Sunday, February 24, 2008

CHANCE - Episode 7

February 24 2008

Tis one wk seems short, but its indeed long… Actualli, it seems nth special, but somehw I juz felt realli been a rough time goin on… Sometimes, I dun realli understand things, but I juz need time to go n reflex… Haiz… Hw I wish for a better time in my life…



Nw lets take a look at wat happen at my volunteerin career @ ymca… Nw on 16 feb, I went for a recee for the nature walk at macritchie… Eh… somehw, I never seem to enjoy the scenery or understand the nature till tat dae… Normalli, its either me quickli finish watever I had at tat place, or I will never get to enjoy the nature side, but I guessed I juz did on tat dae…



Den tat particular sat seems bored…. Wif a broke wallet I had, I juz cannt find a place to go… Haiz….



20 feb is the nature walk’s briefin… Eh… didn’t quite expect mani changes to happen, but somehw, mani changes appeared last min in my log team for the nature walk… Nt tat I am nt happie abt it, but somehw I juz feel tat its realli gettin more common for changes to keep on appearin…. Haiz… So aniwae, on tat dae, I had a meetin wif my log team…. Guessin its a gd session…



Eh… thanx to guo sheng, I managed to pay the y nature walk t shirt… Still own him 2 dollars…

Nw lets see wat happens on the nature walk itself… Mani things came veri last min… but its nt tat bad lar… In the end, all things went well, nt realli too bad, I guessed… I will take tis time to thanx all the members in my log team, 2IC, Guo Sheng, shu wei, ck, sandy, ee ling, zi yan, joel n joyce…. Eh… all of them put in the effort n hard work on tat dae… Guessed wifout them the log team will nt be so successful eh… haha… Thanx again…



Over the wk, I also applied for the community service executive post which yew chong, eileen and pauline are all havin nw… I handed up the application form le… Heard frm pau tat its wif mark nw… Ehx… hope tat I will be successfulli employed as a staff of ymca lar… Nw dunno leh… realli dunno whether I will get tat job I wanted or nt… Prayin hard….

As for her, she had some tough exams on thurs n sat… 2 at one wk… Woah… So nw, I juz gotta pray for her tat it will be a gd results for her… She will get thru… I haf faith in her… N wats gd, after her exams, tis comin wk is her break… so gd… My break??? Will haf to wait for the next holidae lol…. which is march 21st leh….

NS… nth much as usual… juz more work, more tough times… but when tough times pass, great men will survived… Days to ord seems quite far, but somehw when u least expect it, its comin… 3 mth plus, I am definetli gone and back as a civilian… woo hoo… Tats why I am realli pinnin real hard for it to come….



Nw, hw can life be so bored eh??? Dunno leh… Ooh, aniwae, comin fri is krystle’s birthdae, will be goin arhx….

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Friday, February 15, 2008

CHANCE - Special Episode

February 14 2008

Special Episode for a special today… Valentine’s Day…

Ok… too envy of tiying, ning havin blog entries on Valentine’s Day… I realli cant wait till sundae to publish the newest blog entri… So, tata… Todae, u haf it, the special episode of CHANCE…

Well, speakin on tis special dae… When things are nt even confirmed yet, I will nt be assured of realli anything… But on feb 14, I am realli glad tat the lord helps me past tis wonderful dae….

Actualli hor, on feb 13, I was still wonderin whether to buy her roses leh… so, after reachin compass pt, I thot to myself… why nt throw coin to decide whether or nt to buy her the roses… Haiz… the 50 cent coin told me… NOPE !!! But somehw, I didnt follow the advice of the coin…

I entered the flower shop and bought a blue rose which is in a bouqet… Juz as I thot to myself tat whole nite, I was prayin to the lord, let me meet her on feb 14…

Somehw, 2 daes ago, she alreadi knew tat I haf feelins for her… but well, she and me came to a understandin where friendship stays on forever… I myself neither is someone who forces things… So… I juz let things goes by its nature, dun need to bother so much, juz let everithing comes naturalli… I wanted to meet her, but somehw thrus nite is never a gd dae to meet, she had to study till veri late, I was realli disappointed lar… but well… everithing still goes to ‘SEE HW’…

On feb 14 itself… as I did nt haf to return back to camp coz my boss force me to clear off lar… I decided to wake up earli, well wif a idea in mind to gif her a surprise, I decided to go dwn earli to simei to wait for her… Eh… Thru communications and interactions, I found out her timetable lar…

Reached simei ard 9 plus am… Msg her and told her meet together before she goes to sch lol… Haha… gotta admit the feelin of waitin and waitin is terrible and worst, did nt receive ani repli frm her makes me feel more terrible lar… Den after waitin till 10 plus am, she replied… Yeah…

She will be late… she will reached ard 11 plus am bah… but its nt whether she will be late or nt, its a matter of whether she will come or nt… and I definetli cares abt tat more than any other thing else sia…. So, there I was keep on waitin at the same area….

11 plus am, my hp rang…. its her… OMG!!! Its the 1st time she called me… Hw surprised I was lol… but well, this call I realli cherish even thou its juz to ask me where I was… After she arrived up frm the escalator… My heart sank…. Hw haf I waited for this moment to come sia…

The moment she saw me, I was wif a full bag of presents… Eventualli I didn’t find the rite chance to sae tat its meant to be hers lar… Haiz… I jzu couldnt find the rite moment… So, bth of us juz walked on… and we bth took a train dwn to dhoby ghuat mrt stn… I gotta thanx the lord again lol…

Eh… why I thanx the lord again coz if he hasnt arranged me to be goin dwn to ymca, I will nt even be takin the same train wif her lar… haha…

Thruout the whole journey on the train, nth much were said… I haf to admit, I am someone who can be quiet at times and can be talkative at times… but definetli the upper is wat happened todae… Somehw, at one time, we bth laughed together…. Tink its when our eyes met each other lar… haha…

Some confessions to be made… 1st, I bluff to her tat I arrived at 11 am instead of 9am… Eh… tis is defientli a white lie… I dun wan her to feel bad… I dun wan her to, tats why I had to say tat… N thruout the whole train journey, its nt tat I am tired, thou I am but I juz wanted to look at her quietli… coz I realli miss her… Miss her everidae and nite…. Tats why I jzu wanted to keep quiet n look at her face onli….

Sorrie, but I juz couldnt tell her all tis, its realli tough lar…

After reachin dhoby ghuat mrt stn, we bth tok abt the plans we had todae… I guessed we bth had veri different schedules… hahaha… but well, its realli great to be juz walkin rite beside her and tokin to her… Well, funniest moment happened when she said she wanted to walk me to ymca…. wahahaha….

Hm… well, SMU is juz opposite onli mah, so, for the sake of walkin near, she walk me to ymca mah….

Eh… as we are gettin near ymca, I kept on forcin myself to juz tell her…. Urgh… realli hated tis feelin of wan or dun wan… haiz… Den, wif a blink of my eye, we bth are at the building’s doorstep… OMG… Juz when she was sayin gdbye to me… I den shaken up and told her tat the bag of gifts is for her….

Well, she is quite touch lar… Aniwae, the gifts for her are a blue rose in bouquet, a musical box… well, its on her wishlist lar… and the 3 bks on her wishlist… Nw I shall introduce them… Norwegian Wood, Lifetime of Secrets and Memiors of a Gangster’s Daughter…

































After givin her the gifts, we parted, eh… I was realli nt bearin to leave her sia… So as I walked into ymca, I looked at her back wif her carryin the bag of gifts I gaf to her walkin towards smu….

I haf to admit, todae she’s realli the most beautiful woman I ever met… Its the truth… Till nw I can still rmb her face deep inside my heart, deep inside me….

Ok, so wat am I doin at ymca sia??? Its feb 14 leh and I am at ymca to… celebrate tiying’s birthdae lol….































Ok… somehw I am the 1st to arrive at ymca after sendin her off lar… So, I proceed to lvl 3 and guess wat, pau came at the same time lol… Wah… she realli enjoy life… omg… I guessed her lifestyle is always veri relaxed one… hahaha

While waitin, pau asked me abt hw’s my poli application le… I guessed tis time round I am realli nt ready to go back to sch life yet lar…

Cannt blame me leh… After 2 yrs in army, hw will u expect me to go back rite straight to sch… Veri de sianz to immediateli go back leh… But aniwae, after checkin, RP is the onli place where I can appli wifout ani worries… Coz my cca’s gpa is 0.2, full score… N the minimum gpa RP need is 2.0 lol… Aniwae, I decided tat nw prob I wan to go work first… N last nite, I haf applied for a post at ymca le lol… which is the post of yew chong, eileen and pau….

Aniwae, waited till 12 plus pm, tiying and val finalli appeared… Wah!!! tiying is like wat val described her as… HOT!!! but she too white le lar… ok… I guessed tiying’s bf is definetli a fortunate guy… lucki him…. hahaha

Waited till nearli 1pm, all the rest finalli came, yiliang and libing…. The 6 of us den proceed to PS’s Justica to eat… hm… I had a herbal chicken soup set meal lar… The rest of them had deep fried chicken set while val had spicy beancurd kimchi noodles…

Somehw, when I took my drink, my mug beer become 7 up lol… but like wat libing said, its veri sour kind of water lar… Aniwae, had changed it to pepsi… Actualli the most surprised thing tat happened is tat pau paid for all of us… OMG… its veri surprise lol coz when she was wif us, we dun realli even knw when she paid for all of us…

After lunch, all of us accompanied libing to her job interview at international plaza… wah… can u believe it at lvl 29, our ears felt intense pressure sia… OMG… who can haf thot libing’s job interview is at such a high place… N so while we r waitin for her to finish her interview, the 4 of us were like bimbos chit chattin… OMG… its so unglam lol… hahaha…

Den at later, we proceed dwn till the 1st floor and went to the flower shop we saw earlier… We decided to buy flowers for pau who had paid for all of us… N the girls went all over the place crazili for clothes…. Haiz… Wat can I sae… Girls…

We den proceed to citi hall for tiying’s valentine’s dae present…

eh… actualli I had helped her over the past few daes to look for sth she like so tat she can gif to her dude, chen long… eh… somehw, we bth discussed and discussed over the nite and found sth which is veri suitable, watch… Actualli had to do wif tiying’s budget… Its ard 70 dollars…

So for all the walkin… We finalli reached one shop where I lend tiying my wrist to model for the watch… N tats the watch which nt onli caught my eyes but the girls too… Somehw as tiying’s dude is one yr older than me, I understand wat his tinkin is like lar….

But its ex lar… even though it is, I den told her its worth it lol and keep on assurin her after buyin tat its defientli worth the price coz its the most unqiue watch… Even I am memerise by it lar…

Ok, the buyin of the watch is after the 5 of us went to coffee bean to chill… eh… Its nt coffee bean leh… its a american restuarant lol… dunno why tiying put in her blog its coffee bean???? I was almost broke lar after spendin much on valentine’s dae gift, so had to order the most cheapest there… N its hazelnut cappuchino… eh… somehw tiying dun rmb wat I drank or wat I ate sia… ahahha… Aniwae, tiying had minty lychee freeze tea, val had mocha java, libing had naughty banana…. Dunno the real name liao, but one of the waiter who val said tat he looks like the rock keep on sayin tat lol…. N yiliang had latte after flippin thru the menu for such a long time….

Tat last line was copirighted frm tiying’s blog lol… hahaha…. Oh yar, I still can rmb tat I said tat all malays like to impersonate the rock, tats why they cut his hairstyle lar… hahaha… Aniwae, he is sweet enugh to gif tiying 2 heart shaped cookies after we used the bear for pau to gif to tiying as we sang her the birthdae songs… hahaha…

Oh yar, by the end… when tiying and libing r finishin their drinks, they r freezin like hell lol… hahaha… The rock is becomin a gentleman tis time round again as he gaf us another 4 cookies… I took 1 to eat lar…

We den proceed back to ymca… Eh… all of us r den slackin ard and thus while waitin for yan ann to play the piano, we chit chat here n there lol… Somehw, yan ann never did play the piano… Veri funnie… hahaha… Ooh… pau was veri touch by wat we had done for her… but as yiliang had expected, pau juz laughed and laughed lol….

Ok… somehw I became mark lee after his promo of ah long pte ltd came out… his sissy role affected me to impersonate him N somehw I also became sissy for the time bein lar wif tiying’s big bag… hahaha

When we reached citi hall mrt stn again, I told tiying, woah… we had made a trip ard n nw back again…. wah… Den as we were decidin where we r goin, we came to a conclusion to go to Raffles Citi Shoppin mall to eat… KK… tiying… its nt marina sq arhx… hahaha

Aniwae, at citi hall mrt stn, ying shan and ah kar subsequentli joined the rest of us… So while the rest r waitin for the bread to come as yan ann and yiliang r preparin, I went all ard the shoppin mall to find atm machine… guessed wat… after takin out the remainin money in my bank… I announced tat I AM FINALLI BROKE!!! omg… I inside my heart was wonderin hw can I go to drink ltr sia…. haiz…

After returnin to cafe cartel, I onli to realise tat all had ordered lol… So wif flippin thru the menu, I decided to order steak…. ho ho ho… I gotta sae, the staff r realli busy lol… Ordered 2 times pepsi and to realise tat after I had almost finished everithin, den 1 pepsi came… wah liew… Before we left, we celebrated tiying’s birthdae wif the delicious fruit cake….

Well, tis is a off topic… Actualli on our wae to the Harry’s bar, I was tokin to Zhi liang abt wat happened between carolyn n siang rui onli to realise tat becoz of some stupid things tat siang rui did, tats why carolyn slapped him… haiz… well, if I was carol, I wld haf did the same thing, I guessed….

Ok, we went to Harry’s bar next… somehw, I didnt had enjoy it when u dun haf enugh cash wif u… haiz… Aniwae, ordered a tequilla sunshine… I haf to sae if I gt the money, I wld haf ordered sth better…. Aniwae, if u realised carefulli, u will get to see 2 of the same kind of drinks appearin on the table…

Ying shan and me had tequilla sunshine, libing n tiying had strawberry magarita, val and ah kar had mango darqui, pau and yan ann had bloody mary wif yiliang to onli haf his sherry… Tequilla sunshine is ok lar… strawberry magarita is refreshin, mango darqui is like sardine in water and bloody mary was sharp… Sherry is too strong for newcomers… I am ok wif all these drinks, coz I am quite a good drinker…

Juz tat I am nt smilin, does nt mean I am emo lol… hahaha… but somehw all of them thot I am emo sia… diaoz… the chillin session is realli great… coz we enjoyed music and chit chattin all the wae… woo hoo.. but somehw I will onli gif a 5.5 out of 10 pts for Harry’s bar lol…

After relaxin for a while wif libing and ying shan leavin, the rest of us moved to singapore river for another chillin session… As we all r chit chattin 1/2 wae, yan ann was suggestin to go n see the merlion as he never saw it before… I hwever did nt wan to go n saw tiying didnt wan to go too, so bth of us juz sat there n enjoyin the breeze….

A beautiful nite, bth of us had some heart felt tok…. aw… so touchin, wif each of us nt wif the person we wanted to be beside us, the 2 of us were doin fine wif each other’s accompani, hm… tink we bth had tok for a long time lol… haha… there were a grp of photographers mistaken us as couple sia… hahaha….

After the rest of them came back, we all proceed to go n find water, which was suggested by yiliang lar… but somehw at the middle of somewhere, all of us went into a hotel, and den I juz crazili impersonate anithin or anione whom I tink of to entertain all of them lol… haha… but well, they r nt entertain…. Hw sad… haha…

Oh yar… tiying n val sang sweeny todd’s song while we walked… urgh… when can I see sweeny todd sia??? haiz…

Finalli, all of us managed to find a 7 eleven n yiliang found his water… yeah… Den tat was when 2 cabs appeared n all of us scrambled to leave the place n go home… wif yiliang waitin for his dad…

Eh… gotta thanx tiying for the taxi fee… I gotta admit, she had 20 while I had my last 10 dollars wif me… if wifout her money, I doubt I can reach home lol… haiz….

Ooh… below are more photos taken frm tiying’s birthdae…


















Aniwae, Happie birthdae and happie valentine’s dae, Tiying… Ya… Happie Valentine’s dae to her…

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Sunday, February 10, 2008

CHANCE - Episode 6

February 10 2008

K guys… I will post some of AJ’s performance photos 1st before I continued todae’s episode….































Well, its our fav AJ’s performances last fridae… As a support, the TURTLES were all there to support her… Somehw I received these pics frm ning… Aniwae, as wat ning sae… AJ looked somehw like ah ma… OMG… but ok lar… she has tat child like face, even if she’s a ah ma, she’s more like child like ah ma…. hahaha….

Back to todae’s episode…. CNY…



My CNY was nt tat great at all… Maybe u can sae nt even a veri big thing after all… Coz onli on CNY eve, my grandma (mum’s side) came to cook for my family… Well, as a matter of some dispute, 5 of us were onli the ppl celebratin tis yr…



The 5 ppl are My grandma, dad, mum, younger sis and me…. We all went eatin some dishes and tats it… Reunion dinner…

Den for the rest of the 4 daes in CNY, its veri borin… its even borin for the whole of fridae when I went unlucki, com spoiled, she nt replin my msg… sigh… Wat a veri unlucki dae….



Actualli, she also seldom repli my msg nwadaes….

I guessed CNY tis yr is juz plain simple n sweet… Nth complicated, nth big realli… Sigh… I guessed maybe somedaes when u wanted some excitement, it mae juz happen…. but lookin at the current trend, CNY will be gettin more borin as each yr goes by for me….



Nw 2 daes before CNY, my camp mates and me went to geylang for…. ah… dun tink too far… we juz went there in the 1st place is to eat frog leg porridge, but somehw, due to walkin too long and time is gettin veri late, all the 5 of us ended up eatin tim sum….



Well, due to eatin in coffee shop, dalton, my camp mate ordered beers… Heniken beers… Stanley who is the driver onli get to drink tea… so there left, 4 of us, but grayson and nicholas did nt realli drink too much and if I can rmb, its onli dalton and me drinkin 2 n 1/2 big cups…



Somehw, I am liked 1/2 awake and 1/2 drunk due to emotions boilin inside me….

Den after dinner, the 5 of us went ard geylang and viewin the different scenerios we will nt see everydae… As I can sae, its a veri different experiences, coz u see different sorts of ppl wif different aims on tat veri nite….



1 dae before CNY was nt a different dae either…. Thou its off n I get to slp veri late, but at nite, I had to attend the Y Nature Walk’s meetin… Well, almost all things r settled and for my log team, I also gt plans for them to do… Oh yar, Sth funnie happened lol…. Out of the 8 volunteers I recruited, 5 of them became leaders for tis event… Wah!!!



Till todae, 12 ppl r confirmed inside my log team…. N one of them is my CSC’s junior, Joel… Eh… workin wif him again is ok la… Juz hope he can improved on his volunteerin skills and personal skills in order one dae to become a volunteer leader in YMCA…

Hm… still decidin on whether to haf a meetin wif the log team… Guessed will discuss wif yew chong on mondae…

Somehw I became addicted to drinkin beers and yst, zhi liang, my junior went to accompani me to drink beer at a coffee shop nearby his hse… Sigh… Dun realli knw why, but drinkin beers r juz like water flowin dwn wif my sorrows in my heart… Maybe its me, but I dunno, I guessed I juz had to let my sorrows and emotions go to somewhere and my stomach does everithing….



Todae, went to play mahjong… Eh… nt too bad, at 1st winnin, but somehw luck desert me and did nt stay wif me long even I had done like wat mahjong king, ah wang had taught me… Haha… dun get wrong, ah wang the mahjong king is the movie, que shen, nt a real person…



I lost 6 dollars in the end….

Oh… Unexpectedli, todae I found out tat she’s also someone who likes to play mahjong, somehw her luck is better than me lol… Sigh… Next time, I guessed askin her out for a game of mahjong is nt tat bad orhx….



Back to her… I realli is at a lost alreadi… Oh god, wat shld I do nw????



I realli dunno, I haf tried everithing I can and did wat I can for her… But somehw nth has been improved… Thou the feelin is nt like stranger, but definetli I felt tat its more to friends side and is more than friends bah…. I guessed she can feel it whenever I gaf my care and concern to her…

I am nt someone who wans to demand anything anymore…. I dun realli force her, but at least replin my msg is nt a veri forceful thingy, but somehw, my msg is becomin useless anymore… Hw abt callin her huh??? I dun even had tat little courage to call her…. To even speak to her thru phone will made me more afraid of myself….

So the lord, I tried my veri best to do wat I realli can… N realli thanx the lord for givin me the courage to ask her out on valentine’s dae…. Somehw she did nt reject me askin her out, but wat does ‘See Hw’ means??? I am realli poor at tis kind of guessin wat a girl realli wan… I am a veri simplified person, its always either yes or no, but ‘See Hw’???

Sigh… I realli had no idea…. N lookin at her blog makes me even clueless…. I guessed her emotions had been givin her some different thots recentli… I realli wanted to help her… but juz like wat I can be nw, realli clueless….

Tmr goin to sing Kbox…. Its realli a gd time to be singin.. Eh… actualli, todae supposingli shld be singin K box wif derrick, but somehw mahjong overtakes it…. Ho Ho Ho….



Aniwae, before I end, gt one song wan to share wif all of u….



From The Heart



I know you’ve heard these words a hundred other times before

And you’ve been hurt and so your heart has chose to close the door

Love broke your heart and brought you lies

Look in my eyes

You’ll see a love that’s deep and true

Tender and strong and all for you

You can trust this love

Honest, that’s the honest truth.



From the heart

I’m giving you everything, everything

From the heart

I promise you that I’ll be there

I’ll be there to love you

From the soul

I’m showing you all I feel, all I feel is

From the heart, from the heart.



I will protect you and respect you and be all you need

And when you reach for love you’ll only need to reach for me

These arms will never let you down

They’re staying around

I’ll walk with you through every storm

I’ll keep you safe, I’ll keep you warm

and you’ll have no doubt

You’re the one I’m living for



I’ll provide the love you need

Just trust my touch

Believe in me

I’ll never make you cry

Giving all I’ve got with all I’ve got inside.



Another level - From The Heart

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Sunday, February 3, 2008

CHANCE - Episode 5

February 03 2008

Hey all… before I start todae’s episode, let me post some photos which I shld haf post for a veri long time… Its the Y camp log team’s photos…

































I like the 3rd photo esp… haha… Basicalli, she is inside also… Haiz… realli disappointed tat durin y camp, I never took a single one to one photo wif her….

But tink back at tat time, I still like another girl, so therefore, didn’t reali haf a little feelins for her nw… but all these while, I guessed I wld haf cherish her tat much after all the little coversation her n there…. I guessed….

Back at NS…. a few more mths to ORD lol… Nw if I had work tat hard in the past 1 n 1/2 yrs… I guessed I wld had spent my time wiseli in NS… but its onli after my MC when I went back tat my time were spent fruitfulli…

First time in my whole NS life, I carried OBMs… omg… its actualli nt tat heavy lar… but I didn’t realised it after carryin it… haiz… Nver wld I thot tat I shld be helpin them when my NS mates needed my help, I guessed before I ORD, I will be a much help needed for them to doin all those stuffs…

Comin to the 2nd mth of 2008…. 4 more mths to ORD lol… hahaha… Anywae, feb in 2008 is a veri gd mth too… CNY comin tis thurs… woo hoo… Also valentine’s dae comin… eh… dunno when shld I be askin her out for valentine’s celebration leh….

Realli dun like my tis current boss… Nt tat he’s fuck up lar… he’s a gd boss, but juz tat I dun like his wae of clearin my offs… My off is nt tat much lol… OMG… but he cleared it anyhw he likes, and its affectin my ORD plannin… haiz… I will juz haf to see to it to see hw my clearin of leaves and offs cld be changed to suit my ORD…

Well, tink abt wat my NS mates asked me abt why did I convert myself to christian, I guessed somehw its related to her, but definetly nt all… I mereli didnt wan to explain tat much lar, so had to told them 1/2 of the truth… but well, the other 1/2 haf to be related to my shi fu, eileen who touched me wif her chruch….

Nw lets see… on fri, feb 01, TURTLES members went to see out fav snow white, AJ’s performances…































Actualli till nw, even after I left her performaces, I wld nt haf understand wat her dance is tellin me… wat she is performin… but for AJ, tis is her performances… N I felt she’s realli great durin her performances, which is the truth lar… I was tryin my best to understand some of the actions and emotions shown durin her whole performances… Its an art thing, so needed a strong background to tryin to understand wat the dancers are expressin….



Juz as I cld rmb tat dae sia… all the guys were still rejectin the idea of goin up on stage to gif AJ the flowers… OMG… I den proposed to gif her myself lol… den somehw its the fact tat its onli after the performances tat we all went up together to gif her lar… hahaha…



Realli dunno why terence is so scared to go on stage to gif her the flowers as daniel, shu wei and me had originalli planned… Hahaha… after all, its onli goin on stage mah…. Do he had to react so strangeli????

Anywae, after her dance performances, the TURTLES went to eat supper together… Ard 12 midnight, AJ and me were still on the bus to hougang… I guessed its the 1st time tat we are sittin on the bus together goin to a common destination…. Some sort the feelins are tired rather than havin something else…. hahaha….



Sat’s Reading club session…. I guessed I wld haf to leave the committee after much struggle… Its nt tat I felt tat my efforts were gone to waste coz I knw tat pau is someone who cherish her leaders well…



But juz tat I realli dun wan to get involved in plannin anymore… Its gettin more tougher for me to develop in reading club le…. As wat I can see it… there’s a lot of leaders in readin club, and as I haf thot it wld be rather to haf a fixed committee rather than u haf  plenty of leaders doin plannin….



Its gettin tired to stay on in the reading club’s committee… Haiz… Maybe nw my plan is juz to retain the leader’s position, but for any meetin, I guessed I wld nt be stayin on….

I guessed I haf to leave tis to the last… The place where TURTLES went for supper are Mc Donald… but its at SERENE CENTRE… hahaha… its her fav centre lar… hahaha… I had retained the receipt juz to stay in memory tat I went to her fav place… I guessed tis are all the little stuffs tat I cld do for her….



Juz like tat dae when she had lost her wallet, wat I can onli do is to pray for her to find back her wallet… N the next dae, someone gladli found back her wallet lar… realli thanx the lord… Anywae, the most impt thing is, I was nt able to share her sadness of losin her wallet wif her, but till late nite, den I knew abt it…. haiz…



Hwever, I was realli glad tat she told me abt it…



Guessed the dissapointment recentli shld be tat she went to see the movie, Sweeny Todd which is a movie I wanted to see wif her…. Haiz… but too bad, did nt asked her to see together coz was feelin tat its nt the rite timin… OMG… nw I can onli regret tat in my dictionary full of regrets…. haiz…



Valentine’s dae is comin, I knw tat on tat dae probabli she will be studyin until veri late, but I realli wan to spend tat dae wif her… dunno which dae is the rite dae to even ask her… haiz… Oh the lord, pls gif me some strength to be able to ask her out for valetine’s dae….

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