A New Life : Life’s Ending - Episode 1
*** Hi everyone. A New Life : Life’s Ending is the story of my past… I will be brinin u back to the history of chris… There are also some things tat I never even told ppl before… All will be revealed in tis series…. ***
June 1998
I guessed time realli passed too quickli… PSLE is comin soon… Haiz… I am realli strugglin wif my studies… I seriousli cannt concentrate lol… As wat I haf knw, maybe tis yr, I will nt even make my marks bah….
Hm… Time is passin by too fast… Shld I even tell Jasmine hw I feel abt her??? I guessed I dun haf the courage yet… Even by sittin beside her durin chinese lessons… I never even looked at her straight in my eyes….
I can still rmb everytime when I passes by her in class, my eyes will be set on her… Haiz… Even if I wanted to go near her, I dun even dare… Manz… To tink of hw Wei Leong always pushes me to sit near her….
Guessed its juz nt the rite time for me to do anything yet… I was so useless… Hw shld I even expressed my feelins to her??? Well, tink of it… Days passed, all my classmates alreadi knew abt all tis…
Kee Kim, Kee Poh and the rest keeps on tellin me to go forward… But its nt hw I shld go forward, its whether, I shld or nt??? Dun realli knw… I am quite confused… Realli confused… Maybe its tat I fear of rejections…
After all, I am juz a kid… A primary 6 kid… U tink a primary 6 is a big deal at all??? I am nt even as smart as quan bao, as handsome as chin hwee, so wat am I…. Haha… Its realli a stupiditi more than bravery…
Currently in klass, is maths lesson… I dun realli like it… so always daydream… Haha… At times, I will glance ard the class, lookin here, lookin there… Manz… Maths are juz borin… No wonder, I keep on failin my maths lar… No interest mah…
I looked at quan bao, he is writin while listenin… I wondered when will I be liked him??? PSLE is comin, my maths realli suck… No matter hw much tution I had, I will never be able to understand those chim terms and solutions in maths… Its juz a strange thing to me…
I guessed I will never understand… Maybe this is life… Haha… Why tink so much, isn’t it??? So even bein bullied ny mani klassmates, I can still juz sit there and smiled… Haha… Hw silli of me…
Realli dun understand bah… have to do so mani past yrs paper… Ooh… its mid year exam comin soon… Alamak… Hw am I goin to pass??? Haiz… Yrs haf passed and even I tried so hard to study it everydae, I will never be able to get gd results… So tis yr, die loh???
Tuesday, 11 September 2007.
Thinkin back to wat happen in primary 6 was realli funnie… Haha… But I also had my regrets.. Well, maybe is the lack of confidence… Hm… if I had expressed my feelins to Jasmine, wld things be different todae????
Guessed tats in history. Aniwae, back in realiti… I tink my mind is full of uncertainties… Ppl are tokin abt headlog deferin all the ppl goin for bmt recourse… Even grayson was sayin, why wasn’t I included???
Guessed its nt for me to answer… I todae juz went to bought 2 more LCP rank to sew on my other 2 uniforms… Haiz… Dun realli wish to tink so much liao… Oh ya.. heard tat I will nt be promoted to CPL le… coz need to pass my ippt… Haiz…
Aniwae… I tink I will juz stay positive at the time bein…
