CHANCE - Epsiode 4
Firstly, let me introduce u all to my very, very cute pet… Ah Toot…
Well, ah toot comin alive is nt by chance but by the influence of her pet, ho ho ho…. omg…. her ho ho ho is a cute panda lar…. but green… so u can imagine a cute green panda nw at her blog lol…. Anywae, green… well, its her fav color…
Juz these few daes, I haf been goin dwn simei veri often…. hm… why this palce, u may be askin…. hahaha… the ans is veri simple lar… she had introduced to me a veri nice stall sellin mian…. OMG… even todae, I am still cravin for mian… ban mian, you mian… arhx… esp you mian…. I guessed some food are juz meant to be shared…. hahaha… hm… and nt forgettin tat yst and todae, I ate you mian for dinner sia…. I realli pray to the god tat may one dae, gif me the chance to eat wif her together… haiz… Oooh… actualli, tis one I shld haf mentioned it a long time ago lol… but well, I forgot… haha…. YMCA’s jan e-news, the 1st headline, its abt the dec 07’s fund raisin… and u knw wat…. Yan tong and me had our photos featured on the e-news lol… OMG… hw surprised I was lol…. hahahaAnywae, abt yesterdae’s apsn outin, I guessed its realli a gd time lettin it all out as a leader…. Hwever, I believed tis is realli a great start… I guessed I had nt failed in the challenge which shi fu gaf to me…. to come out of my comfort zone…
Maybe I did nt had a gd start at the beginnin, esp ice breaker, hafin to change 3 times… but if I dun, I guessed, it will be tough to continue… Den reachin east coast park, I did all my best to motivate my whole team to be actively takin part of all the activities… I guessed its realli nt tat easy, but I haf nt failed myself at all….
Maybe its lucki for me…. I dunno…. I met shun wei at the outin…. well, she’s still as beautiful as I had last seen her… Her smile is still the same, but I guessed I will never had the chance to haf the same feelins for her again…. Maybe its due to the lack of communication, space and time for the bth of us…. Haiz… At yst nite, I went to meet pau and the rest of the reading club’s guys after eatin you mian… well, to be exact, their intention is to celebrate brithdae for yiliang and ah kar… but hw wld I had guessed tat I had actualli celebrate yiliang’s birthdae for 3 times…. Fri nite, apsn outin and yst nite…
Eventualli, there’s a lot of ppl, but ard 9 plus pm, onli left yiliang, pau, wei wen, ah kar, val, tiying and me… We den spent the rest of the few hrs walkin ard esplanade, tokin and chattin thru the hrs…. Initalli, all of us had the idea of goin into DXO to find a place to chill till 3am, but somehw, the idea were put off as we all had decided to do tat on another dae… OMG…. I shldn’t haf told the girls my chinese name lar…. Dunno why, they said tat my chinese name is nt bad… but somehw I haf nt heard ppl callin my chinese name for mani yrs le… Haiz… Anywae, had to pay back tiying 10 dollars +++, for the taxi fare yst… Somehw, yst we chatted over till nearli 12 midnight lol…. hahaha… Hm… I guessed believin in the lord has helped me alot…. N one of my wishes haf finalli came true… woo hoo… on fri nite, juz as I was waitin for alan to finish chattin wif shi fu, den go home together, somehw, suddenli I heard tat I haf been confirmed as sub camp commander for tis jun’s y camp… OMG…. I cannt believed it lol… somehw tis came to a much surprised to me… coz a few wks ago, shi fu den told me tat I will nt become the sub camp commander, but on fri nite, tis news became sth which spurs me up…. Its a veri gd news…. I am realli glad tat I haf finalli be able to become the sub camp commander of y camp… yeah… Realli grateful to shi fu, I guessed I am still in 7th heaven… hahaha…. Anywae, I had been prayin to god almost everydae… so nw, the lord heard my call… I realli felt so fortunate… well… for the time bein… I guessed…. Aniwae, I had been grateful to her lar… I guessed juz like wat I had mentioned before… girls get irritated after u keep continuosli tokin to her everydae… I realli dunno if its realli a mistake… but somehw, I juz wanted to knw hw she felt, hw she tink, and hw is her everidae… I guessed started frm yst onwards, she maybe feelin a little vexed over me lar bah… somehw my action of tokin to her everydae has become a burden??? I realli dunno… So I had been doin all wrong again…. haiz… In the past, to me love is juz tat u love tat person, but I am always to shy to even communicate wif the other person… Juz a few yrs ago, I thot maybe I shld express it in a care and concern wae, but well, I never realli did tat, somehw, communication seems weak, and thus causin a lot of distance between me and the other person…. But nw, when I tried to understand her by tokin to her everidae, it became a problem also…. So the lord, tell me, wat shld I realli do leh??? I realli wanted to cherish her and tri and love her, but somehw, I was never realli given a chance… I mean the chance of gettin to further the relationship between her and me… I knew tat the lord haf been kind enugh to let me found her and to let me tok to her everidae, but I juz wanted to go further… I dunno … It nw seems tat she and me haf stopped at the pace… Realli, a move forward is tough??? I dunno… I juz wanted to move forward wif her at the same time… but it became tough if bth person doesn’t move… Neither do I wan to juz onli love her on my own, I wanted to had the same feelin wif her… Anywae, juz found out tat sweeny todd is comin out on jan 31… OMG… hw did I managed to tell her on her views of the movie when it never had even appeared in cinemas yet??? hahaha…. Anywae, after all the words had been typed, I guessed I juz needed some clear directions between myself and her bah…
Thou, I am nt tryin to get any thing more nw, I juz hoped tat I can knw hw she feels and tink everidae… basicalli, to tri and understand her… Is it even tough for me to do tat??? I dun wan to get her to be vexed over wat I am doin… realli…
Btw, I had juz finished reading norwegian wood last wk, den a few daes later, memiors of a gangster’s daughter, while still reading lifetime of secrets, I am nw goin into chapter 6 of dance dance dance…. N u knw wats best, I had a 2nd bk of norwegian wood todae… Hahaha….