A New Life : Life’s Ending - Episode 14
Aug 2006
NS life never suits me… So hw am I goin to face all these??? I wonder…. Maybe I will find a wae to finalli settle all tis once and for all??? Who knws… Let’s hope tat everything will onli gets better bah…. I myself knew tat its nt goin to be easy, but I am still willin to try…
Review of The Strategist
Episode 5 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2006/6/
Episode 6 and 7 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2006/7/
Episode 8 - 10 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2006/8/
So tats it for me finalli… Rachel rejected me juz at the 2nd wk of my bmt life… Haha… Even thou hw hard I tried to work out my relationship wif mandy, it juz gets far and far awae like its nt goin to return… Hw on earth did the god made my life so bitter again???
I seriousli dun like NS life… it doesnt suit me anywae…. If nt for my ligament injury, I may be sufferin for more… Why on earth do I haf to face all these??? Why??? I realli need a answer…. but who knws, even before I haf an answer, I am alreadi in a dead beat….
Thankfulli, I haf left the sufferin and facin a new environment…. Let’s hope tat the new environment will brin me a better future in NS… Life’s dim alreadi, a light will definelty brighten my life and gif me new hopes… Lets hope I will never come back to bmt again…
24 September 2007
I haf broken dwn and is nw totalli depressed…. I dunno why but I indeed am… I laughed at myself at the moment, why am I facin all these??? Wat wrong had I done??? Tears finalli flowed dwn and I cannt hold myself up anymore, I kneel dwn onto the hard, cold cement cryin to myself….
Todae, after returnin back frm home, I was never smilin again… Aactualli its nt onli tat lar… I had nt been smilin even since I came out of camp… I was totalli out of sort… Tired, makin me doesn’t wan to care anymore, I wan to end my life… Tats my thot for moment…
Hhahahahaha…. I laughed at myself…. I dun even haf the courage to die lol… Damn… WTH… dyin seems so easy, but it became difficult lol… Damn… I muz haf done sth grave in the past… Oh heaven, gif me some light… I need it… God, dun make me fallen again….
Damn it… wat bad things can still happen to me??? Presurrin of me losin the lost store in NS, almost goin for BMT recourse, com got reboot, my dad admitted into hospital and havin operation…. Argh…. Damn, hw god is so unfair to me, hw god wans me to end my life but doesn’t gif me any chance….
Tired nw… a depressed guy I am… goin to slp….
