A New Life : Life’s Ending - Episode 15
Dec 2006
My NS life continues over a new unit, hw will I be able to face it??? Nw I am able to go on offs and leaves, hw will I used it??? Wif a stay out unit, I am able to concentrate on my volunteerin career again….
~~~ Flashback to The Strategist ~~~
Episode 8 - 10 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2006/8/
~~~ Flashback to Fallen Chris : His Sad Journey ~~~
Part 1 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2006/10/
Part 2 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2006/12/
In HQ Armceg, it proves to be a slack unit…. I am a storeman after all… But at there, I am like cannt believe tat I am finalli out of tat sufferins, but at here, its like I haf nth to do leh… Hw contradictin…
There are a lot of sections in my platoon or so called compani… I am in BSS… Hwever, there’s too much for me to learn, which I am afraid may takes up my time… Haiz… Guessed its nt for me to decide bah…
Over the mths, i began to knw more and more stuffs… Like Almond, Candace, OBMs and Assualt boats… I am helpin out grayson, my IC in Alm Biis… Its the basic issue items for almond trucks like 7 tonner… Also, there are candace wif boats and trailers, assualt boats also had almost the same thing…
As for OBMs, outbound motors, its rather a heavy machine… I tried to carry it but found it difficult… Maybe, its my attitude, tat the rest of them found me someone who cannt help them much… I am like quite useless which affected me sometimes…
In BSS, other than grayson… There’s lova and martin who alreadi ord in sept lol… and wat I knew is tat martin didn’t do anythin for 1/2 a yr… Wah liew… Den, subsequnetly, I also knw ppl like ronald, joel, daniel, albert and dalton… Haha… wah liew… another ord personal, albert leh…
Haiz… durin stocktake, I found so mani losses… Wah liew, wat haf grayson been doin… I thot he shld be takin care of his stores one…. and nw I haf to clear so mani shit for him, sianz… Cant he juz do sth…
As I am able to stay out… phew… I am realli grateful abt it lol… Phew…. nw can spend more time wif my friends, doin more volunteerin work… I guessed there’s at some pt of my life where its the highest, while some time its the lowest…
I guessed Mandy realli left me alreadi… Dunno frm when, she never replied any of my msgs alreadi… Haiz… I wondered why??? I never realli pressured her anything, neither did I did anythin??? Maybe she needed was a promises, which I never gif her??? I never knw…
I went back to the y camp challenge tis yr… Kool… after one yr, and I am finalli back… Yeah… I guessed its time for me to challenge myself and gif me a chance to redeem wat I haf nt done in the last y camp…. Anywae, gt to knw a nice girl, charlyn….
25 September 2007
Yesterdae, I was speakin abt death… I guessed its realli nt tat easy to juz die… Haiz… I am totalli on depression and losin all hopes even thou, I had promised to stay my hopes up high, but wifout any support, I am subsequently losin it….
Juz as I was troubled by all these, tis mornin, a bright light shine on me… The big boss there told all of us tat watever losses there is, he will be payin for it… Hw tis news came so late… Haiz…
Anywae, bmt recourse seems so near… Its like onli a few daes left lol… Haiz… I realli cannt bear to juz end like tat, but there’s nth I can do alreadi… My brain cells became dead in a moment… Haiz…
I guessed gd news or bad news, its still a news… Tmr onwards, BSS are transfered to another section… The boss is somehw a veri troublesome guy…. I realli wonder whether its a gd ting or bad ting… Hm… dec is a crucial mth for me, Argh… cannt believe god anymore, lets juz pray tat my plan goes on well… Haiz…
After tokin to AJ last nite, I brighten up a bit… Guessed nw, there are seldome friends whom I can find to tok to on msn le… Haiz… Hw pathetic is tis… My life… why has it become to tis??? Why???
