalie and charlene… U all are the greatest!!!!

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Sunday, May 18, 2008

CHANCE - Episode 13

May 18 2008, Sunday

Its been a long time since I blog until after meetin enard yesterdae, den she reminded me abt my blog… Its been deserted for 2 mths le lol… Haha… Well, frankli speakin, I had been facin mani low pts n thus doesnt wan to share wif ani one… I had been on my own for quite some time aniwae… Haiz… but aniwae, gonna share wif all of u wat haf happen…



April

April is a mth of unhappiness…. I didnt had a gd time at any pt in my life… Nt at the place where I can do more, neither wif any of my friends… I guessed goin on to my own haf to happen… Hm… april, the onli thing which is most memorable is where my NS buddy, grayson ORD lor…

After so long, finalli he had ORD… nt bad…. on 18 april, a few of us went out to celebrate his ORD and birthdae together… I guessed soon after, we may nt haf tat time together to spend le… We went to eat steamboat after workin hours… Kool leh… the ma la huo guo though is nt veri spicy lar, but somehw tat nite, i cldnt take it…. OOps…

Den, we went on to MINDS cafe to haf some games… Haha… too memorable liao… Those tat lost, we had camo cream on the face as punishments… Haha… Still can rmb gt some stupid, veri stupid de punishments… Haha… Still alrite lar, tat nite was a nite where we all frm the same section in our NS unit had the most fun time together….

Grayson ORD le… I am so lookin forward to mine…..

Hm…. wat else is memorable…. Arhx… Its tat durin APSN outin, yiwei the overall IC bought everione to army museum… wahahaha…. tata dae is another memorable time tat I had… Haha… I teached mani of them to shoot wif M16 and SAR 21, taught them on hw to put camo cream on their faces… thanx to yiwei arhx…. Den finalli, demostrated on hw to cross the SOC… wah…. realli shag…. Juz in one saturdae, I had done so mani NS stuffs which I long time never done in NS le….

MAY

May was a time of uncertainti… Currentli nw I am finalli on Offs and Leaves le…. After so long of hard work in NS, I finalli can go for a long break… N nw, waitin for my pink IC to come back to me after a long 2 yrs…

A last few wks in camp is nevertheless doin my last bit to finish wat I had…. Doin stocktake, den commander’s visit alreadi makes me tat shag le… Haiz… why my ORD is like grayson’s one… clearin shit…. Ooh… april last wk, Dalton and cui cui, george went for bmt recourse… Tink they are goin to complete it tis time… Hm… PES C bmt recourse shld be quite easi bah….

Most of the time at home, I had nth much to do… hm… restin, slackin??? I dunno… Juz wanted to nt care abt anithin leh… Nw currentli I will juz play football manager 05… Felt tat life is too bored and wasted le… I shld had put my talent to better use rite????

Ooh… zhiliang entered NS liao… Haiz… another guy go in and suffer… Heard frm him tat gordan also went in… Haha…. Guessed they will come out after 2 yrs fine like me bah… Well, actualli, NS is nt tat bad after all, can train one self’s mentaliti mah… Good for trainin guys….

May seems so long… For so long, I cldnt rmb hw long I haf nt been gettin in touch wif the reading club’s guys le… Nwadaes, whenever they gt outin, I will juz find excuses nt to go liao… Perhaps is some feelins inside me told me dun go…. I guessed its tat I cldnt find ani topic to tok to them and moreover I dun fit into their grp also….

I was never part of them, so why shld I be into their grp nw???? Its juz a stupid idea ani wae….

For Y camp… I had begin to start plannin on one of the activities on the camp… Gd bah, guess I can do my best… But I am nt happie abt tis y camp… Nt veri happie… but I intend nt to sae why…. Nt pt either… Dun even bother to sae animore… For nw, juz let tis y camp finish… tats most impt… I guessed I am too tired to even care abt wat is happenin….

Actualli, its been unfair to me… But well, why wld anione care huh??? Forget abt it….

Some things happie… She went to korea for her BSM studies on May 08… Ehx… back yesterdae bah… Managed to tok to her before she left ehx… Guesssed she will enjoy tis trip, coz she will get to learn mani things…. Haha… hoped tat she is able to brin my rice cake back frm korea ehx… o_O nt like last time, AJ sae wan to brin back some thing for me frm malaysia, den never… haha….

Ehx… hoped the wind up chronicle can finnali be borrowed frm her….

Nw free liao at home… nth much to do…. so watch VCDs… arhx, recentli juz watched one show, sounds of colours aka di xia tie… Its a veri touchin stori… Especialli inside it tells abt a bl;ind girl havin found the light of her life, the guy who is takin care of her…. But in the end the guy dies of cancer…. the blind girl gt back her sight, but lost him….

Its too touchin…. I cried after watchin it for some time… Guessed tis vcd will be watched mani time…. Next vcd, I am goin to watch is yuan lai wo bu shuai by JJ lin… veri humourous, will laugh non stop… hahahahah….

Ooh… gotta my new hp on fridae… yeah…. had put some photos and 40 songs in it… yeah…. ehx…. there r mani new features I am still figurin abt it, but nevertheless, its great to haf a new phone…. Definetli a great ord present… haha….

Nw tat was a recap of wat realli happened for the past 2 mths…. A summari…. Nw below is wat happened yesterdae…



Hm… went for huijing’s birthdae parti… Her hse is quite big lar… the whole condo adds up to abt 30 stories high…. N the parti is held at 5th storey where there’s a swimmin pool and bbq pit….



I onli managed to haf a glance of her hse and after tat went to 5th storey le… At there, the parti juz somehw started wif eatin and eatin…. Ooh… I came wif pau, weili, roger and kai fai… Den we met guosheng at bukit timah plaza… Ok… speakin of the food, everithing was ok lar…. nuggets, fishball, satays, otahs, jellys… Nt bad at all…



We all sat on one table and chatted all kinds of stuffs… Haha… I guessed the most interestin part is where, frm the start where we all reached the place, its all abt kai fai excited abt huijing wearin a dress…. Haha…. ok, wat abt huijing wearin a dress, I guessed its tat she never wear dress tat often, so tats why….



Den ard 8 pm, alan came, den somehw, the topic changed to ghost stories…. So each of us get a turn to speak abt the ghost stories… I didnt wan to tok abt ani until kai fai keep on tellin me to tell… Ok lar… my ghost stori tellin nt tat bad… Den I was abt to complete my 2nd stori until enard gaf me a call to go n fetch her up….



After seein enard again after so long, I realised she had changed le lar… Nt bad… nw more mature… haha… Her younger, bro, I almost cannt recognise…. wah…. After reachin the place, I accompanied the 2 of them lor… They seem quite borin de….



Aniwae, ard 10 plus, everione gathered for the cuttin cake session… Before tat, everione was chit chattin ard… ahahaha… wah… huijing gt a lot of friend lor… the place became crowded over the time… Oooh… oooh… one most impt pt I had to make… ah li arhx… my fav ah li… haha… finalli found her prince charmin le… woo hoo…  k… tats lame… aniwae, enard, ah li and me had some photo takin sessions together… wah, long time never meet le… haha…



The parti ended wif huijing’s birthdae cake eaten dwn the stomach of everyone… In the end, actualli wan to throw huijing dwn the pool de, but some hw her fierce younger sis was there to stop everione… wah… so fierce… wait nobodi wan hw… oops… haha…



I reached home at ard 12 plus am le… tired… juz waitin for another dae to past by…. haiz…

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Sunday, March 30, 2008

CHANCE - Episode 12

March 30 2008, Sunday

On Mondae, I was on leave lar… Juz as I was tinkin tat nothin much will happened on tat dae itself… At 7pm, Huili sms me tat there’s a kbox session… I was rather surprised n after clarifyin wif ah kar… woah… I was at marina square at 8 plus pm, singin some songs… Thou my voice is nt at the best form, I guessed I sang still quite ok bah….

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Yeah… Finalli gt my photos of me singin taken… Yeah… Hm… tat dae we all sang till 12 midnight bah… Yan Ann’s voice was nt alrite, cannt sing veri well leh… Heard tat his sick, so voice also gone… I nt in the form tat dae, haf nt even open my vocal, so the whole session was like tryin to break open my vocal till the last few den ok…



Ying Shan and Libing had some time singing english songs… Esp. Libing, she can realli sing veri well… Huili also had her gd time singing… Nt bad for someone who never sing often… Shiqi’s singing style is like stefanie sun, maybe she can sing like tat more often next time…



As for ah kar, she sings better tis time nw… I tink can hear alot of improvement ehx… For pauline, she onli like english songs… Guessed chinese songs will never be her kind of music…. Ehx… Val came veri late, but as usual, she still will nt sing ani song… Haiz… Tat dae she also nt feelin well ehx…



The whole session ended quite late. Ying Shan, libing and huili had left earlier… Val and yan ann cld still catch the train…Thus, left ah kar, pau, shiqi and me catchin a cab home… The session ended quite ok lar… Hope next time when I go sing kbox is wif money one… Tat nite, I ended up ownin ppl money ehx…



Lack of confident??? I guessed I am… Haiz….

Haiz… Ai yo yo… Why when I thot tat things are better, its becomes worse again… Haiz… Maybe I am nt tat great after all… I guessed I had never been the person ppl will look upon to… I juz dun understand wat haf I done to deserve all the untrust in me… I juz dun understand….

All I did all these while was to fight for wat I wanted wif my best effort bein put in… I mae nt be the best, but I am nt tat bad wat… Haiz… So why had I nw become someone nt bein trusted wif anything… Haf I done something wrong graveli??? Haf I done sth bad tat harmed ppl in aniwae???

I juz dun knw… After all these, I am no longer confident in facing anything animore… I dun knw when will I regain the confident I needed animore… Nw, maybe a peaceful life is more suitable for me ehx??? Oh lord, when will these sufferins go awae???

Oh yar… I forget to congrat myself… ORD LOR… no lar… still gt 2 mths plus… Juz tat I had received my ord letter liao… woo hoo… Tats gd, nw can realli ord wifout ani worries… haha… coz letter come, confirm is reservist time liao… Aniwae, I am on the reserve holdin list of HQ SCE for my reservist unit….



Hehe… cannt wait for my hair to go back to red color and my new hp leh… hehe….

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Monday, March 24, 2008

CHANCE - Episode 11

March 24 2008, Monday

Ok… I haf the photos of march 15’s kbox session… ehx… Juz tat why didnt my photos of me singin bein taken in val’s camera??? Yiliang, where’s the photos in ur camera??? …..
















































































































































































































































































Hm…. I also got march 16’s yi shan’s birthdae party’s photos… woah… Its juz one dae after the outin ended ehx… Hm… too mani unglam photos inside le… contribution frm val… oops….

























































































































































Ok… tat dae, march 16… Hm… I tink hor… val, ah kar, tiying n me met ard 9 plus pm @ pasir ris interchange lar… Thou, so coincidence tat tiying n me met at the same bus stop at 8 plus pm…. Haha… we bth took bus no. 89 to pasir ris mrt stn lol… so bth of us were late….

Aniwae, val reached there the earliest as she had work in the morning… woah…. At ard 9 plus pm, after we 4 had lazed ard for a while, yiliang came wif his car and drove all of us to the location…. We went to the wrong direction at the start lar… Reachin the end of the route… wahahaha… Aniwae, we still made it in the end…. Ehx… heard tat its actualli yishan waitin for all of us to come before she can cut the cake ehx….

Ok… the beautiful girl on the left in the 3rd picture is yi shan (wearin a light blue dress)… After the cuttin cake session, val, yiliang, tiying, ah kar, libing, andrew and me somehw entertained ourselves ard the places… walkin ard and ard… But too bad, the gate closes at aloha loyang ard 10pm, so, we cldnt get to go out…

Tink ard 12 midnight, we were all sittin dwn and chit chattin while eatin food…. Ehx… the drink were mixed lar… I seriousli dunno wat is wif wat for some…. Hahaha…. Dunno wat happened later is tat, all of us stayed inside a room, makin the room dark, den entertainin ourslves again… wah… realli so bored meh…

Ard 1 plus am, as yiliang and me had to report back to our camp on mondae, he kindli drove me back to sengkang lar… For the rest, they stayed ta the chalet till earli mornin, den went for breakfast wif zi zai…. hahaha… ehx… isnt tat bought by yan an on last sat????

Ooh… heard tat tiying n ah kar still met up later to go MOE in a tired mode lol…. hahaha… tink after tat trip, they bth buai ta han liao….



Ehx… The last few daes, it sure had been hell frm me… But thanx to all my friends who tok to me, I was able to see some brighter side of my life happening… Well, things sure is improving slowly to a better side nw….



Gotta thanx her for givin me a hm… shld I sae motivative tok??? Hehehe… Aniwae, its great she reminded me of hw to gain back my confidence… Realli had to thanx her… Guessed tat tom to her made my mood better, confidence came back slowli… The down period may nt be long, but nw its time to be back to business….

Hm… lets see, this whole wk seems rather borin for me…. I did nt go to too mani places, except ymca and ah kar’s church services… Well, kinda of like bored ehx… Well, cldnt expect much mah… My life has never been the most exciting n interestin also… Wat do u realli expect frm someone who never did the most excitin stuff in life???



Ok… back to wat I did at ymca??? Well, its the meetin for apsn outin… so cld be the part 2 of discussion… Aniwae, its till veri late lol… 9 plus pm, 10 pm… ehx… Great tat mani things were finallised… Kool… Aniwae, the original idea of goin out for supper were cancelled as eileen had work to do… So in the end, onli guosheng, kah fai n me went to KFC for supper…. ai yo yo….



I gotta the particular form for y camp… Yupz… still in y camp… hahaha… juz sorta wonderin, wat exactli am I doin for tis upcomin y camp??? Hm… dun even wan to crack my head for tinkin so much… Since comin wednesdae, there’s a meetin for my committee, the programmes committee… ehx…

For nw its ren ru fu zhong…. I sorta of like tis chen yu, coz its somehw related to my feelin for a while….

Nw… at ah kar’s church services… Ok, I realli dunno hw to explain it, but juz somehw I end up in tat chruch services… haha… Aniwae, there’s a easter perfomances on good fridae for her church, so, I was there… Its a drama abt a guy who haf the machine to go back to the past… ehx… N wats best, he kept goin back too 31 AD, tats the timeline of jesus christ….



The whole story is nt too back lar… Can understand totalli… so no problem wif tat… Hm, huili was there also… Invited by ah kar and her friend, michelle, if I am nt wrong… Ok most of us went for supper at bedok’s mac wif most of us eatin chicken mac nugget… woah…. I left the place at 11 plus pm… Haha… wat a gd time to spend my gd fridae… ehx…



Ok… todae I took a one dae leave as yesterdae, I went to grayson house wif nicholas to watch EPL grand slam sundae… Man Utd vs Liverpool and Chelsea vs Arsenal…. Ai yah… a disappointment lar….



Met grayson ard 9 plus pm…. the match alreadi started by den… somehw, grayson managed to find a space lar… The 1st 1/2 of Man Utd vs Liverpool ended in a 1 - 0 result… disappointed lar… Masherano sent off… Haiz… Torres and Gerrad cldnt score also… N wats worse, they let in brown to score… wah… Den durin the break, we 3 went to grayson’s hse….



Aniwae, grayson had a dog, named xiao di… quite cute lar… he juz walked ard and ard… onli when seein we 3 eatin food den come ard… haha…. Never saw xiao di after 1am le… tink it slpt le bah… Well, the 2nd 1/2 of Man Utd vs Liverpool ended in a more disappointment when ronaldo and nani scored 2 more goals for Man Utd… wah lau… Wat is Liverpool doin…..



Den after the match, we 3 went to grayson’s hse below to buy some tibits… After tat we went back to grayson’s hse for the Chelsea vs Arsenal match… ah… veri borin until the 2nd 1/2… Sagnal scored 1 for Arsenal… N i thot tats the victory score for Arsenal liao… Dunno hw in the end before the match goin to end, drogba score 2 for Chelsea… sianz….. helpin Chelsea to win in the end wif a score of 2 - 1…. ai yo yo…



I left grayson’s hse at yishun ard 2am… Takin a cab which cost me $16.50 and reached home at 2.20am… wah… 20 mins… ehx… Nt bad hor… Ex lol…. Dunno hw tis mornin at 6 plus am, wif a uncleared mind, I was havin a bad diarohhe lar… OMG…. Luckili nw its better liao….

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Sunday, March 16, 2008

CHANCE - Episode 10

March 16 2008, Sunday

Too Low… My life is at the lowest point nw!!! Why? Why? Why? Why has it become to tis pt ehx???

I maybe will never get it but nevertheless, tis whole wk, my life has been the lowest pt of my life again… I did had tis kind of situations, but it past by somehw… Hwever, I realli dunno when it will pass tis time…

I juz felt a total failure nw… Feelin realli lousi, feelin veri useless…  I juz dun understand hw it became like tat…. Seems like  I am losin mani stuffs in my life…. The most impt and the thing I cherish the most seems so distant frm me…. I realli dunno why, but somehw, its juz losin frm my sight….

Tis few daes, I am beginin to feel tat wif or wifout me, everithing is the same…. I juz culdnt get the trust n support of anyone… No matter hw hard I tri, hw much effort I put in, hw best I gaf in, no one will care abt it…. I guessed tis is a bad time for me… All my fightin spirit is dampen…

Deep inside my heart tells me tat its no pt tryin hard animore… Nobody gifs a damn abt u… So no pt givin ur best for anithin anymore… GIVE UP….

Aniwae, yst was the recee for apsn outin… I was late lar, coz overslpt… haha… I reached vivo citi ard 9 plus am…



Joined the grp for discussion… I guessed I am quite surprised somehw coz I saw shunwei… Woah, she entered the committee le arhx… Tats fast…. After some toks on hw the outin will go on as plan, we proceed to sentosa… Woo hoo…



Ok… Its realli a surprise to see shunwei, after all when is the last time we seem each other… ohx… the last apsn outin… Haha… hw so mani things changed n nw she’s in the committee… Well, guess when things happen, its at the least expected moment of ur life…

So we walked on n on after reachin sentosa… wif xin hui gettin ideas to places she went by… Hm… its a strange thing thou tat we are gettin ideas frm ard the places, I thot maybe we had the idea alreadi and tats why we ard goin ard to see hws the place and hw we shld be doin… ehx…



Durin the whole journey, somehw kaifai’s secret will exposed… OMG…. haha… its actualli unexpected de lar… But well, wat’s bein said, cannt be undone, rite???



Everithing ended ard 12 plus pm… All of us except yiliang and wynne, proceed towards the foodcourt for lunch… Didn’t quite notice wat the girls r eatin, but guo sheng, kai fai and me had nai tou fu… Tis lunch is too peaceful liao… Coz the guys were tokin to the guys n the girls juz tok to the girls… Wah lao… haha…



After lunch, guo sheng and me accompanied kai fai as we walked ard the shops… Kai fai didnt buy wat he wanted thou he had bought movie vcds, but he had decided to go to bugis to buy his 3/4 pants… As I was goin to marina square to join the reading club guys for kbox session, we bth went on the same wae…



We bth departed wif each other frm citi hall… At there, I went on to marina square den… After changin my clothes to sth better to wear, I saw the time is still earli, so went into the arcade for some games… Played KOF aka king of fighter FX, but found tat no matter wat I used, I lost… tink my trainin is nt enugh… haha…



So I changed the game to KOF 2000 super version… Wah… realli super lol… coz you cld juz use the power of each character wif one move lar… Kool… But somehw, someone challenged me and thus got defeated… Wahahaha… See, I am nt veri gd thou… haha…



Ard 4 plus, yiliang came and we bth walked ard since most of them r nt here yet… Den ah kar came ard 4.30pm… We den walked into kbox… N woah… we gt a big room… I haf to admit lar, I never gt a big room whenever I go to kbox… N thanxfulli tat todae kbox is full of ppl, we gt ourselves the bigger room…



Thruout the 3 hr plus session, bth yan ann and me sang quite alot of songs… Yan ann even sang till almost no voice sia… Ehx, yiliang, tiying and ah kar were surprisingli sang well wif gd voices… Never realli heard them sing before, so todae were a surprise for me…. As for me, I didnt realli sang tat well, but still managed to sing wif a acceptable effort… ahaha…



Hm… as for val, tink she veri emo… she said tat I was emo, but tink is my song lar… hahahah… as for val, never realli saw her sing leh… dunno why…. K… anywae, in the end, we each pay ard 20 plus dollars… OMG… all of us paid together a 100 plus dollars for one kbox session…. woah… never realli tink will spent tat much together lol…



Den dinner time, dunno where to go, so we walked ard places… in the end, we settled for yuki sushi… ehx… due to waitin at pizza hut, and after walkin ard for some time, we still culdnt get in… But u knw wat…. Each of us will be spendin like another 26 dollars plus plus… OMG… so in the end, all of us will spent ard 100 dollars plus plus again… Sianz…



Wif sushi n steamboat buffet… its like u cld eat all u wan… but hor… somehw, I juz culdnt eat alot and got full veri fast…. Aniwae, we left the place ard 10 plus pm….



Tiying and me reached back sengkang ard 11 plus pm… I was too tired and sad to even tok to tiying on the train journey… Needless to even crack some lame jokes todae… Sigh… Ard 1 plus am, wifout even wantin to do anithing, I went on to slp… Watever happens, I leave it to tmr n the daes later….

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Wednesday, March 12, 2008

CHANCE - Episode 9

March 13 2008, Thursday

Veri Importanli, tis post came in so late tat I wanna sae sorrie to all who haf been waitin… Aniwae, my com crash dwn on last sat… Bo bian… till todae, I am onli back online lol… OMG…. saw on my facebook, miss so mani stuffs…. wah…

Ok… let me haf a self reflection… Let’s see… Last sat, Its the last reading club session for pau as staff lar… So the hard work of makin the scrapbk did nt realli go to waste… Kool manz… I tink pau is realli touched by all of us for makin tis scrapbook lar… Aniwae, the moment has come for pau to search for her new future, but, she will come back as a volunteer thou…



Well, last sat, I had quite a fun time at reading club… Moreover, the 3 musketters, yi wei, huili and me finalli came together back to reading club, probabli for the last time??? I dunno, but its hard to see the 3 of us in action for such a long time le… Therefore, sat’s reading club is veri memorable and significant one…



I am realli glad to be able to had tis session of reading club wif yi wei, huili together… Miss the times where all 3 of us sit dwn together n start to plan… I, deep in my heart knw tat I may nt be able to haf another session of reading club in the near future… But as far as we knw, the friendship will be juz there…

Its also a wonderful reading club on tat dae where most of the senior members gathered together to celebrate pau’s last reading club as staff… Hw touchin… Tiying, Val, Ah Kar, Yiliang, Yi Wei, Huili, Yi Shan, Li Bing, Yan An and me…. woah… Its been some time since so mani of us gathered together….



At the end, pau cried…. Dunno is laughin or cryin… haha… but well, I guessed the effort we all put in is well paid off… After the reading club, most of us proceed to qu qu mian for lunch… With all of us chattin and eatin, we shared a wonderful afternoon together…. Den before the nite’s MINDS CAFE, tiying, val, ah kar, libing n yan an went to NTU open house, after tryin hard to decide whether to go for SMU or NTU… While yi liang n yi shan went to SMU open hse instead… For me… I went home onli to watch lu xiao feng as my com break dwn… haiz…



At nite’s minds cafe, all of us played games and enjoyed thru the nite… I did nt ordered ani food lar… Coz I had eaten mixed vege rice lol… hahaha… Nt tat I am broke or wat, but I gotta my pay liao….



Hm… need to save money mah… so cannt eat outside always… Aniwae, cleared my debt, which I own tiying 26 dollars plus plus and val a typical 4 dollars for the scrapbk…

So, we all played the dinosaur games… I dunno, sth like heart attack… Its like as the longer u play, u will become veri fast somehw…. But well, I often gt lapse in time… Sianz…. Oh… They all tried changin to taboo, but somehw, tat does nt interest most ppl, so well, changed back to dinosaur bones again…. Den ard 10 plus, everyone home sweet home…



Last Fri, its anniversary dae for my NS camp… eh… there r 2 different sports to be played… street soccer n bowlin… I on tat dae gt dropped out of soccer team ehx… haha… Ok lar, its accpetable coz after I return frm MC, my soccer playin skills sucks… plus goalkeepin skills deprove… so obviousli, I will nt get to play lar…



Nt bad for my NS mates leh… they gotta a 2nd back… Hm… to speak the truth, its onli 4 teams participatin mah… so, gettin a 2nd is better than gettin some 3rd or 4th rite???



Aniwae, I formed the bowlin team to take part in bowlin… Hm… nt bad lar for my team, 14th out of 20 plus teams… As for my personal score arhx… I tink its one of the best score… a total of 2 rounds, wif the score of 187… so nt bad liao…. 1st round, 106, 2nd round 81…



K… enugh of my NS camp’s anniversary…. Speakin on tat dae, I was somehw saddened lar… Coz a misunderstandin cost me all my chances le….



Nw in my last episode, there’s a few paragraph bein deleted… somehw, its written wrongli, cozin eileen to misunderstand… Urgh… I can onli blame myself for usin the wrong words… Aniwae, nw I knw tat maybe my chances in the upcomin y camp to do sth will be like a veri low pt where I cld nt be doin anithin at all….

Haiz… bo bian… Words once bein said out, it cannt be taken back… No matter u tri hw hard to explain it, it will leave the other parti a impression of wat u r tryin to mean… Nw, I will leave to the lord to decide le… Since i am in the middle of no where, I might as well do go n tink of other stuffs than brood abt it….

Well, I can onli sae one thing truthfulli… I dun expect anithin animore… I had done my best, the rest will depend on whether u gif me the chance or nt… I dun need to sae much to anione, my effort n wat I had done for all these while, says it all… The rest, u all can decide for me….

Aniwae, thanx her for concernin abt wat happen to me… Thanx leh… hehe…

Den mondae, is the cohesion dae for my NS camp… Hm… went to see 10 000 BC… Ehx, will nt comment much lar, juz in case some of us haf nt watch it yet… Ok… I will gif 2 1/2 stars out of 5 lar… Nt exactli worth ur time to go cinema to watch lar… but if U are interested, den go watch…. Tats all I can tell u guys….



Ok, wat else happens… Ooh… after the cohesion, I went to toa payoh in search of something I promised her tat I will do for her… To find souffle….



Hm… reached crystal jade la mian xiao long bao lar… Hm… beside there’s tis crystal jade, my bread… Well, nt much of a effort… Didnt manage to find it leh…. Hw disappointin… Found sth like tat, but nt exactli wat I wanted… So, I went back to sengkang wif a huge disappointment…. Sigh…

Den, yst… I was nt feelin tat gd lar… So my friend, ZL invited me for a drink over beer… Ok lar, I am quite a gd drinker, so no problem drinkin… But well, didnt feel realli gd lol… These few daes had nt been my best daes… N I am tryin real hard to make sure I can stay on positive… Hw bad can tat be????



Believe it or nt, these few daes wifout my com, wifout my internet, its killin me… I miss her so much tat I felt bad wif myself??? Silli, I also tink so, but nwadaes, whenever I am feelin dwn, I always hope tat I can tok to her… Regardless its friendship or feelins, I juz wanted to share my joy, sadness wif her… But somehw, when I cld nt use the internet, handphone msg seem nt useable leh… Urghx…



Lord, pls dun let me internet go dwn again… Its hard for me to realli haf someone whom I can tok to nwadaes le…

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Sunday, March 2, 2008

CHANCE - Episode 8

March 02 2008

Firstli, I am veri glad to brin to all of u some photos of the y nature walk on feb 23…





























































The whole committee can be shown on the last pic… Frm the left is li jing, me, shiqi, minjing n finalli yew chong… Nw… esp the 3 girls, I sorta of gotta confused for a while… but somehw, after sometime, I gt to clarify who is who le… Aniwae, everione in the committee haf done a great job… definetli great… congrats to everione….

Nw comin back to NS… I haf been tired after comin home everidae… Dunno why, but somehw energy doesnt stay wif me… N fact is whenever she came in veri late online on msn at nite, I didn’t get to tok to her veri much… But somehw, I am realli am glad tat the lord still let me tok to her even if its a veri veri short conversation… ; D



Oh yar, back nw n den, I had joined the rest of my NS mates in bathin after work… I dun normalli do tat in the past, but currentli, I juz joined them lol, as in nt realli bathin, but wipin my body wif soap, den rinse wif water…. So bein a realli lazi guy, I nw onli brin home my shirt, singlet n shorts once per wk, leavin them in camp… hahaha….



Aniwae, I haf decided to sold my good fridae guard duti for the sake of eileen as I promised eileen tat I will be helpin her wif her church on mar 22… Haiz… cost me 80 dollars lol… Actualli quite ok lar coz its the market rate for sellin duti… Oh yar, had helped all my NS mates n me printed the ORD calendar… yeah… finalli its comin and when comes mar 6, I still gt 3 mths left lol…

Nw comin back to ymca… I am realli confused lol… haiz… Coz I am back to a feelin of nt here, nt there… Juz realli nt everiwhere…



*** From the Author’s words : There’s some miscommunication here…. Thus, tis paragraph is bein taken out…. Sorrie for ani inconvenience…. ***

Irealli n sincerely prayed to the lord… pls gif me some clear instructions bah….

Nw lets see… on fri, feb 29, which is wat mani ppl sae abt the leap yrs… coz ppl born on tis dae n tis mth can onli celebrate their birthdae everi 4 yrs… Nw, on tis dae, its krystle n her twin sis’s birthdae… Somehw the original plan of meetin zhiliang n carolyn were pushed back on tat dae due to my physioteraphist too naggy…



After reachin tampines, I met zhiliang n carolyn… somehw carolyn seems realli beautiful todae, arhx… 1st time I saw her like tat arhx… as for zhiliang, ai yah, he always act handsome, somehw makin himself lookin appropraiteli… haha… Aniwae, we reached pasir ris 8 plus pm lol…



On the wae on buyin the present, sittin on train n bus, I didnt get too close to zhiliang n carolyn… I guessed I didnt wan to disturb them… carolyn needs a guy who can understand her and help her when she needed… A guy whom can tok to her when she needs , n zhiliang haf done it alreadi… So by lettin them be together, I guessed it will be more appropriate… I am sorrie carol, but I am nt a guy whom can be by ur side one… I am more than juz a stranger to u nw, coz our distance in understandin each other haf been too far awae seem mani yrs ago….

Thruout the whole birthdae parti, we had met a girl, tink her name is dennis, ehx… she’s krystle’s pri sch friend… somehw, zhiliang gt a likin to her… haha… Aniwae, ard 11 plus pm, we gt a free ride frm dennis’s dad… Hm… I kept quiet the whole nite, tinkin mani stuff… Its onli after sendin carolyn to her blk, den I felt better… somehw, I realli felt a distant between carolyn n me… haiz…



Nw on mar 01, sat, I went to MINDs outin… ehx… seems like a long time never go le… haha… Realli enjoy it lar… coz bein the volunteer is still the best, no worries… haha… no need to tink so hard abt wat to plan n wat to do for the outin, juz go there n serve, tats all…



But tis time round, my beneficairi seems veri hyper lol… wah lau… made me so tired… haha… N he’s always off to touch girls n even guys lol… somehw I juz gotta fend him off… He realli scared off girls lar… wah lau… hahaha… well, tis is realli the 1st time, I get so mentalli n physicalli challenge in y outin lol… haha…



After hangin out wif sandy n guo sheng’s friends, I went back to sengkang to cut my hair… Hm… realli long le lol, so haf to cut it, if nt arhx… mondae, die… hahaha… Aniwae, at nite, went to find the reading club’s ppl to do scrapbookin for pau…. Haha… can sae we were all chattin more than doin work….



In the end, do until miss the last train at novena… OMG… in the end had to sit wif tiying n her bf in a cab back to sengkang… wah… still owe tiying money, nw own her again… hahaha… aniwae, saw her bf, cheng long… can feel tat tis guy is realli a gd guy n he will definetli brin tiying happiness…. wish them gd luck to their future….


So where’s my… will she be mine future??? I guessed the time is still nt the rite time yet… nw we bth r juz gd friend…

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Sunday, February 24, 2008

CHANCE - Episode 7

February 24 2008

Tis one wk seems short, but its indeed long… Actualli, it seems nth special, but somehw I juz felt realli been a rough time goin on… Sometimes, I dun realli understand things, but I juz need time to go n reflex… Haiz… Hw I wish for a better time in my life…



Nw lets take a look at wat happen at my volunteerin career @ ymca… Nw on 16 feb, I went for a recee for the nature walk at macritchie… Eh… somehw, I never seem to enjoy the scenery or understand the nature till tat dae… Normalli, its either me quickli finish watever I had at tat place, or I will never get to enjoy the nature side, but I guessed I juz did on tat dae…



Den tat particular sat seems bored…. Wif a broke wallet I had, I juz cannt find a place to go… Haiz….



20 feb is the nature walk’s briefin… Eh… didn’t quite expect mani changes to happen, but somehw, mani changes appeared last min in my log team for the nature walk… Nt tat I am nt happie abt it, but somehw I juz feel tat its realli gettin more common for changes to keep on appearin…. Haiz… So aniwae, on tat dae, I had a meetin wif my log team…. Guessin its a gd session…



Eh… thanx to guo sheng, I managed to pay the y nature walk t shirt… Still own him 2 dollars…

Nw lets see wat happens on the nature walk itself… Mani things came veri last min… but its nt tat bad lar… In the end, all things went well, nt realli too bad, I guessed… I will take tis time to thanx all the members in my log team, 2IC, Guo Sheng, shu wei, ck, sandy, ee ling, zi yan, joel n joyce…. Eh… all of them put in the effort n hard work on tat dae… Guessed wifout them the log team will nt be so successful eh… haha… Thanx again…



Over the wk, I also applied for the community service executive post which yew chong, eileen and pauline are all havin nw… I handed up the application form le… Heard frm pau tat its wif mark nw… Ehx… hope tat I will be successfulli employed as a staff of ymca lar… Nw dunno leh… realli dunno whether I will get tat job I wanted or nt… Prayin hard….

As for her, she had some tough exams on thurs n sat… 2 at one wk… Woah… So nw, I juz gotta pray for her tat it will be a gd results for her… She will get thru… I haf faith in her… N wats gd, after her exams, tis comin wk is her break… so gd… My break??? Will haf to wait for the next holidae lol…. which is march 21st leh….

NS… nth much as usual… juz more work, more tough times… but when tough times pass, great men will survived… Days to ord seems quite far, but somehw when u least expect it, its comin… 3 mth plus, I am definetli gone and back as a civilian… woo hoo… Tats why I am realli pinnin real hard for it to come….



Nw, hw can life be so bored eh??? Dunno leh… Ooh, aniwae, comin fri is krystle’s birthdae, will be goin arhx….

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Friday, February 15, 2008

CHANCE - Special Episode

February 14 2008

Special Episode for a special today… Valentine’s Day…

Ok… too envy of tiying, ning havin blog entries on Valentine’s Day… I realli cant wait till sundae to publish the newest blog entri… So, tata… Todae, u haf it, the special episode of CHANCE…

Well, speakin on tis special dae… When things are nt even confirmed yet, I will nt be assured of realli anything… But on feb 14, I am realli glad tat the lord helps me past tis wonderful dae….

Actualli hor, on feb 13, I was still wonderin whether to buy her roses leh… so, after reachin compass pt, I thot to myself… why nt throw coin to decide whether or nt to buy her the roses… Haiz… the 50 cent coin told me… NOPE !!! But somehw, I didnt follow the advice of the coin…

I entered the flower shop and bought a blue rose which is in a bouqet… Juz as I thot to myself tat whole nite, I was prayin to the lord, let me meet her on feb 14…

Somehw, 2 daes ago, she alreadi knew tat I haf feelins for her… but well, she and me came to a understandin where friendship stays on forever… I myself neither is someone who forces things… So… I juz let things goes by its nature, dun need to bother so much, juz let everithing comes naturalli… I wanted to meet her, but somehw thrus nite is never a gd dae to meet, she had to study till veri late, I was realli disappointed lar… but well… everithing still goes to ‘SEE HW’…

On feb 14 itself… as I did nt haf to return back to camp coz my boss force me to clear off lar… I decided to wake up earli, well wif a idea in mind to gif her a surprise, I decided to go dwn earli to simei to wait for her… Eh… Thru communications and interactions, I found out her timetable lar…

Reached simei ard 9 plus am… Msg her and told her meet together before she goes to sch lol… Haha… gotta admit the feelin of waitin and waitin is terrible and worst, did nt receive ani repli frm her makes me feel more terrible lar… Den after waitin till 10 plus am, she replied… Yeah…

She will be late… she will reached ard 11 plus am bah… but its nt whether she will be late or nt, its a matter of whether she will come or nt… and I definetli cares abt tat more than any other thing else sia…. So, there I was keep on waitin at the same area….

11 plus am, my hp rang…. its her… OMG!!! Its the 1st time she called me… Hw surprised I was lol… but well, this call I realli cherish even thou its juz to ask me where I was… After she arrived up frm the escalator… My heart sank…. Hw haf I waited for this moment to come sia…

The moment she saw me, I was wif a full bag of presents… Eventualli I didn’t find the rite chance to sae tat its meant to be hers lar… Haiz… I jzu couldnt find the rite moment… So, bth of us juz walked on… and we bth took a train dwn to dhoby ghuat mrt stn… I gotta thanx the lord again lol…

Eh… why I thanx the lord again coz if he hasnt arranged me to be goin dwn to ymca, I will nt even be takin the same train wif her lar… haha…

Thruout the whole journey on the train, nth much were said… I haf to admit, I am someone who can be quiet at times and can be talkative at times… but definetli the upper is wat happened todae… Somehw, at one time, we bth laughed together…. Tink its when our eyes met each other lar… haha…

Some confessions to be made… 1st, I bluff to her tat I arrived at 11 am instead of 9am… Eh… tis is defientli a white lie… I dun wan her to feel bad… I dun wan her to, tats why I had to say tat… N thruout the whole train journey, its nt tat I am tired, thou I am but I juz wanted to look at her quietli… coz I realli miss her… Miss her everidae and nite…. Tats why I jzu wanted to keep quiet n look at her face onli….

Sorrie, but I juz couldnt tell her all tis, its realli tough lar…

After reachin dhoby ghuat mrt stn, we bth tok abt the plans we had todae… I guessed we bth had veri different schedules… hahaha… but well, its realli great to be juz walkin rite beside her and tokin to her… Well, funniest moment happened when she said she wanted to walk me to ymca…. wahahaha….

Hm… well, SMU is juz opposite onli mah, so, for the sake of walkin near, she walk me to ymca mah….

Eh… as we are gettin near ymca, I kept on forcin myself to juz tell her…. Urgh… realli hated tis feelin of wan or dun wan… haiz… Den, wif a blink of my eye, we bth are at the building’s doorstep… OMG… Juz when she was sayin gdbye to me… I den shaken up and told her tat the bag of gifts is for her….

Well, she is quite touch lar… Aniwae, the gifts for her are a blue rose in bouquet, a musical box… well, its on her wishlist lar… and the 3 bks on her wishlist… Nw I shall introduce them… Norwegian Wood, Lifetime of Secrets and Memiors of a Gangster’s Daughter…

































After givin her the gifts, we parted, eh… I was realli nt bearin to leave her sia… So as I walked into ymca, I looked at her back wif her carryin the bag of gifts I gaf to her walkin towards smu….

I haf to admit, todae she’s realli the most beautiful woman I ever met… Its the truth… Till nw I can still rmb her face deep inside my heart, deep inside me….

Ok, so wat am I doin at ymca sia??? Its feb 14 leh and I am at ymca to… celebrate tiying’s birthdae lol….































Ok… somehw I am the 1st to arrive at ymca after sendin her off lar… So, I proceed to lvl 3 and guess wat, pau came at the same time lol… Wah… she realli enjoy life… omg… I guessed her lifestyle is always veri relaxed one… hahaha

While waitin, pau asked me abt hw’s my poli application le… I guessed tis time round I am realli nt ready to go back to sch life yet lar…

Cannt blame me leh… After 2 yrs in army, hw will u expect me to go back rite straight to sch… Veri de sianz to immediateli go back leh… But aniwae, after checkin, RP is the onli place where I can appli wifout ani worries… Coz my cca’s gpa is 0.2, full score… N the minimum gpa RP need is 2.0 lol… Aniwae, I decided tat nw prob I wan to go work first… N last nite, I haf applied for a post at ymca le lol… which is the post of yew chong, eileen and pau….

Aniwae, waited till 12 plus pm, tiying and val finalli appeared… Wah!!! tiying is like wat val described her as… HOT!!! but she too white le lar… ok… I guessed tiying’s bf is definetli a fortunate guy… lucki him…. hahaha

Waited till nearli 1pm, all the rest finalli came, yiliang and libing…. The 6 of us den proceed to PS’s Justica to eat… hm… I had a herbal chicken soup set meal lar… The rest of them had deep fried chicken set while val had spicy beancurd kimchi noodles…

Somehw, when I took my drink, my mug beer become 7 up lol… but like wat libing said, its veri sour kind of water lar… Aniwae, had changed it to pepsi… Actualli the most surprised thing tat happened is tat pau paid for all of us… OMG… its veri surprise lol coz when she was wif us, we dun realli even knw when she paid for all of us…

After lunch, all of us accompanied libing to her job interview at international plaza… wah… can u believe it at lvl 29, our ears felt intense pressure sia… OMG… who can haf thot libing’s job interview is at such a high place… N so while we r waitin for her to finish her interview, the 4 of us were like bimbos chit chattin… OMG… its so unglam lol… hahaha…

Den at later, we proceed dwn till the 1st floor and went to the flower shop we saw earlier… We decided to buy flowers for pau who had paid for all of us… N the girls went all over the place crazili for clothes…. Haiz… Wat can I sae… Girls…

We den proceed to citi hall for tiying’s valentine’s dae present…

eh… actualli I had helped her over the past few daes to look for sth she like so tat she can gif to her dude, chen long… eh… somehw, we bth discussed and discussed over the nite and found sth which is veri suitable, watch… Actualli had to do wif tiying’s budget… Its ard 70 dollars…

So for all the walkin… We finalli reached one shop where I lend tiying my wrist to model for the watch… N tats the watch which nt onli caught my eyes but the girls too… Somehw as tiying’s dude is one yr older than me, I understand wat his tinkin is like lar….

But its ex lar… even though it is, I den told her its worth it lol and keep on assurin her after buyin tat its defientli worth the price coz its the most unqiue watch… Even I am memerise by it lar…

Ok, the buyin of the watch is after the 5 of us went to coffee bean to chill… eh… Its nt coffee bean leh… its a american restuarant lol… dunno why tiying put in her blog its coffee bean???? I was almost broke lar after spendin much on valentine’s dae gift, so had to order the most cheapest there… N its hazelnut cappuchino… eh… somehw tiying dun rmb wat I drank or wat I ate sia… ahahha… Aniwae, tiying had minty lychee freeze tea, val had mocha java, libing had naughty banana…. Dunno the real name liao, but one of the waiter who val said tat he looks like the rock keep on sayin tat lol…. N yiliang had latte after flippin thru the menu for such a long time….

Tat last line was copirighted frm tiying’s blog lol… hahaha…. Oh yar, I still can rmb tat I said tat all malays like to impersonate the rock, tats why they cut his hairstyle lar… hahaha… Aniwae, he is sweet enugh to gif tiying 2 heart shaped cookies after we used the bear for pau to gif to tiying as we sang her the birthdae songs… hahaha…

Oh yar, by the end… when tiying and libing r finishin their drinks, they r freezin like hell lol… hahaha… The rock is becomin a gentleman tis time round again as he gaf us another 4 cookies… I took 1 to eat lar…

We den proceed back to ymca… Eh… all of us r den slackin ard and thus while waitin for yan ann to play the piano, we chit chat here n there lol… Somehw, yan ann never did play the piano… Veri funnie… hahaha… Ooh… pau was veri touch by wat we had done for her… but as yiliang had expected, pau juz laughed and laughed lol….

Ok… somehw I became mark lee after his promo of ah long pte ltd came out… his sissy role affected me to impersonate him N somehw I also became sissy for the time bein lar wif tiying’s big bag… hahaha

When we reached citi hall mrt stn again, I told tiying, woah… we had made a trip ard n nw back again…. wah… Den as we were decidin where we r goin, we came to a conclusion to go to Raffles Citi Shoppin mall to eat… KK… tiying… its nt marina sq arhx… hahaha

Aniwae, at citi hall mrt stn, ying shan and ah kar subsequentli joined the rest of us… So while the rest r waitin for the bread to come as yan ann and yiliang r preparin, I went all ard the shoppin mall to find atm machine… guessed wat… after takin out the remainin money in my bank… I announced tat I AM FINALLI BROKE!!! omg… I inside my heart was wonderin hw can I go to drink ltr sia…. haiz…

After returnin to cafe cartel, I onli to realise tat all had ordered lol… So wif flippin thru the menu, I decided to order steak…. ho ho ho… I gotta sae, the staff r realli busy lol… Ordered 2 times pepsi and to realise tat after I had almost finished everithin, den 1 pepsi came… wah liew… Before we left, we celebrated tiying’s birthdae wif the delicious fruit cake….

Well, tis is a off topic… Actualli on our wae to the Harry’s bar, I was tokin to Zhi liang abt wat happened between carolyn n siang rui onli to realise tat becoz of some stupid things tat siang rui did, tats why carolyn slapped him… haiz… well, if I was carol, I wld haf did the same thing, I guessed….

Ok, we went to Harry’s bar next… somehw, I didnt had enjoy it when u dun haf enugh cash wif u… haiz… Aniwae, ordered a tequilla sunshine… I haf to sae if I gt the money, I wld haf ordered sth better…. Aniwae, if u realised carefulli, u will get to see 2 of the same kind of drinks appearin on the table…

Ying shan and me had tequilla sunshine, libing n tiying had strawberry magarita, val and ah kar had mango darqui, pau and yan ann had bloody mary wif yiliang to onli haf his sherry… Tequilla sunshine is ok lar… strawberry magarita is refreshin, mango darqui is like sardine in water and bloody mary was sharp… Sherry is too strong for newcomers… I am ok wif all these drinks, coz I am quite a good drinker…

Juz tat I am nt smilin, does nt mean I am emo lol… hahaha… but somehw all of them thot I am emo sia… diaoz… the chillin session is realli great… coz we enjoyed music and chit chattin all the wae… woo hoo.. but somehw I will onli gif a 5.5 out of 10 pts for Harry’s bar lol…

After relaxin for a while wif libing and ying shan leavin, the rest of us moved to singapore river for another chillin session… As we all r chit chattin 1/2 wae, yan ann was suggestin to go n see the merlion as he never saw it before… I hwever did nt wan to go n saw tiying didnt wan to go too, so bth of us juz sat there n enjoyin the breeze….

A beautiful nite, bth of us had some heart felt tok…. aw… so touchin, wif each of us nt wif the person we wanted to be beside us, the 2 of us were doin fine wif each other’s accompani, hm… tink we bth had tok for a long time lol… haha… there were a grp of photographers mistaken us as couple sia… hahaha….

After the rest of them came back, we all proceed to go n find water, which was suggested by yiliang lar… but somehw at the middle of somewhere, all of us went into a hotel, and den I juz crazili impersonate anithin or anione whom I tink of to entertain all of them lol… haha… but well, they r nt entertain…. Hw sad… haha…

Oh yar… tiying n val sang sweeny todd’s song while we walked… urgh… when can I see sweeny todd sia??? haiz…

Finalli, all of us managed to find a 7 eleven n yiliang found his water… yeah… Den tat was when 2 cabs appeared n all of us scrambled to leave the place n go home… wif yiliang waitin for his dad…

Eh… gotta thanx tiying for the taxi fee… I gotta admit, she had 20 while I had my last 10 dollars wif me… if wifout her money, I doubt I can reach home lol… haiz….

Ooh… below are more photos taken frm tiying’s birthdae…


















Aniwae, Happie birthdae and happie valentine’s dae, Tiying… Ya… Happie Valentine’s dae to her…

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Sunday, February 10, 2008

CHANCE - Episode 6

February 10 2008

K guys… I will post some of AJ’s performance photos 1st before I continued todae’s episode….































Well, its our fav AJ’s performances last fridae… As a support, the TURTLES were all there to support her… Somehw I received these pics frm ning… Aniwae, as wat ning sae… AJ looked somehw like ah ma… OMG… but ok lar… she has tat child like face, even if she’s a ah ma, she’s more like child like ah ma…. hahaha….

Back to todae’s episode…. CNY…



My CNY was nt tat great at all… Maybe u can sae nt even a veri big thing after all… Coz onli on CNY eve, my grandma (mum’s side) came to cook for my family… Well, as a matter of some dispute, 5 of us were onli the ppl celebratin tis yr…



The 5 ppl are My grandma, dad, mum, younger sis and me…. We all went eatin some dishes and tats it… Reunion dinner…

Den for the rest of the 4 daes in CNY, its veri borin… its even borin for the whole of fridae when I went unlucki, com spoiled, she nt replin my msg… sigh… Wat a veri unlucki dae….



Actualli, she also seldom repli my msg nwadaes….

I guessed CNY tis yr is juz plain simple n sweet… Nth complicated, nth big realli… Sigh… I guessed maybe somedaes when u wanted some excitement, it mae juz happen…. but lookin at the current trend, CNY will be gettin more borin as each yr goes by for me….



Nw 2 daes before CNY, my camp mates and me went to geylang for…. ah… dun tink too far… we juz went there in the 1st place is to eat frog leg porridge, but somehw, due to walkin too long and time is gettin veri late, all the 5 of us ended up eatin tim sum….



Well, due to eatin in coffee shop, dalton, my camp mate ordered beers… Heniken beers… Stanley who is the driver onli get to drink tea… so there left, 4 of us, but grayson and nicholas did nt realli drink too much and if I can rmb, its onli dalton and me drinkin 2 n 1/2 big cups…



Somehw, I am liked 1/2 awake and 1/2 drunk due to emotions boilin inside me….

Den after dinner, the 5 of us went ard geylang and viewin the different scenerios we will nt see everydae… As I can sae, its a veri different experiences, coz u see different sorts of ppl wif different aims on tat veri nite….



1 dae before CNY was nt a different dae either…. Thou its off n I get to slp veri late, but at nite, I had to attend the Y Nature Walk’s meetin… Well, almost all things r settled and for my log team, I also gt plans for them to do… Oh yar, Sth funnie happened lol…. Out of the 8 volunteers I recruited, 5 of them became leaders for tis event… Wah!!!



Till todae, 12 ppl r confirmed inside my log team…. N one of them is my CSC’s junior, Joel… Eh… workin wif him again is ok la… Juz hope he can improved on his volunteerin skills and personal skills in order one dae to become a volunteer leader in YMCA…

Hm… still decidin on whether to haf a meetin wif the log team… Guessed will discuss wif yew chong on mondae…

Somehw I became addicted to drinkin beers and yst, zhi liang, my junior went to accompani me to drink beer at a coffee shop nearby his hse… Sigh… Dun realli knw why, but drinkin beers r juz like water flowin dwn wif my sorrows in my heart… Maybe its me, but I dunno, I guessed I juz had to let my sorrows and emotions go to somewhere and my stomach does everithing….



Todae, went to play mahjong… Eh… nt too bad, at 1st winnin, but somehw luck desert me and did nt stay wif me long even I had done like wat mahjong king, ah wang had taught me… Haha… dun get wrong, ah wang the mahjong king is the movie, que shen, nt a real person…



I lost 6 dollars in the end….

Oh… Unexpectedli, todae I found out tat she’s also someone who likes to play mahjong, somehw her luck is better than me lol… Sigh… Next time, I guessed askin her out for a game of mahjong is nt tat bad orhx….



Back to her… I realli is at a lost alreadi… Oh god, wat shld I do nw????



I realli dunno, I haf tried everithing I can and did wat I can for her… But somehw nth has been improved… Thou the feelin is nt like stranger, but definetli I felt tat its more to friends side and is more than friends bah…. I guessed she can feel it whenever I gaf my care and concern to her…

I am nt someone who wans to demand anything anymore…. I dun realli force her, but at least replin my msg is nt a veri forceful thingy, but somehw, my msg is becomin useless anymore… Hw abt callin her huh??? I dun even had tat little courage to call her…. To even speak to her thru phone will made me more afraid of myself….

So the lord, I tried my veri best to do wat I realli can… N realli thanx the lord for givin me the courage to ask her out on valentine’s dae…. Somehw she did nt reject me askin her out, but wat does ‘See Hw’ means??? I am realli poor at tis kind of guessin wat a girl realli wan… I am a veri simplified person, its always either yes or no, but ‘See Hw’???

Sigh… I realli had no idea…. N lookin at her blog makes me even clueless…. I guessed her emotions had been givin her some different thots recentli… I realli wanted to help her… but juz like wat I can be nw, realli clueless….

Tmr goin to sing Kbox…. Its realli a gd time to be singin.. Eh… actualli, todae supposingli shld be singin K box wif derrick, but somehw mahjong overtakes it…. Ho Ho Ho….



Aniwae, before I end, gt one song wan to share wif all of u….



From The Heart



I know you’ve heard these words a hundred other times before

And you’ve been hurt and so your heart has chose to close the door

Love broke your heart and brought you lies

Look in my eyes

You’ll see a love that’s deep and true

Tender and strong and all for you

You can trust this love

Honest, that’s the honest truth.



From the heart

I’m giving you everything, everything

From the heart

I promise you that I’ll be there

I’ll be there to love you

From the soul

I’m showing you all I feel, all I feel is

From the heart, from the heart.



I will protect you and respect you and be all you need

And when you reach for love you’ll only need to reach for me

These arms will never let you down

They’re staying around

I’ll walk with you through every storm

I’ll keep you safe, I’ll keep you warm

and you’ll have no doubt

You’re the one I’m living for



I’ll provide the love you need

Just trust my touch

Believe in me

I’ll never make you cry

Giving all I’ve got with all I’ve got inside.



Another level - From The Heart

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