FINAL - Episode 5
July 05 2008
Nw, earli in the mornin at 8am SHARP…. I reached Pasir Ris Mrt stn… Coz its my 1st time as a leader of MINDS outin… woo hoo… Aniwae, after some serious remindal frm my mentor, I guessed its abt time I shld changed my habits of bein late for outins… N I will keep tis up as long as I can….
8.30am, ning was earli than my other comm members… I actualli dunno why she came so earli also…. But well, I dunno wat to tok to her either… Its nt realli easy for me to change overnite lar… I mean, to go over to all the volunteers n say : “hey, hw are you?” I seriousli needed some warmup lor…. Aniwae, I was busy dryin my bag as water frm my water bottle spilt out…. Ok, but after as more volunteers come, I did some interaction, which I cld sae is a breakthru lar….
Hm… for the whole outin, I guessed my performance as a leader was juz a good…. Nt realli the best, coz I haf still alot more to improve on… I guessed tis outin, the pts tat I set for the volunteers were met, so seriousli, they haf done well… But I gotta remind myself, I was never doin the best job as a leader. My performance still needs a lot of improvement…. Guessed my mentor said correctli….
Aniwae, I hoped tat tis start of a good performance for tis outin will brin in better performance for ani outins….
After debriefin session wif the grp…. Everione got together to celebrate ning’s birthdae… Haha…. wat a chaotic times it is, as she is smashed wif her cake…. Hahaha…. Ok… I didn’t did much to help her either and I got my retribution…. I was juz standin at a corner and while she was chasin after someone else, she juz came beside me and smashed me wif her handful of cake… OMG…. Thank god tat I will be changin my clothin before I go to after glow…..
I left after the comm debriefin and went straight for home to change…. Its time for After Glow….
I did manage to come juz a little bit late…. Hm… tis after glow is a bit different frm the past post camp gatherin I attended… Eileen had tis ice breaker game, disaster for all of us to play lar… o_O … hahaha… but seriousli, I guessed its gd as volunteers frm each sub camps are abled to mix ard….
Den lookin at the camp video, I was tinkin abt alot…. 5 y camps alreadi…. Woah…. Hw did I managed to continue for so long??? I seriousli dunno…. Juz as all my past camp mates, onli like ning, terence, daniel, huda, ai jia, jinng yi, arnold, enard, alicia and huijing came back more than once, I guessed huijing, alicia and me came back the most…. But tink back all the hardship I went thru as a volunteer in tis camp, all the busy times in the log team and the haeadache and larah times I had as a programmer, I guessed all is worth it….
I made a promise to myself tat y camp dec 2010 will be my last one… If I can continue till den, I will be able to go thru 10 y camps… N more realisticalli, I haf to tink of wat roles do I actualli suit more… so I actualli haf requested eileen to put me back into the log team and nowhere else…. Seriousli, tis is nt juz out of the blues tingy, but more of after I tink thru carefulli…..
Hearin ppl tokin abt their reflections abt the camp, I was seriousli touched… especialli when ning came out to sae abt hers, I was inspired by wat she sae…. Frm 1999 till nw, I haf been doin 8 yrs of volunteerin work, at times when I was abt to gif up, it was the ppl whom I had work wif bear wif me all my tempers and mani other unreasonable requests to do mani stuff, tat I had the confidence to keep on goin…. Nw wif a mentor guidin me, I am realli glad she did….
After hearin frm wat ning said, I will wan to continue till dec 2010 wif ymca…. After tinkin realli hard, I realised tat nth is more impt when you actualli put all ur heart in to help the ppl whom you wanted to help…. More imptli is tat, you are able to gif as much of ur love and concern to the ppl ard you….
The after glows ended in a huge laughter wif the funnie videos yinghui made…. Hahaha….
Den, some of us proceed to timbre for some chillin out session… I had to sae I lost all my image when after drinkin 3 full cups of bacardi plus mixer, I vomited… OMG…. N wats worse, infront of my gd friend, ning…. diaoz…. o_O”" … wah lew…. sigh…. After the 2nd time I vomited, justin and jerome, n tink ying hui helped me out to let me take a cab home… thanx to them….
Argh…. tat nite I had a freakin headache after drinkin tat much… OMG…. though the food is nice lar…..
July 06 2008
Kool…. yeah… I managed to wake up at 9am, despite of drunken state…. haha… Aniwae, I went online to surf till 3pm and left home… I am goin to val’s surprise birthdae parti….
I reached east coast park at ard 5pm… Ok, nt becoz tat I was late, I managed to take a bus and reached the park at 4pm, but walkin frm carpark E3 to C1, it took me nearli 1 hr…. OMG…. When I reached there, I was like…. shag…. realli shag….
After chillin and tokin for a while, yiliang and tiying appeared ard 5.30pm… wif lots of stuff…. Aniwae, we managed to juz stand ard and tok and tok and tok till val came lar…. Ok, at the start, its onli juz food and one small birthdae cake lor… Wats fun is tat val had a big box of present for her…. woah….
Aniwae, the food was nice… but I seriousli cannt eat too much, after vomitin too much yst…. I also drank ard 3 cups of coke and changed to green tea…. Den, had some small chit chattin session wif yiwei… gd to knw tat he’s also in y confidence…. haha… he’s camp commander for dec 08’s y camp, so he had to be there….
It will be a challengin y confidence lorx…. N I hoped I can do my veri best in y confidence…. Also heard tat val will be in dec 08’s y camp as sub camp commander…. gd gd….
Hm…. well, tis paragraph abt wat actualli happened, actualli I wanted to put it into my entri, but somehw I dun feel its appropriate…. So, I will nt put it in, but I will write it in another way…. I can onli sae, heaven is realli fair… I am nt a veri gd guy, tats why when he let me met gd girls, they can onli be my friends N nt my girlfriend, but its ok, I guessed tat girl has met someone better than me…. I sincerli wish them happiness…. I knw I am nt in a way better than ani of the guys, nt even him, n moreove, the me nw is nt concentratin on love issue, so might as well forget it….
I was a passerby in love, a friend to the ones I haf feelins for…..
Aniwae, the biggest surprise for val is tat her bf, samuel came lorx…. hw sweet…. Seein 2 couples, val and samuel, libing and andrew, I felt tat its normalli when the girls can out her faith on tat particular guy who can take gd care of her, tats hw they are together….
Den slowli, libing and andrew left 1st…. followed by pau, yiwei and huili, den val and samuel…. Onli left yiliang, ah kar, tiying and me tokin and playin games, which I had a hard time figurin out the answers larx…. The 3 of them got some slp after 4am… I was tinkin a lot in my mind and thus cldnt slp….. We did tri to wait for the sun to come out in east coast park, but juz cldnt see ani… so sad….
We left the place at ard 8 plus am, after our breakfast, returnin to our hmes wif a tired and shag face….
I am shag, but I still cldnt slp yet…. I dunno why seriousli, but guessed I still had lots of thoughts to tink and tings to do….
