CHRIS @ WORLD

July 2004

I guessed tis new yr, I will haf a new start towards my new life… I guessed each time I thot back into the past, its juz a memories… and Memories are to be remembered…. I guessed tis yr wif will be a new start to my life….

Stll can rmb earli tis yr… The time when I am abt to get my result, I was so nervous… Woo hoo… Anywae I did go out wif Mei Ling durin the holidaes… Sometimes onli lar… Haha… But I realli did enjoyed it much…

Anywae tat dae, I haf to gif her a belated birthdae gift… haha… Coz onli saw her on tat dae… Hm… wat I meant was, I didn’t get a chance to ask her out durin her birthdae… Dunno wat was the reason too…

So, I bought bouquet of roses… Haha… Dunno wat to buy, so thot tat will probabli make her happie bah… Guessed it did work… When she reached the place, I passed her the bouquet… Woo hoo… Maybe its strange, but my feelins for her got stronger…

After the results… I went off myself…. I did nt went to find Mei Ling coz needed some time to myself… My results nt say tat gd lar, but I managed some results which is nt too bad bah… Haha… O lvl gt 40 pts… who nt sad… My poli dreams gone liao lol… Haiz…

I did nt managed to overcome myself wif tis hit bah…. So went over to Trina’s centre to let her consel me… Haiz… Quite sad for a while, but after her consel, I guessed I will need to keep on goin….  Haiz… nw onli ITE courses available leh…

Anywae at nite, Mei Ling msg me, tellin me tat she is goin over to NYP tmr to tri her luck… So I thot ok lol, go and join her as well… I guessed u never tri, u will never knw… I juz had to see whether my last tri will let me go into poli…

The next dae, I waited for Mei Ling for 2 hrs lol…. Until I quite sianz liao, den I walked in 1st…. After she come, she apologize to me… I didn’t bear to blame her lar… Juz tat tell her I didn’t wan to wait outside so go into the poli 1st….

After tat, I went home lol… She also haf to go out wif her mum…. Ai yah, her mum was beside the bth of us, wat can I realli do…. Anywae, for the next few daes, we went to a lot of polis… to go there and tri, until the last poli, TP… She was tired and a bit of angry wif me… I guessed I didn’t realli care for her feelins, but other than tat her dreams of gettin into the poli was also burst….

Frm tat dae onwards, I didn’t even saw her le…. I accepted the fact and went on to register for ITE…. and one mth later, I gt a repli tat I will be studyin in Clementi ITE… Its the business IT course… Lets hope and see wat will happen in the ITE bah…

Thruout the holidaes, I was always goin out, either helpin CSC, playin in the basketball team of CSC or I will be goin out wif my juniors… Oh yar… the most often time, I am goin out wif is wif Da Gui and co lol… Anywae, met da gui’s elder sis, Mandy… She’s a nice girl lar… juz tat she’s quite on the rough side, nt those wen rou girls… Tats somehw I gt attracted to her bah….

Haha… dun tink too far… Nth, and I mean nth realli happened….

Todae, July 4 2004, one dae before the start of my ITE courses… its nw 2.30am, and I am watchin euro 2004 finals, Portugal vs Greece…. Wah… Haha….  Tmr mornin still need to go sch, and yet I am watchin soccer overnite…. Final score is Greece 2 Portugal 1…

I slept a few hrs and after tat woke up, had my breakfast, and went to take the mrt to ITE clementi… The start of my ITE life starts todae… eventualli for the start, I guessed its realli borin… I didn’t realli gt intrested wif all the programs tat is for orientation… Bored…

The next few daes ia all abt admin stuff…. I dun quite like wat is planned bah… coz dun realli get wat the consillors are doin… Hwever, I juz get on wif it lol… Haiz… Anywae, I finsihed all the buyins of uniforms on the 3rd dae itself….

Lessons started quite earli on the 2nd dae… I guessed I am quite interested in the course itself… Its a kool course, Business IT… where I can learned abt hw to design website and principles of doin a business…

The next wk, I got to join CCAs… There’s a CCA fair for all the new students… I was liked… ok… nt bad…. At first, didn’t knw wat to join lol… So walk ard and ard the institute…. Den see here and there, and finalli join a various of CCAs, like Interact Club, IT club, and student consillor…. Esp tis time round, student consillor, can join one, nt selected by teacher de leh…

Thursday, 20 September 2007

Betrayal… I am betrayed todae… Todae, I cld sae, i gt the most unfortunate time in my life… I was totalli stunned after the whole incidents… I guessed I will haf to see wat gd show will be on tmr….

Todae I am finalli burn out and quarrled wif cui cui…. I am totalli burn out after all those pressured given by my black boss… In the mornin, I went over to the suplurs box to find out some remainin stores, guessed took back some, but the rest will haf to wait until the box is brought back…

Tat quarrel happened back in the stores… His continuos naggin and the pressure made me finalli burn out and I shouted back to him : ” I am a man, nt a god, the things I can find back, i haf realli found and nw wif all the ideas I had, u are nt accpetin it, wat do u realli wan me to do???? “

I cried after so long…. Realli I didn’t knw hw, but I juz did…. Its totalli unbearable for me to keep tis pressure up and nw I had to make myself settle all of tis…. Tis sudden pressure made my head finalli burst…

Before, lunch, thot I will be goin for AVI…. haiz… onli one vehicle can moved leh… So had to let dalton and the understudy of grayson, stanley to go…. so tat he can learned mah… After lunch, thot haf time to relax… But work juz start lol…

After brinin the new guy, raymond to order his uniforms, and findin lubricants for oilin later, Jason, me and the rest of us went back to BSS for work…. anywae, it seems like cui cui was called into the LRO’s office for some tok… haha… finalli arhx…

Returnin back, Grayson and cong told me abt CSM’s surplurs store… so the 3 of us plus santos went over to find and we found some lar…. But there are alot of it, so, grayson and cong went to intent 5 ton and all can onli be done on mondae…

Back again at BSS, all of us went to work on the stores to oil for tmr’s ICT…. It was till dunno when tat cui cui came back wif CSM… Cong den told me to go to the stores to take a look and wat happened next is something which I defiently will rmb for the rest of my life…

The moment I entered the alm bii’s store… CSM accused me of why did I leave cui cui to die, why i didn’t helped him and I did nth for the whole of 1 yr…. I am nt so angry over the 1st 2, but I haf did nth for the whole of 1 yr…. WTF…

Hw much shit haf I cleared for alm bii for the past of 1 yr…. Wat can 1 man do sia and yet nw I had to get over all these accusations…. Damn it… all my effort had juz went into the drain…

I meaned hw can cui cui tell CSM and LRO like tat??? I tried my best alreadi thou sometimes, I may gif him some attitude and too busy to realli helped him…. but for my attitude wise, I am alreadi stressed over the losses…. Damn… and todae, he shot an arrow over my back…. Hw despicable…

Nw the whole of BSS knws it… They finalli gaf up on cui cui… As for me, yesh, I may nt be a gd guy, I may nt be someone who can find back all the losses as the mths goes by, but at least I am doin my best to find it back and I am doin my best to help everyone wif their job and executin tasks as much as possible….

My life juz gt dimmer by a bit todae…. Haiz…     

Oct 2003

This yr is another yr of critical exams for all my sec 5 sch mates and me… We are facing the most impt exams, the O lvls… haha… Finalli I am feelin the heat… Juz like hw shi you and co experience it last yr…

Anywae, I passed my N lvl last yr wif a flyin colours… Kool… 7 points… But I cannt get into 5A class leh… Dunno why, but tink the reason is tat my maths onli gt a grade 2… Haiz… Bo bian lar…

In CSC, I haf become full time advisor… The management team has been handed over under the leadership of Idah, Leong eng and Da Gui… I guessed the world is nw theirs… Tis yr, I am still in charge of projects… Hm… the whole team still sees me guidin them, but I am more of like assistin…

After 3 yrs, I finalli became tired… Therefore, as a advisor in the club’s managment itself, I provided advice as much as I can… I guessed tats the onli much I can do currently… Anywae, I tink I went all the wae helpin out until my O lvl is abt to start…

Guessed tats prettie the end of my era… Anywae, tis yr’s CSC Farewell Party and Election Day was the greatest one lol… Thou we gave out trophies and awards but the trophies is nt realli trophies lar… Anywae, I did my best by combinin technology and venue to make it like star awards tis yr….

Simpli said, tis yr is realli my last time plannin and executin projects… Realli last time… and wifout surprises, Leong Eng is the new President of the club and the 4th in the golden age….

Anywae, abt my results… Haiz… its a total flop lol… I realli haf no mood in studyin tis yr thus makin my results veri bad… Sadz… but the truth is after carolyn left, I found no motivation to carry on…. Haiz…

Near the exam period… at one dae, I found her… Its Mei Ling… I guessed I did fall in love wif her ard tat period… Dunno it lasted hw long but we shared precious time quite a lot together…. Its like if she dun wan to go for study grp, den i will nt go… The thing is to accompani her mah….

Unexpectedli, she gave me my brithdae presents tis yr…. Haha… I realli was surprised… I guessed feelins somehw developed between bth of us…. I realli hopin it will be goin on for a long long time….

Also, I did tried my best to prepare for O lvl…. Guessed it didn’t work… No matter hw much I wanted to focus in class, I will juz go to slp at times…. and no matter hw much remedial classes I went, it also seems tat my concentration is never enugh…. Haiz… So die le lol…

Well…. wif a sudden blink, I am into my 1st paper for the O lvl… English…

Oct 2002

This yr so fast liao… Comin next 2 mths, I had to prepare for my N lvls liao… Wah, so fast, everithin juz happened to be like its yesterdae leh… Haiz… hw I wished time will end at here and let it stopped…

In CSC, this yr is prettie busy for me… I continued my plannin of projects as usual… Oh yar… Ms Toh is leavin le… So fast… She’s realli a nice teacher and I surely will nt forget abt her…

Other than Health Competitions and fund raising, I also started the basketball team for CSC… kool… After all, so mani of them are tellin me to haf basketball competitions, tats why I kept it goin… I also extended the basketball comeptition in health competition into the CSC Intercontinal Basketball League… Haha… Hw nice it is…

Well, nt realli bad for CSC, health competition held twice to trice in one yr… We also had the kindness competition around singapore after health competition… I guessed I can still rmb durin last yr’s holidae at the end of the yr, I brought the whole club in a kindness tour around singapore… Wah… still can rmb tat time we went ard while learnin the history of tat particular place, we also picked up rubbish as we goes…

Also, we had our 1st East West Challenge this yr… I tink nt once but twice le… Nt bad, where Shi You and me held a team each and meet in a match of basketball… haha… I haf lost to him twice le lol… Dunno when will win him leh…

Oh yar… The health and management IC which I was doin haf been passed dwn to Leong eng le… and nw it became into a team…. Haha… after all, its somehw my plannin lar… I dun wan my disciple to be too worried and lost…

I also had the CSC E-mail Team and IT Team… But hor, 2 teams make my head spins ard all the time… In a blink of an eye, I formed the 2 teams into the IT managment team… and the best thing, I started the 1st website for CSC… Yeah…

Finalli before my N lvls, I managed to execute a major projects for the Health and Environment Team… Its to opened up the land for CSC… where we plant fruits and veges wif some of the seeds given by kampung senang… Thus, spendin more time at here more than kampung senang… No wonder, Ms Toh gt so angry…

Wif the land slowly movin time by time where we planted in seeds, and it started to growin, we set up ourselves a CSC corner… The thing is for 1 yr or so, i haf been fightin for CSC a room, if nt a space for the whole club and yet we cld nt haf it… Thus wif this corner built up, CSC has finalli gt its personal space…

Oh yar… Tis yr’s CSC Farewell Party and Election Day…. our club moves frm the small venue last yr to tis yr’s AVA rm… We had more awards given out tis yr other than standard test becoz of health competition…. I guessed there are still various awards but I will probabli be givin out next yr… All these other awards are voted online…

In tis yr, Grace, Geraldine, Si min, Jiang Ling, Jasmine, Mei Ling and me are all promoted to advisors after gettin our appreciation award… I guessed tats hw things are goin to work as… Anywae, I will still be in the committee assistin the president in future plannins… and yesh, the new president is Idah… I am definetly sure glad tat she became the new president…

Maybe my era of leadership role in the club is finalli comin to an end next yr le….

Hm… abt my studies… I am still doin great… at least my results were nt deproved leh… haha… I am still abled to get some standard results in all my subjects… Hwever, tis yr, I am nt in any position to fight wif anyone over results… I am juz glad tat I am able to get gd results… The final yr exam before my N lvl, I still managed to get a 3rd in class, nt bad liao…

If my N lvl, I also gt tis kind of results, I will be happie liao…

Well well… I am such a failure in love relationship… Basicalli for tis one yr, I am still at least pinnin some hopes in carolyn… but after she’s busy preparin for her O lvl… I felt tat the distance between the bth of us is like too far away alreadi….

Thou at the earli of the yr, I told her best friend, mabel tat I am goin to woo after her again… but tink again, i may nt even had any chance alreadi… Myabe tats wat happened to me and Jasmine on 1999 ( see A New Life : Life’s Ending - Episode 4 )…. and nw its goin to be the same again… Haiz…

Anywae, as daes went by, I spent more time at Haven… Feelin tat either I go home and do nth or else, I will be goin out wif my juniors, I thot why nt juz stay at here until near late evenin lol… Well, if gt problems, can still speak to christina or kelly mah…

Haha… and Trina seldoms come dwn to Haven le… I never even haf any chance to see her lol… Onli sometimes lar… Haha… also, carolyn also never comes dwn le… haiz… nw my hopes realli gone in the wind lol….

Tuesday, 18 September 2007

I am realli mad todae… After cui cui spoilt my mood liao… I realli gaf him a huge slashin twice todae… I alreadi sae before… If you wan me to do sth, no matter wat it is, as long as I am willin to do it, I will definetly help u de…

But cui cui juz dun understand… In the mornin, after returnin to the office, I haf nt even rested and he wans me to go to the store n help him… Argh… at the beginnin, I tell him nicely to go 1st, I will come later, but he keep on botherin and naggin… I den shouted back : “Can you juz go to the store 1st !!!”

This stunned him and alot of ppl… I juz find him annoyin lol… Coz wat I need to tell him, I alreadi told him alreadi… There is seriousli no pt for me to be there and the best thing is , I seriousli haf no obligation to help him lol…

I did go to the store and helped him count…. After one hr later, I went on to help out in the ICT…. and he came botherin again, but tis time, I decided nt to care abt watever he is requestin lol….

Juz before lunch, all fo us went to see a warrant… I was still tinkin of wat to explain to tat warrant abt the lost stores… But he tok to me quite nice, at least nw I am nt realli pressured tat much liao….

After tat, I wanted to split the time for candace and alm bii, tat was when cui cui keeps on naggin and naggin… Damn… Out of frustration, I told him to go back and do the stores and yet, he didnt gif me the key for the stores…

And the best thing, He sae I cannt do it alone as I might anyhw write the figures in… WTH… So he dun trust me in the 1st place, why shld I be there to help him…. Argh… He’s totalli unreasonable lol….

After a rough stocktakin, where I juz throw the stores ard anywhere…. I am realli du lan alreadi lol… Dun wanna care abt his nonsense…. Before I went of lunch wif the others, he still wans me to expain each items in the bii box… Damn… I wondered when I haf bothered grayson so much in the past… Argh…

Cui cui den said why I dun go lunch juz nw… I den shoot tis idolt… I said : ” when others were doin the candace boats, why cant we be doin the alm bii stores, den after tat everyone goes lunch together”…. Manz… I was tryin real hard to be reasonable lol…. and he became lan lan….

After lunch, I took a look at my list…. and I was pulled back into the stores… Damn… I made sure tis is my last time enterin lol… Argh… I finished everything and almost to go out…. Cui cui den said why nt pack up everythin… In my mind, I thot to myself…. tis is nt my store…. U are goin to do tis alone…

Afternoon was quite peaceful bah… Jason, Dalton and me went to 35 to haf a rest…. The canteen there, we saw wo cai x3…. Kool… its the old seasons of wo cai lar… But still nice to see… haha… realli is a memori where ah ya and jacky wu host together….

After goin home, I sms ah li and ask her wether she’s goin to the outin on sundae… coz other than her, I onli knw hui jing n yi liang, also dunno yi liang goin mah… Haiz… so see if ah li is goin bah… If she’s goin, den I probabli will go bah…. Tmr repli back to eileen lol…

At nite, dalton cld nt helped me print out the handin over, takin over document leh… Bo bian… haf to wait until tmr le…. and YC never repli back lol… Lets hope the e-mail sent todae realli works…     

Dec 2001

I guessed time passes realli fast… The first advisory board for the club has been formed… After Shi You and co graduated, they became the advisors to the club… Haiz… I however did nt became the new president of the club…

As this yr’s selection of the new management board comes dwn to election method… I was also in the list of nominations… I hwever onli gt 3 votes, while my junior, Kamiliah gt 4 votes lol… even Grace gt 3 votes too… Haiz…

Tat evenin, I wasn’t quite happie… But bo bian… The show still haf to goes on… I guessed I did prettie well after all… I and the other co host made sure the farewell party and election dae goes on smoothly… At the end of the dae, new management board were selected… While Kamiliah became the new president, jessie took over my post, geraldine took over grace’s post…. Idah still remains… Yi wen, Grace, Si Min and me were the final four to join in as the new ICs of various post…. I got myself the Health and Environment IC, a new post set up by me before I left my VP post…

Tat ceremony itself, we gave out CSC Standard Test Certificates… Its a test for the sec 1 juniors over the holidaes… Judges were of course by the seniors and this test is to see hw the juniors have performed in the club so far…

Anywae, tats the 1st farewell party and election dae for CSC… Realli lookin forward to the next yr…. Haha… anywae, the saddest moment is when shi you and co are goin to leave the club… Haiz… May nt see them again… But I am sure, they will be back at the club sometimes to help out….

The new challenge for me in club is to continue all my plannings wif the post I had… plus I get to be a mentor for the new president and VP… so tat leads me to continue doin??? Haha… dunno lar…. Juz continue and see hw lol….

I guessed I did juz continued wif wat I was doin… Haha… Plannin events such as Health Competition was the first one where the members get to play sports and bond at the same time, plus winning prizzes…. Also major changes included….

Woah… but I guessed due to the fact tat I am still nt realli acceptin the fact tat i am nt the new President, tats why I did nt realli liked the wae of hw kamiliah lead the club… Sianz… Makes too chaotic liao… Tats why in the end, Ms Toh haf to comes in to settle all these problems…

I guessed tat was when I started to back at workin wif kamiliah again… Haha… suddenly the club became peaceful wif 2 leaders workin hand in hand… Thou I am nt the president, but I learned hw to helped them by sharin my experiences…. Its realli a valuable lessons…

Well… tats one yr and so mani things happened in CSC le… I wondered wat will happened in the holidaes for CSC… hm…

Sure is tat for me in CCA… Nw abt sth between Carolyn and me… I realised tat there is tis guy, siang rui… I guessed somehw, no matter hw much I tried, I am nt as closed as she is wif siang rui… Guessed I realli did nt haf tat luck…

Finalli she rejected me at the end of tis yr… I guessed its abt time tat tis happened… Somehw I juz expect it, I knew tat tis yr will be juz another yr of loneliness for me… Haiz… Anywae, nt tat sad lar… I gt trina to consell me sometimes, so tat I dun felt so sad…

CDAC realli helps my studies improved alot… Coz of tat and my hard work plus tution at home makes me keep my result to my best at the final yr exam… Woah… I guessed tats why i managed to be in the top 3 in class tis yr… Yeah…

Nt bad arhx… at least, I gt high scores for Maths, Science and chinese as usual… My other subjects such as english, combined humanities and arts also got gd results… Phew… Finalli tis yr, I am managed to be able to prove tat I am also gd at studies…

Speakin of CDAC… arhx… terence yap the guy who almost made my reputations fall was in the same class as me… I thou still treat him as friends lar…. Hm… but wat a foolish friend I had been for lendin him money for the past few yrs wifout claimin any back… Hm… Tis yr in sch, he is nt in the same class as me, but nw we met again…. Sigh….

oh ya… at there I met a nice girl named Jenny… She’s nt realli prettie lar… btu she gt style and is veri unquie… Haha… Like I haf fallen in love wif her… No lar… But found her veri special… Unfortunately even when the course had ended, I did nt even had a gd tok wif her… I guessed our fates juz ended….

Anywae, abt my class… I guessed there is some rivalry between li qin and me… I guessed somehw bth of us haf been competin in some ways between our results…. Hwever, tats somehw lead me to haf some feelins for her… OMG… hw come I haf so much feelins for so mani girls one????

Well, I completed my yr as the discipline IC… nt too bad I sae… as I completed my job for tat yr… I guessed I am bein hated lol… Haha… Lets juz pray tat the next yr there were be a new beginnings lol….

Monday, 17 September 2007

I guessed todae I was prettie much tired… I simpli felt headache after helpin out for awhile… Ai Yoh… My health arhx… realli cannt make it de leh… Sianz… Why is tis so??? Dun understand leh…

Hm… nth realli much in aspect happened in camp todae… Haiz… except tat tmr haf to see a veri fierce warrant… OMG… hw am I goin to explain to him the losses in the alm bii stores??? I realli cannt tink of anything to sae lol…

BMT recourse is comin soon… But the routine orderly aka RO haf nt been published abt the news yet leh… if lets sae I got to bmtc sch on oct 1 but RO never published, den HQarmceg will charged me AWOL lol… den if i never go to bmtc sch as supposed, I will be charged AWOL lol… Siao liao… wat can I do nw???

Oh yar, found out tat they will sms me the chalet room number 2 daes before the chalet… so nw haf to confirm who is comin lol… No fret, tis one can be done in oct… haha… Nw juz prayin I haf enugh money to buy food for my birthdae chalet lol…

Argh… I missed Dalton online yesterdae, todae I also missed him… Alamak… My handin over and takin over cert havent print yet leh… Haha… Maybe tmr nite if I saw him online, muz realli tell him liao…..

Hm… todae receieved sms frm my Y prom’s grp leader… I am realli worried whether I can helped much on tat dae mah… My situation nw is in a total mess… I dun even knw where it will lead me to… Haiz… Cannt realli gif me some bright light meh??? Anywae, ah li is put into my grp… OMG… haha… so, terence will get to knw who ah li is???

Argh… Yew chong again… He havent repli wat time are they meetin on sat for the outin lol… Siao liao… Hw come he no effieciency one??? Tmr nite if no repli, I wld haf to sent mail again liao….

Mooncake festival has begin… I haf juz eaten a mooncake todae… Yeah!!! so happie… Oh yar… happie wise, AJ made me wait for her repli on msn yesterdae, wait until I wan to slp lol… Nwadaes disturb her is so difficult, she’s juz tokin to her sweet heart leh…. Sadz…   

June 2001

This year has been a major change in my whole life… I guessed I wasn’t expecting it… However, this change has greatly influence and mould me into somewat will make my life turned into something which I will never knw…

At the start of the yr, before the CCA open hse, all of us were gathered ard for a small meetin after the activiti at Kampung Senang Activiti Centre… Oh yesh… after one yr, I was back at CSC doin volunteerin work again… Tis time round, I haf a changed of centre, and changed of teacher… Frm Mdm Chin Mei Har to Ms Serene Toh…

Tat meetin was to select the new Chairman and Vice Chairman of the club… As expected, Shi You became the new chairman… He’s a intelligent guy among all of us… Indeed he was, as he tinks mani things and haf in plan wisely for hw he wans the things to goes on…

Den came the Vice Chairman… As Ms. Toh was choosin who to be… Everyone spoke up their mind and sae tat they haf 2 CCAs alreadi… Finalli, I am the last to be look at… everyone turns their eyes on me… I was liked… I didn’t haf any other CCA other than CSC… but the thing is, hw come I am the last to be selected leh??? Haiz…

Even though hw much I am nt pleased abt, I still accepted the post… I told myself, since I am chosen, I will definetly made a big change… So for the rest of my sec sch yrs… There are too mani things unforseen comin in my wae…

After the selection… All of us were tokin abt the CCA open hse tmr… We were discussin hw and wat we shld be doin… Suddenly, I told shi you why nt use the broken tree which haf fallen dwn and took in back frm the centre to the sch… Ms. Toh agreed and tmr, shi you and me will haf to brin it back…

The dae came… Thou we did nt haf much members … hm… 50 perhaps… but its definetly a gd sign… Kool… At least we were doin fine… I guessed its a gd start too… Oh yar… I told Ms. Toh to select 2 other ICs for the other 2 centres, as I cld nt be takin charge of the other 2 centres too….

At there too were also my 2 other ex classmates, grace and geraldine… I guessed I did regret abt me nt doin well in the final exams at sec 2… I did nt go into 3A to study principle of accounts as my science did nt do so well… Haiz… I cld onli go into arts… Diaoz…

Anywae, the bth of them smiled to me… I guessed after one yr, all the bad things tat happened last yr were beginnin to go off slowli… I did nt expect it to happen fast… I juz need a small little time and let it all passed….

I discussed wif the bth of them and we 3 thot why nt let grace be the new IC of Tampines 3 in 1 Child Care Centre… Of course, the 2 girls were surprised when I introduced to them myself as the new Vice Chairman… Haha…  Also, I met Idah and I thought juz made her the new IC for SGM Murni is suitable, so vola… the new management team is borned…

But I knew wif the 4 of us is nt enugh… Therefore, I am also tinkin of bigger plans… Which slowli will be introduced time by time… I called it as the evolution of CSC and I felt its time….

I also met a girl named Carolyn… At the first sight, I had some feelins for her… haha… Dun realli knw hw… but it juz happened… Haha… I guessed her appearance also will be affectin my life tat whole yr… Anywae, she congratulated me for becomin the new Vice Chairman… Quite happie, i guessed….

Oh Yar… I receieved my 1st achievements in the start of the yr… I got a CCA Gold Award… dunno hw, but heard is Ms Toh nomainated me… Hm… Haha… I didn’t did much for the past 2 yrs and nw I had been nominated and getiin tis award after onli to do some plannins onli… Woah… shi you also got tis award and for CSC, bth of us were representin the club to get it…

In class… I also had some small achievements… I was selected as the new discipline IC… huh??? I couldnt believe it in the first place… So I finalli get into the class committee after 3 yrs in sec sch life??? Woah… Hw cld it be??? I muz be dreamin lol… Anywae, I am determined to do a great job…

I tink becoz of my current achievements, I am stressed to show some gd results out… Realli stressed… and I am hopin tat I will be doin a great job irrgardless of CSC or my discipline IC’s job…

In CSC, I introduced major changes… Like change of logo, mottos, introduce of jobs and new ICs…. I even got to introduced the G5 after the new sec 1 members comes in… Haha… Hwever tis idea was totalli nt agreed to shi you the president… and tat was when we started to haf arguments on all the system changes on one dae…

Even though we had arguments after arguments, I haf to admit, he is still a great planner and the most intelligent guy I ever seen… I also had to admit tat he is veri supportive of me and my decisions till nw…

So next mth, i will be plannin the 1st ever events for CSC, the Farewell Party and Election Day… Kool arhx… its supposed to be choosin new management team plus wif new ICs included and also there will be a small party made for those goin to graduate soon… Which inclues shi you, carolyn, yong cheng, yu hong and sock hoon…

Anywae, abt me and carolyn… I guessed I didnt haf the courage to express my feelins to her after last yr incidents which hit me so greatly… Haiz… Bo Bianz… Tat was when until Yong Cheng who helped me on one dae made me had to face her directly….

I guessed tat dae was the dae when I haf the longest tok wif her, spend the longest time tokin to her…. We bth walked and tok so mani stuff… Until when we were apart, I guessed I didn’t haf asked her for the decision yet…

I guessed its her tat I started to visit the Haven in our sch… I never realli went to tat place before until I was bein called in to go for cousellin wif Carolyn…. At there normalli were Trina… so whenever we bth haf any problem, we will juz go find Trina… Haiz… I also knew 2 new consellors, Christina and Kelly… haha…

Hm… as for the discipline IC in klass… guessed no one realli likes me to be in tat post… Coz I am a realli strict one… but I guessed I am all out on it and juz doin my job… So cannt blame me mah…. Haiz…

Anywae, I stated to take of CDAC tution tis yr to improve on my maths and science while I did tat I also had tution at home…  I guessed all those tution plus my will to study well leads to a veri gd results tis yr… At the mid yr exam, I gt a 2nd in klass… WAH !!! Woo Hoo…

Subjects like maths, science and combined humanities got me 80 plus score durin CAs and exams, i also gt gd results which is veri high… Other subjects such as english, chinese and arts, i also got 60 to 70 plus… Kool…

Guessed all these hard work finalli paid off tis yr… Hm… Wat luck haf I been goin tis yr orhx….

Dec 2000

This yr is a ups and dwns for me… My life became topsy turvy due to series of events… Some hit me greatly which made me felt seriousli troubled… Basicalli tis one yr is nt a lucki yr for me… tis yr is also the yr which made my pupularity dropped deepli…

Start of the yr… I guessed my feelins for Jasmine became far far awae… Haiz… There cld nt be anything better…. Its been mths since she studied in express stream… The valentine’s dae tis yr… I did brought her some flowers and a card… Unfortunately they still stayed wif me till nw….

Maybe tat feelin made me felt dwn and dwn… I guessed I hardli can pull myself up… Those disappointin times, hw I wished I had someone to share it wif… But I knew she’s too far awae frm me… haiz…

Later on in June… I did try and woo grace… Haiz… guessed its nt even workin, after all, she’s one of those popular girls in sch, hw much chance do I realli haf??? … No matter hw hard I tried, I never succeed… Sigh… At least I had written her love letters and those were my 1st… But after one wk, those rejections made me terribli fallen dwn….

Grace’s rejection made me fall dwn too deep… too much impact… I suddenli had no interest in studies and suddenli all seems too dark for me… I even started to slp in klass… No doubt, I cld hardli stand up… Tat period, i was bad tempered, makin myself like a jerk to everyone… I guessed after a few mths, I did calm dwn and moved on… I haf to thank kee poh… For tat period of time, he helped me thru all these crisis….

I moved on to a girl named Jiang Ling after tat… But the kind of method wasn’t workin either for me… Diaoz… Its like I didn’t knw when she hated me to core… Hm… Oh yar… Nw I rmb… Its a few mths back, I helped terence maglined jasmine yee and si min by sendin e-mails… But terence is my good friend, and his problem became my problem becoz he cld nt haf jasmine as his gf… Wah liew…

I guessed tat was when I got maglined and became a scapegoat for all those problems caused… haiz… Nw there’s neither one place I can stand… Nt even one place… At least kee poh still treat me as friends… Yong Sheng did too… But, the girls… hw did my relationship wif them became so bad??? I realli regretted helpin terence….

I had initialli thot tat since jiang ling rejected me, I shld moved on to geraldine, another popular girl… But tat isn’t wat I shld be doin… Its totalli wrong… I guessed I finalli understand I am of no luck at all….

My results in mid yr exams were gd… I managed to get into top 10, hm… a no. 9 in class… Kool orhx… I tink tat period were my proudest… Thou, its a gd result in mid yr… My final yr deproved after all those impacts, class problems… I had luckli got a no 14 in class… I also had to thanx my science teacher for nt teachin me well science… Coz I never understand wat she’s teachin me for the whole yr… As for my maths… The first time in my studies tat I gt 80 plus marks… even almost reachin 90 plus… yeah… So happie and glad tat hard work has finalli paid off…

As for CCA wise… The whole yr, I did nt went for any CSC activities… I guessed I suddenly had no one to go wif me… No one to accompani for the activities… I dun even had any interest at all… My once best friend suddenly lost contact wif me… Kelvin left me alone… Haiz… Tat particular yr, my CCA pt is equal to 0 lol…

I did nt go for student consillor interview durin the holidaes… I guessed I sort of back out at the last minutes… Kelvin lar… pull me out for the student consillor interview for CSC acitivites… Manz… Tat will surely made me regret for yrs…

I tink after all those incidents which happened in klass, I tried nt to care abt wat has happened… I became to focus more on joinin competitions and competitions… Tats where I cld sae my achievements were the greatest in tat yr… I won myself the chinese recitation and cross talk competition merit medal.. Kool leh… my 1st in my sch life… I also gt a post, the IT IC, in charge of the coms in my klass… Kool… Kelvin worked wif me till one time where I decided to complain tat he never do work… In the end, Iklash took over him…

this yr, my grandfather frm my mom’s side passed awae… I never attended funneral before… Tis is my 1st… I guessed sad moments juz happen and it happen at tis time of moments in my life… Life and death juz comes and goes… hw pathetic is a human’s life…

My form teacher, Mr Feroz Ali also left us to go to UK for further studies… Occasionalli, I still will e-mail him and tok to him… I guessed tat dae when all of us, the whole of sec 2 class gathered at the airport to send off our fav teacher, its a touchin moments…

End of yr happen so fast for all of us, my holidaes can be sae as short bah, juz like the usual yr’s holidae… Borin… I probabli will never expect anything much will happen to me next yr… But i guessed I was wrong… Wat has happened next yr will definetly changed my life forever…

Saturday, 15 September 2007

Todae, I woke up late again… Ai Yoh… Wat am I doin arhx??? I guessed my sleepy bug problem has created too much problems for me for quite a long time… But when can it be solved??? I probabli need to find out…

7.30am, my alarm rang… I thot why nt juz wake up… But tat sleepy bug knocked my head out… and I fallen back into slp again… Sianz… By the time I woke up again.. Its 8am… Tis time, I am realli kan chion… Coz huiting sae to meet at 9am at lavender, so dunno will be late mah…

Dressin and tidyin finished… Todae was a realli fast one… Is ettled everything in 20 mins… Woah… Never before leh… I immediately rushed to the lRT stn and took a train dwn to seng kang mrt stn… Hopin….

I reached the gatherin place ard 9.10am… At there, I saw huiting and her interactors sittin outside the stn… I guessed they are still waitin… Hiaz… Guessed I was nt too late after all…  After waitin for ard 20 plus min, its up for huiting’s briefin…

I was nt hearin wat she’s sayin as I was sort of like bored a while, until she told me where is the suitable place to go for flag dae…. Wif my experience, I told her tat City Hall and Raffles Place are suitable places…. After some discussion, most of them wanted to go bugis….

After gettin the bags… Huiting decided to split all of us into 2 grps… She took one grp to Bugis, while she told me to lead another grp to Raffles Place… Anywae, initialli I thot tat no one frm her side is joinin Y prom, nw… so mani ppl knew abt it… Ai yoh yoh… Pauline is realli makin the whole thing complicated le lol… haha

Anywae, abt the grp I am leadin… One girl initalli followin my grp sae she wanted to go alone to other places… I guessed she’s quite garang, so let her go on her own… Let wif me are 2 guys…

After reachin the place, I told the 2 of them to haf a rest first… We slack at lau pa sat tokin abt ITE stuff, and Inetract stuff… Guessed I still cannt agree wif hw eunice ang select the bods and hw huiting is the president… But haiz… No pt of sayin those stuffs… Nt my business anymore le mah…

Ard abt 11 am, I felt my team haf rested enugh, and after much discussion, all 3 of us decided to go to the mrt stn to do the flag dae… Upon reachin there, I told the 2 of them to split up… Tats hw I remained near the stn while the 2 of them went to somewhere near the stn…

For tat 1 and 1/2 hrs, I stand along the stn shoutin : “Pls help to donate”… Those words lead me to sae it every 1 min… I was almost out of voice when I am meetin them for lunch… I guessed when ppl see flag dae, they had different reactions… haha…

After lunch wif them, we went back to lavender… Upon returnin the bag, all 3 of us toom a train to go to our destination… My destination is home after all… Biddin gdbye to the 2 of them , i changed train at dhoby ghaut stn…

While walkin towards NEL, I saw there’s a blood donation drive goin on… As I was decidin whether to go n donate or to juz go home, my mind tells me tat I shld go for it… After all, its been a yr since I realli donate blood, so its time to go for it…

I finished the whole donation ard 3 plus pm… I sent out the news abt the blood donation drive to huiting and ah li… Haha… Ah li sae tat she will be comin dwn later… Dunno whether she gt go lol… the most funnie part is probabli when I told her gt goodie bag can take, she’s like diaoz… haha… dun misunderstand me, I happened to pass by de mah…

After takin the train back to sengkang, I went to sembawang music store…. Yesh!!! Jolin’s newest album is out for presale and I decided to buy one… Woo hoo… there’s 2 premium leh… I wanted to buy 2 de… but bo bian… dun haf tat much money. so chose premium 2 where there’s a pictorial book available.. and the gd thing… sept 21, I can get jolin’s new album… Yeah!!!

Anywae, huiting msn me in the evenin tellin tat she cannt make it coz of work… Hm… looks like tis time I got her hp number correctli… phew… at least she saw my sms… haha… Haiz… bo bian mah… let’s hope she will go n donate blood some other time bah…

Oct 1999

Todae, I got my result slip… My 1st one after my PSLE and my 1st one in sec sch… Hm… after gettin tis result slip… my sec one life will comes to an end… Next yr will be the start of sec 2 le…

Of course, I cannt be promoted to express stream… Wah liew… with tat kind of results of mine, wat do u realli expect frm me??? Anywae, frm wat I knw, the onli one who is promoted to express stream frm normal academic is Jasmine… Haha… My ex classmate and the one I loved is goin to express next yr… Sigh… Nw I realli dun get any chance to see her anymore…

I do see her sometimes… its like when there is exchange of lessons, the whole of her class and my class will line up outside… I will get to see her… I still rmb once tat her papers juz flew ard the classroom corridor, but I never gt to pluck out any courage to tok to her or go up to help her…. Hw stupid am I??? Nw lar… see lol… no more chance to see her lol…

Nw for my results… Haha… actualli its my 1st time doin sec sch papers… Can sae everythin gt first time one… So didn’t flair badli tis time round… Woo hoo… I actualli gt a position number 14 out of all 40 students in class… Kool sia…

My eng got a 57, mother tongue gt a 67, history gt 66, geography gt 55, arts which is my best juz gets me a 60… Aw… my maths… haha… I passed leh… 51, den my science also passed… Yeah… 55, lastly home economics is 56 and technical is 62….

I onli failed my english literature… 49 leh… Hm… I thot i got special talent hidden which is acting… But the literature is juz too chim to understand le… Ooh god… Pls gif me a clue wat its all abt….

Anywae… my sch life tis yr overall is quite gd… I joined a CCA called community service club… Initialli dun realli haf any ccas suitable for me leh… Den heard my literature teacher is recruitin members for her cca, so thot why nt??? Den continued further understand tat its volunteerin work kind of cca… Well, shld be a nice cca to join…

I also took part in volleyball for a few mth… Did went for its training… Initialli I was nt selected in, but out of dunno hw, I was juz slotted to go in for trainin… In those mths, I learned abt a few basic techniques on hw to hit the ball, smack the ball, pass the ball… Kool… I guessed those trainin helps me quite a while… Hwever, i left the team due to the fact tat I cannt find the time between community service club and volleyball… I eventualli choose CSC…

In CSC tis cca… I went to a centre called changkat educational centre… Its like a student care centre, takin care of students before they went to sch… I tink I realli begin to like tis CCA… Nice time takin care of kids…

I guessed tats hw my CCAs begin to gif me a great future… Haha… Hm… wif me in my class at tis CCA is my gd friend, Kelvin, and 2 other girls, Grace and Geraldine… The bth of them are realli nice girls… I tink grace is a popular girl in the whole sch lol… the yr itself, she had alreadi mani bfs, I tink… Woah…

Anywae, at the end of the last sch dae, I got notified tat I was selected to go for student consillor interview… Wah… Juz wat I had been pinnin for since primary sch… In my pri sch, i can onli see hw quan bao, wei leong, jie min and even jasmine gt selected to become prefect based on their results… Nw, my teacher select me becoz of my characteristic…

Yeah… Its realli great…. Aniwae… off to my sch holidaes… Oh yar hor… sch holidaes still got holidae homework leh… Sianz… Hw come gt like tat one…. Haiz…

Friday, 14 September 2007

Life is so nt great after all… I was told tat my bmt recourse gt confirmed… Haha… haha… Hahahahahahah…. I guessed nw laughin is the onli wae to settle for all those moments where I shld be cryin…. But those moments will never help me at all…

Hw precious is my time wif my NS mates… I guessed I realli cherish the time left in BSS… Tats why I am workin so hard in watever stuff tat is needed for me to do… No matter wat, i juz keep on doin to make it meaninful…

But cui cui wans to me my life more troubled… I alreadi told him wats the alm bii stores are all abt, and wat is the name of all the items… He also did some name findins and alreadi knew most of the stuffs… Nw he still need my help??? I can onli sae he is plain lazy…. Damn, makes my life so tirin for wat…. Haiz…

So its isn’t tat great after all??? Maybe… I guessed its all abt ur positive mindset u alreadi had for urself… Guessed its the wae a human nature tinks… Maybe a break at time is enugh, but its nt tat enugh to ppl le….

Tommorrow, I will be takin part in COH’s flag dae… Let’s gif it some gd results…. Yeah… 

Jan 1999

Its first dae of sec sch life… I guessed its all abt new sch and new environment. So, I shld be adaptin to tis new sch life real soon. Haiz… Had to spend 5 yrs in PRSS leh… Bo bian… Normal academic… Wat can u expect???

I can still rmb when I went to tis sch for the registration process… I rmb seein Jasmine… Yeah… So, I get to be in the same sch as her lol… But hor… at the hall, she sat in different rows leh… Sianz liao… different class le… Hw am I goin to see her???

On tat dae after some time spent knwin who will be my class teacher, I also get to buy textbooks, stationeries, uniforms… Woah so mani bags needed to be brought home…. Alamak… Anywae, knew tat Kee Poh is in the same class as me… Phew… glad to haf somebody u knw…

Before I left, I did caught a glance on jasmine… When will we be meetin each other????

Back to my 1st dae in sch… Sec sch is sth strange lol… I guessed I ams till nt used to it bah… I saw some familiar faces, while others… well… totalli dunno who are they… Hm… tat girl sittin opposite me looks familiar leh… Like frm my primary sch… Oh yar… Its jasmine yee… Heard tat she’s nt realli a nice person to tok wif…

I guessed 1st dae, we had a lot of admin work to be done… Haiz… Den hw I knw arhx… 1st dae, my maths lesson, teacher started to teach liao… Woah… tat was fast… Haha… still can rmb my pri sch daes… 1st dae in sch is simpli do nth one…

After recess, my class went to the hall to hear teachers, HODs tokin… Eventualli, I did started to get sleepy at times… ~~~ Yawn ~~~ Tis tok realli seems borin… Even the CCAs tok was also borin for me… Hm… still dunno wat cca to join leh…

Den out of a sudden, 2 of my classmates who sat infront of me started to fight… I dun rmb wats their name, I also dunno why they started to fight… Woah… later some teachers juz went up to them and pull them outside… I tink never see them after tat le…

After the tok, went ard the whole sch seein the CCAs exhibition… Woah… So mani ccas, but dunno which one to join…. sianz… Volleyball seems interestin… but heard gt interviews one leh… Den choir… wah liew… Juz becoz I knew a little bit of singin… at the interview, I was selected to go in lol… Sianz… Dun tink will be joinin choir…

I guessed NCCs, NPCCs are nt suitable for me… Nah… no army and police as CCAs… Nt even red cross… I am nt someone who looks like ppl who saves ppl… Haiz… Actualli quite lost wif tis CCA thingy… haiz… Pri sch where gt all these one???

When everything ended, my class went back to the hall… I tink is the student consellors arhx… They took care of my class and begin ice breakers… But slowli became nt fun le… Everyone is juz waitin to go home…

Its abt 5 plus pm… Yeah… finalli can go home… but hor… nt used to the environment yet… so gt a little lost at the beginnin, dun realli knw where to go out… But slowli found the place and went home le… Yeah….

Thursday, 13 September 2007

A brand new dae is here for me… Todae, I thot well… its goin to be a realli borin dae lol… Thot tat nth to do… But I guessed it all wrongli… Woah… suddenli frm nth to do, I was doin so mani stuffs todae….

I guessed life in army has become precious for me at seletar camp… At least, I went and help out as much as I can… Regardless of watever small little things, I will be there wif the rest of them, doin work wif them… guessed tats hw the team works nicely…. We all help one another…

Aniwae, cui cui arhx… I gt angered by tis guy again… Sianz lol… realli hor… when we are doin work, he juz sit there n read his book… He realli dun take any initiative at all leh… Wah lau… Den return the office key… Seems he’s outside Jason’s car, why nt return it, and muz be me sittin in the car to climb out meh???

Realli cannt stand tis guy’s attitude… Such a small little things, he dun even wan to do, wat is he goin to do in BSS??? Stilll juz go n do wat is his minimum, and juz dun bother other stuffs… I am realli nt goin to help tis guy anymore lol…

Well… other than cui cui, I am glad I had gd NS mates to be beside me, workin wif me and support me when I needed help… I am realli grateful to them…

Hm… nw, todae, I went dwn to the turtle’s gatherin… I tink the last time we met is last mth??? So shld be a few wks, we all had nt meet each other alreadi… I initialli did nt realli wan to go dwn, but well… juz go lol… Haha… AJ’s influence is too big liao…

I arrived ard 6.58pm… I thot tat I wld be the 1st to reach esp after hunk, shu wei msg me to reach there slowli, I thot… Hm… all the rest will be late lol… After reachin orchard mrt stn, I heard a familiar voice…

‘Chris!’ I began to look ard… Its Terence… haha… he was there earlier than me arhx… Woah… Bth of us started chattin… Aniwae, terence didnt wan to come initialli… Woah… same idea as me leh… I juz felt bored lar… but for him, he todae has no money bah….

We began to chat on hw complicated the y proms has been even since pauline sends the recent e-mail abt y prom… Den we were tokin abt ymca stuff and I realised he didn’t even knew who is ah li (alicia)…. Woah… But he realised who she was after he ….. (*I am nt goin to continue tis line… Its up to u readers’ imagination…)

As we bth keeps on chattin and waitin, yining came… Den I juz joined in their converstation… Hm… I guessed uni students gt a lot of stuffs they can actualli tok abt… Haiz… became I had to join in….

Next to arrive is daniel… Woah… tis guy came and immediately keeps on disturbin terence… and while he keeps on tokin…. His words made all of us laugh and laugh… Esp when he suddenli said tat he’s like richard… All 3 of us laughed even louder… Haha…

Den came shu wei… its his last dae in sch todae…. and he is on his usual sports dae everydae… kool… and tat was when the 5 of us keeps on laughin and chattin until its ard 7 plus pm le… There is still no sign of siok chen and AJ… hm….

So finalli the 2 girls came… Ai yo yo… Its near 8 pm le lol… Haiz… Hw can they do tis to all of us who waited for them for so long… I knew they bth went out for movie… but thot is afternoon one??? Coz tats wat AJ told me in her sms… Haha…

So out initial plan was to eat pizza hut and we all walked frm orchard mrt stn, finalli all the wae to ngee ann city… Nt realli a short distance… but nt realli long too… After reachin the place, we sat dwn and daniel continued his lame antics again… Diaoz…

But since everyone is tired, daniel’s action can realli cheered everyone up wif laughs… I tink also at one pt… daniel began to tok abt AJ… I den impersonate myself as a matchmaker… tryin to matchmake her wif Daniel, Terence and Shu Wei… haha… obviousli, its nt workin…. Haha… I tink todae’s is realli an enjoyable one for everyone… We had like chatted for hrs and its like we never chat for tat long for wks le….

The 7 of us had 4 pizzas in total todae…. plus soups, and some chicken wings… woah… altogether is 15 dollars per person… I tink todae is realli veri full for me… I almost cannt finished my last pizzas… Muz drink water and water….

Haha… the most funnie part came… I wanted to go to toilet and when I wanted to walk out of the shop, the small gate was locked… as I was tryin to experiment hw to open it, the girls shouted to climb out… I was damn funnie… and replied back… I am like a thief lol… But its realli funnie lar… Had to climb out of pizza hut….

Finalli its goin hm time… We bid gdbyes to yining who had to leave 1st as usual… I tink her mum is afraid of her safety coz of nite le mah…. The rest of us departed into grps of 2… Daniel, Siok Chen and AJ sat on the other side, while Terence, Shu Wei and me sat on the other side of the platform’s train… Tats ard 10 plus pm as we all bid gdbyes to each other… Let’s hope there maybe sometimes we will see each other again….

Terence and me took the NEL back to each of our destinations… We coninued to tok abt ymca’s stuff… I guesed I learned a lot frm him abt hw ymca’s career path is diffcult for me… Hm… but even if its tough, guessed I had to find some route, isn’t it???

I reached home ard 10 plus pm… Initialli thot tat AJ is tired de lar… Hw wld I knw tat she’s still online…. Out of concern, I msn her and gif her advice to juz go n slp… She arhz… tired alreadi, still dun bothered to slp… wan to get her health into red zone arhz…

Alrite… I had to post tis special on todae’s episode… Happie birthdae Joanna on 12 Sept… Thou, i had put up greetins on her friendster testimonial and sent her greetins thru hp… I guessed puttin it at here will make it more meaninful… Aniwae, happie birthdae again, Joanna.

Dec 1998

PSLE has passed lol… I guessed my results is nt tat gd… Haiz… Sadz… Cannt get into the sec sch which I wanted to get in… Actualli also nt I wanted de… Its more like my mum chooses which sec sch for me to get in…

My initial choice wif my mum is the same… Ngee Ann sec… Cant realli rmb wat are the other 4 schs… I tink one of them is St Hildas… But I can clearli rmb my last sec sch choice is Pasir Ris Sec… which is the sec sch I am goin to…

After the PSLE, sch’s borin… I tink a few mths back after the exam has finished, the whole klass became totalli bored… Haiz… All I did for daes are probabli drawings… Hm… except quan bao and wei leong are workin on sch projects…

Haha… Tat was the past… Todae went back to sch… Its a totalli different feelin… Its like haf nt seem the other klassmates, felt realli strange… Suddenly I felt like I never knw them lol…

I went to sch quite earli… Haha… finalli after so mani yrs later, I am able to go to sch on my own… No need my mum accompani le… Yeah… But todae, I guessed I realli felt strange… Haiz… When I reached there, I saw wei jing playing wif collin… Ooh…

Guessed didnt wan to join them… Haiz… So waited and waited for my results to come… My other klassmates also appeared and subquently a quiet sch became crowded once again… For a while, I thot I was still dreamin… but hey… all of them are back again… for the last time…

After the results are given by my form teacher, I went ard tokin to some of them… Jun Jie, one of my friend, he told me he didn’t knew wat sch he is goin too… some unknown sch to him… Some others like quan bao and wei leong went on to gd sch…

I also saw some of my klassmates like kee kim and kee poh goin to the same sch as me… Yeah… at least got familiar ppl next yr le… Will nt be lonely mah… Haiz… but tats also the end of my pri sch life bah…

Its 11 plus am… I left the sch and walked home alone… On my journey home, I saw Jasmine… I thot why nt go up to her and juz tok to her since we may nt be in the same sch anymore… Hm… look closer, she’s wif ying ping and wei jing…. Arhx… Forget it…

Goodbye, Jasmine….

Wednesday, 12 September 2007.

Another dae has passed. Todae in camp is very fruitful for me… In the morning, I get to do the candace trailer… Painting seems like a job which I may nt be doin for the next mth… So realli cherish it…

After tat, thot todae will bk in candace trailer, but the YT haf nt been raised… So had to wait… and tis wait made me wait until afternoon le… Of course, durin tis time, i did nt waste any time… I helped out in doin some documents…

Argh… Cui Cui made me real mad todae… I onli asked him to opent he hangar’s door, but he juz sat there and read his book… Wah liew… Onli a small thing, and he juz dun even bother to do… He’s tired, does tat mean I am nt???

I realli cannt get it…. Anywae… after lunch, I went to mess to play some games… but found out tat its bein occupied… So had to see movies… At the start, its the incredible hulk… but hor… the cd got problem… Den after tat watch american pie, its real funnie lol…

Back at office, help out in doin candace stuff… Its realli fruitful as I joined in the others in sorting out candace documents, finding the missing logbook and preparin for the ICT… Woah… hw fruitful haf been a dae for me…

Haha… guessed when I am abt to go for bmt recourse, I will cherish my time more at BSS… Guessed its part of human nature….

*** Hi everyone. A New Life : Life’s Ending is the story of my past… I will be brinin u back to the history of chris… There are also some things tat I never even told ppl before… All will be revealed in tis series…. *** 

June 1998

I guessed time realli passed too quickli… PSLE is comin soon… Haiz… I am realli strugglin wif my studies… I seriousli cannt concentrate lol… As wat I haf knw, maybe tis yr, I will nt even make my marks bah….

Hm… Time is passin by too fast… Shld I even tell Jasmine hw I feel abt her??? I guessed I dun haf the courage yet… Even by sittin beside her durin chinese lessons… I never even looked at her straight in my eyes….

I can still rmb everytime when I passes by her in class, my eyes will be set on her… Haiz… Even if I wanted to go near her, I dun even dare… Manz… To tink of hw Wei Leong always pushes me to sit near her….

Guessed its juz nt the rite time for me to do anything yet… I was so useless… Hw shld I even expressed my feelins to her??? Well, tink of it… Days passed, all my classmates alreadi knew abt all tis…

Kee Kim, Kee Poh and the rest keeps on tellin me to go forward… But its nt hw I shld go forward, its whether, I shld or nt??? Dun realli knw… I am quite confused… Realli confused… Maybe its tat I fear of rejections…

After all, I am juz a kid… A primary 6 kid… U tink a primary 6 is a big deal at all??? I am nt even as smart as quan bao, as handsome as chin hwee, so wat am I…. Haha… Its realli a stupiditi more than bravery…

Currently in klass, is maths lesson… I dun realli like it… so always daydream… Haha… At times, I will glance ard the class, lookin here, lookin there… Manz… Maths are juz borin… No wonder, I keep on failin my maths lar… No interest mah…

I looked at quan bao, he is writin while listenin… I wondered when will I be liked him??? PSLE is comin, my maths realli suck… No matter hw much tution I had, I will never be able to understand those chim terms and solutions in maths… Its juz a strange thing to me…

I guessed I will never understand… Maybe this is life… Haha… Why tink so much, isn’t it??? So even bein bullied ny mani klassmates, I can still juz sit there and smiled… Haha… Hw silli of me…

Realli dun understand bah… have to do so mani past yrs paper… Ooh… its mid year exam comin soon… Alamak… Hw am I goin to pass??? Haiz… Yrs haf passed and even I tried so hard to study it everydae, I will never be able to get gd results… So tis yr, die loh???

Tuesday, 11 September 2007.

Thinkin back to wat happen in primary 6 was realli funnie… Haha… But I also had my regrets.. Well, maybe is the lack of confidence… Hm… if I had expressed my feelins to Jasmine, wld things be different todae????

Guessed tats in history. Aniwae, back in realiti… I tink my mind is full of uncertainties… Ppl are tokin abt headlog deferin all the ppl goin for bmt recourse… Even grayson was sayin, why wasn’t I included???

Guessed its nt for me to answer… I todae juz went to bought 2 more LCP rank to sew on my other 2 uniforms… Haiz… Dun realli wish to tink so much liao… Oh ya.. heard tat I will nt be promoted to CPL le… coz need to pass my ippt… Haiz…

Aniwae… I tink I will juz stay positive at the time bein…