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Sunday, 30 September 2007

… Todae is the last episode … 

Last day of the mth also means tat new challenges are comin ahead… Sianz… So, for me, I am realli nervous abt tmr… Dunno wat will be happenin ahead of me, dunno hw will I be handlin all these…

I guessed I did hated myself for makin me havin to reach a stage of no returns… A stage where I am totalli lost of makin decisions, a stage where I probabli lost all my confidence in juz one moment of folli…

Lately after all these happens, I begin to lose all my confidence… I begin to lose hopes tat I used to haf… For so mani mths of regainin my confidence side, I started to lose it again… Why is life beginin to take back wat it gaf me???

Hw things happened so quickli??? Juz at one blink of an eye, ur friends cld turn into stranger, the most passionate stuff u haf cld become ur worst fear, the one whom u believe in cld juz leave u alone…

I guessed as the earth begins to make its round, u also turn and juz vola… changes… Tats seriousli is wat life is abt… Ppl told me to face it wif a positive mindset… But forget it… I am nt realli confident anymore…

Hw I wish I cld tahan and carry on… Even as mani of my friends told me tat they knew wat I am doin… But hw I wished to tell them… I am onli a human… I needed all of ur support… But guessed onli a few does understand my plight…

I sure haf nth to lose alreadi… I came alone… I always built up wat I dun haf alone… I always start to knw new friends when I am alone… This word alone itself accompanies me for 20 yrs…

In this 20 yrs… all the most difficult moments, I haf indeed overcome it… Even if I dun overcome it, some help always arrive in time… But I juz dun get it… Why muz I endure for so long before help comes??? Cant it come even earlier???

Its juz like why I haf to deal wif so mani stuff alone… This is nt me… I realli hated myself to be alone… To face all the worst situations alone… To fight off all these difficult moments alone…

WTH… U tink its so easi, isn’t it??? Den u can haf a tri on ur own for 20 yrs and tell me hw u feel after tat… So mani unknown situations makes me too tired alreadi… I am alreadi feelin tat I shld nt be facin anythin anymore…

So… Who will always stand by me???

~~~ COUNTING DOWN TO BMT RECOURSE IN TEKONG : 1 DAY ~~~

Saturday, 29 September 2007

I was supposed to wake up at 7 plus am… Dunno hw, the alarm seems like gt wake me up, but I went back to slp arhx… So I was in my dreamland…. Suddenli dreamin of the movie, secret… Den as I was dreamin of the scene where I saw the lead female actress….

I immediately woke up… Wah… Late liao… Late liao… Quickli, I finsihed all the dressin up and tidy up… I immediately rushed out of my hse… Before tat, Mark called me, and I had to sae tat I was on the mrt…

After my dad drove me to the central… I knew tat I did nt haf any time to waste, I immediately took out some cash and went on to wait for taxi… OMG… After waited for an hr, no taxi wanted to stop…

Ard 10 plus am, one taxi uncle finalli stopped infront of me and agreed to drove me to vivo citi… while I am on my wae, Mark called me again…. OMG… I had to sae tat I will reached before 11 am…

Sianz… I guessed I somehw spoilt my reputation by bein so late… Haiz… Sianz lol… Dunno why, I always hated myself for doin sth nt up to standard… sth which always lead to me becomin seems useless in the end…

After reachin vivo citi, I bought the ticket and went for the sky ride… Reachin the beach station, I came out and saw alan… After chattin wif him for a while, I went on to find mark…

He introduced me to my beneficiari, seow chun… Hm… beside him is another volunteer, joyleyn… Heard frm mark tat her benefiaciari wasn’t there… and as I was late, so I had to co work wif her to take care of one benficiary…

Guessed I haf nt been co work wif another volunteer to take care of a beneficiairi ever since the y camp dec 05… hm… memories bought back to me for jocelyn… haha… Anywae, I had been workin on my own for such a long time le…

So we took a travel bus towards underwater world… Kool… Our beneficiary realli enjoyed a lot lol… He is quite happie explorin the place… Till at a time, he started to grumble tat he’s hungry, bth of us den went out and let him to rest…

While we were sittin ard, I interact wif him… Guessed nt all beneficiari can use the same method to tok to bah… Anywae, when mark came out, our beneficairi gt a packet of twisties or sort of it…

Returnin back to vivo citi, we bth accompanied him and tok to him… Den durin lunch time, I finsihed my food quite fast… as for my beneficiari, I realised tat he didn’t wan to eat his rice wifout vege nor meat… As for Joyleyn, she seems to haf a cup of starbucks out of nowhere…. Duh… Haha… anywae, i started to fall aslp somehw…

Ard 1 plus pm, seow chun called his younger bro to come and fetch him… so we bth brought him dwn to the mrt stn to wait… Quite surprised lol… His younger bro looks like someone quite rich sia… Haha… If ah li was there, she surely will pounced onto him… Too bad, he gt married liao… Oops…

While walkin back to vivo, I never realli tok to joyleyn… thou she initiated in tokin, but as u knw, I dunno wat to sae to a girl frm uni… Haiz… Too bad lol… No matter hw confidence I am in volunteerin work, I guessed I never will be in relationship wise…

After the debrief… I went to compass pt to take my long awaited jolin’s cd… Yeah.. finalli its here… I liked tis new album and her new songs… and lets hope tat in singapore music hits award 07, she will clinch all the impt awards…

Returned back to home, I tot tat my com is dead alreadi… Hw I knw tat suddenli, my sis can start the com… Wat sia… Diaoz… I muz haf been cursed… I am indeed cursed… Or else, hw cld I haf been nt been lucki for these few daes….

…. Tmr last episode ….

~~~ COUNTING DOWN TO BMT RECOURSE IN TEKONG : 2 DAYS ~~~

*** Due to computer breakdown, this episode were only published on 29 September 2007. ***

Friday, 28 September 2007

A brand new mornin after sms AJ later last nite… My eyes was quite blurry bah… I woke up and got prepared to go to poli clinic to take MC… After finishin my breakfast, my dad drove me dwn to the poli clinic…

I guessed I realli pity my dad… After he came back frm hospital, he never got a gd rest… Haiz… So, I realli felt sorri for askin him to drive me to interchange last nite… I muz let him get more rest… I hoped…

Anywae, after I saw the doctor and got my MC… Oh yar, speakin of yst, my botak head ex-boss send a letter to the MO in seletar leh… He told me to report sick on mondae… Wah liew… But bo bian even if I dun haf any letter or excuse on mondae…

Oh yar, speakin of my MC, I gt it ard 9 plus am… Den after tat msg my boss and told him I will be buyin the 2 stores back… Speakin of this 2 stores… the adjustable spanner is easili found… i can easili buy it anywhere…

But for the double socket spanner 10 x 11 c/w tommy bar… I currentli holds the surplurs… but after spendin some time findin the tommy bar, i cldn’t find it… So bo bian, called cui cui and told him abt it lol…

After msg my boss, he told me he’s fine wif it… So, I repeat wat he told me to cui cui… and vola… by 11 am, all my missin stores had finalli been settled… Phew… for the first time, I am at peace… Nth realli troubled me now… probabli left wif my dead com to settle bah…

I msg AJ and while tryin to wait for jason to come and take the stuff frm me, I also tried to msg her and asked her whether she’s joinin me for lunch… But hor, I waited and waited, I still didn’t get any repli leh…

Too bad, jason is nt on the same route wif me… So cannt get free ride frm his car to Causewae pt… Aniwae, thot tat shld slack at there 1st while waitin for AJ’s repli lol… So took a bus to there…

Juz as I was abt to wander ard, I passed by The Face Shop… memories started to come back… I suddenli rmb one girl, her name is Joanna… Hwever, eveytime I went for gedong duty, as I passed by tat shop, I never will saw her…

So todae, I guessed its abt the same… Hwever, its a surprise tat I saw tat unquie hairstyle and after walkin past and look nearer, I saw her… Its realli joanna… I walked one round again and tis time, she saw me too…

But guessed nth realli will happen… I went up and wander ard other shops… My mind was thinkin… well, I shld haf at least go into the shop n tok to her since she’s alone… Hwever, since we haf nt been tokin for so long, I guessed I shld nt even do anything…

Anywae, at one video shop, I went to see the movie, Secret… Arhx… Guessed I knw knw wats goin on wif the movie le… and also knew the endin… Woah… great… Nt a bad movie… I liked the part where jay plays the piano to go back into the past to find his true love…

After wanderin ard the shops, I decided to go back to the basement again… This time, i guessed Jo saw me again, but she’s busy… I also decided nt to disturb her and went on to clementi for my lunch…

Lunch’s ended and yet AJ still haf nt replied me yet… Haiz… Its abt time and I decided to go to NUH for my checkup… Till this pt of time, I realli dunno wat has happened to AJ… Maybe she’s realli too busy to repli me bah….

The dcotor told me there’s nth wrong wif all the mri scan… Haiz… But the doctor sae tat he advises me to go for operation…. The success rate for my knee’s recoveri is 70%… and there’s nt much side effect…

I thot of it and decided to gif it a go… so there’s it… I will be goin for my operation on oct 17… Wah liew… 3 daes before Y proms!!! OMG… I thot of askin for next yr, but tat idoltic doctor sae he doesn’t wan to help me write the letter to excuse myself frm bmt recourse if i do tat… WTF…

Gd thing is tat I dun haf to go for bmt recourse liao lol…. bad things… I realli cannt imagine…. OMG… hw did I ended up needed to go into tis stage??? Argh… I realli hated myself…. I dun even knw hw to tell my parents…

Juz as I thot I cld tok to AJ, hw I knw tat she’s MIA… OMG… why… Why when I needed someone to gif me the support, no one is there… I realli felt lost… On my wae back home, I guessed I was shattered….

Back at home, I didn’t had much of the support frm my parents… Thou they in the end looked ok wif it, but I guessed I was feelin miserable… ZL’s words helped alot after tokin to him… Haiz… He told me to decide for myself… Thanx bro, at least I had one moral support le…

As for AJ… she didn’t even replied the whole dae… I gaf her a call and I guessed she didn’t wan to repli me… Dunno wat realli happened… I didn’t do anythin… But since she doesn’t wan to see my msg anymore… I guessed I will nt msg her anymore…

Haiz… another dae has passed… Tmr’s the Y outin for APSN…  

~~~ COUNTING DOWN TO BMT RECOURSE IN TEKONG : 3 DAYS ~~~

*** Due to computer breakdown, this episode were only published on 29 September 2007. ***

Thursday, 27 September 2007

A busy dae in seletar camp… Immdeiately after roll call, I went over to find as many missing stores as much as possible… I guessed heaven is kind wif me… Leavin me to find back so mani stores… In the end, I am onli left wif 2 stores needed to find…

After lunch, I focused on helpin others… They had alot of stuffs needed to book in sia… In the end, all of us worked and worked and worked, till we dun even rmb the timin le… They had work real hard, as they carried so mani obms…

I made a realli serious mistake lol… OMG… Durin bk in, I kei kiang, book in first without assurin tat the stuff is to be bk in or nt… Alamak… In the end, I had to rewrite the whole bk in, bk out equipment book… sianz…

Gt a scoldin lol… too bad, who ask me to write 1st… Haiz… So, there’s this phrase, if u r clever, tats gd enugh, dun act clever… Haha… quite a valuable lesson… I guessed, there probabli will nt be any more next time for me to bk in equipments le bah…

Evenin roll call is veri long… All of us had to wait for one another before we can start the roll call… Wah liew… haha… den finalli ard 6pm, the roll call started… So after endin, as I thot we are all readi to leave for home, we were called back again coz we are noisy??? wat sia….

OMG… stupid new boss… Luckili, i probabli will nt see him for a veri long time bah… Woo hoo… den heard tat the rest of them had activities tmr afternoon… Heng arhx… Grayson, dalton and me are all nt ard… Aren’t we gald…

After finishin my dinner, I immediately went out to ymca for the meetin… Hm… I guessed I sort of didnt made sure wats the timin and when I reached there, its alreadi abt to start le lol… Haiz…

Den durin the small grp meetin, we discussed wat we are goin to wear for the y proms… I guessed this small grp discussion helps us to made sure tat we will nt goes wrong on the stuff tat we are plannin…

I decided to take the St Andrew’s Autism Sch… Hwever, I knew tat I am goin for bmt recourse soon, i will haf no time to contact the VWOs myself, so instead of me contactin, i may haf to ask my partner, shun wei to help me le…

I guessed todae after knwin the details, I may be able to do more and plan realli well for tat dae… Hm… lets hope tat nth goes wrong on tat dae bah… Haiz… Bo Bianz, haf to pray lol…. Coz I knw there’s nth I can promise nw… Haiz… all is spoilt…

Back at home, juz as I was scrollin thru the websites and tokin to AJ on msn, my com suddenli reboot and broke dwn… wah liew… Hw can the com do tis to me… OMG… Finalli, cannt even get into the programs, neither I can used system recoveri liao… Haiz…

Anywae, the plan to go to mos is cancelled… Startin is grayson rejected after bein too tired, den dalton msg me when I am abt to go ymca tat he’s nt goin too… So i also did nt go liao…

I did msg AJ to remind her abt the registerin for her drivin course lol… Den at nite, after my com breakdwn, i sms her… but her repli is like 30 mins to 55 mins de… Made me until wait till slp… Haiz…

~~~ COUNTING DOWN TO BMT RECOURSE IN TEKONG : 4 DAYS ~~~

26 September 2007

I guessed my days in seletar camp is gettin lesser and lesser… haha… Alreadi accepted the fact tat I will be leavin for tekong on mondae… haiz… Nw lets hope tat I will be out of course again lol…

In camp, there’s still some stuff left for me to clear… I guessed as my daes shortens, I will feel tat its realli hard for me to leave all the mates in BSS… haha… I do knw I will see them again, and believe me, I seriousli will…

Todae, went over to new company, service support… Life in SSP is nt suitable for all of us in BSS… but well, we had to adapt to it, thou its never easy, but somehw, we juz adapt to it in someways…

The style of our new boss is definetly different… So to be under him, u haf to face him carefulli wif a veri careful appraoch… and if u dun, u get urself into deep troubles… Which I am hopin nth will happen after I returned lol… 

Anywae, I haf decided to go n see the doctor on fridae itself… I will be gettin a MC lol, and definetly nt goin to return to camp le… Haiz… Cannt find any reason for me to return either…

Tmr is the y proms meetin… I seriousli dun get it.. Hw come I had so much to do when I dun even knw whether I can do so much??? I did told pauline tat I haf a limit to the things which I can do le mah… Nw saw the jobscope, I seriousli fear for myself…

Oh yar, received frm yining abt the y camp registration form… I am still tinkin hw abt takin directly frm eileen or yew chong??? Since yining forwarded to us, I juz dwnloaded it and filled up for the time bein… See hw on saturdae bah…

Anywae, heard frm daniel tat he’s goin too… Surprised… I guessed I didn’t expect he will be goin lol… Wat an conincidence… Lets hope tat he will be enjoyin on tat outin and lets hope tat I will be able to help another beneficiary enjoy his dae…

AJ… AJ… AJ… AJ… AJ… AJ… Haha… nth lar… juz tat recently gt tok to her, so mention her name… haha… I am better le lah, nt realli tat depress anymore… At least nw, I am able to look on the bright side again… So be it bah… Oh yar, before I forget, tmr muz remind AJ to register for her drivin test… Muz rmb….

So my jolin’s cd is comin on sat lol… Hehe… gd gd… Nw, I will be able to get the cd after I come back frm the outin… Kool arhx… haha… Hm… my field pack all tat haf nt pack yet… Wah… tmr muz go to e-mart and buy liao…

Finalli, saw zhang xue you comin back to singapore again next yr for the encore concert… Wonder hw yining will react leh, since he’s her idol… Tink she will definetly go and see bah, since she has alreadi seen it tis yr…

Dec 2006

My NS life continues over a new unit, hw will I be able to face it??? Nw I am able to go on offs and leaves, hw will I used it??? Wif a stay out unit, I am able to concentrate on my volunteerin career again…. 

~~~ Flashback to The Strategist ~~~

Episode 8 - 10 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2006/8/

~~~ Flashback to Fallen Chris : His Sad Journey ~~~

Part 1 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2006/10/

Part 2 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2006/12/

In HQ Armceg, it proves to be a slack unit…. I am a storeman after all… But at there, I am like cannt believe tat I am finalli out of tat sufferins, but at here, its like I haf nth to do leh… Hw contradictin…

There are a lot of sections in my platoon or so called compani… I am in BSS… Hwever, there’s too much for me to learn, which I am afraid may takes up my time… Haiz… Guessed its nt for me to decide bah…

Over the mths, i began to knw more and more stuffs… Like Almond, Candace, OBMs and Assualt boats… I am helpin out grayson, my IC in Alm Biis… Its the basic issue items for almond trucks like 7 tonner… Also, there are candace wif boats and trailers, assualt boats also had almost the same thing…

As for OBMs, outbound motors, its rather a heavy machine… I tried to carry it but found it difficult… Maybe, its my attitude, tat the rest of them found me someone who cannt help them much… I am like quite useless which affected me sometimes…

In BSS, other than grayson… There’s lova and martin who alreadi ord in sept lol… and wat I knew is tat martin didn’t do anythin for 1/2 a yr… Wah liew… Den, subsequnetly, I also knw ppl like ronald, joel, daniel, albert and dalton… Haha… wah liew… another ord personal, albert leh…

Haiz… durin stocktake, I found so mani losses… Wah liew, wat haf grayson been doin… I thot he shld be takin care of his stores one…. and nw I haf to clear so mani shit for him, sianz… Cant he juz do sth…

As I am able to stay out… phew… I am realli grateful abt it lol… Phew…. nw can spend more time wif my friends, doin more volunteerin work… I guessed there’s at some pt of my life where its the highest, while some time its the lowest…

I guessed Mandy realli left me alreadi… Dunno frm when, she never replied any of my msgs alreadi… Haiz… I wondered why??? I never realli pressured her anything, neither did I did anythin??? Maybe she needed was a promises, which I never gif her??? I never knw…

I went back to the y camp challenge tis yr… Kool… after one yr, and I am finalli back… Yeah… I guessed its time for me to challenge myself and gif me a chance to redeem wat I haf nt done in the last y camp…. Anywae, gt to knw a nice girl, charlyn….

25 September 2007

Yesterdae, I was speakin abt death… I guessed its realli nt tat easy to juz die… Haiz… I am totalli on depression and losin all hopes even thou, I had promised to stay my hopes up high, but wifout any support, I am subsequently losin it….

Juz as I was troubled by all these, tis mornin, a bright light shine on me… The big boss there told all of us tat watever losses there is, he will be payin for it… Hw tis news came so late… Haiz…

Anywae, bmt recourse seems so near… Its like onli a few daes left lol… Haiz… I realli cannt bear to juz end like tat, but there’s nth I can do alreadi… My brain cells became dead in a moment… Haiz…

I guessed gd news or bad news, its still a news… Tmr onwards, BSS are transfered to another section… The boss is somehw a veri troublesome guy…. I realli wonder whether its a gd ting or bad ting… Hm… dec is a crucial mth for me, Argh… cannt believe god anymore, lets juz pray tat my plan goes on well… Haiz…

After tokin to AJ last nite, I brighten up a bit… Guessed nw, there are seldome friends whom I can find to tok to on msn le… Haiz… Hw pathetic is tis… My life… why has it become to tis??? Why??? 

Aug 2006

NS life never suits me… So hw am I goin to face all these??? I wonder…. Maybe I will find a wae to finalli settle all tis once and for all??? Who knws… Let’s hope tat everything will onli gets better bah…. I myself knew tat its nt goin to be easy, but I am still willin to try…

Review of The Strategist

Episode 5 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2006/6/

Episode 6 and 7 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2006/7/

Episode 8 - 10 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2006/8/

So tats it for me finalli… Rachel rejected me juz at the 2nd wk of my bmt life… Haha… Even thou hw hard I tried to work out my relationship wif mandy, it juz gets far and far awae like its nt goin to return… Hw on earth did the god made my life so bitter again???

I seriousli dun like NS life… it doesnt suit me anywae…. If nt for my ligament injury, I may be sufferin for more… Why on earth do I haf to face all these??? Why??? I realli need a answer…. but who knws, even before I haf an answer, I am alreadi in a dead beat….

Thankfulli, I haf left the sufferin and facin a new environment…. Let’s hope tat the new environment will brin me a better future in NS… Life’s dim alreadi, a light will definelty brighten my life and gif me new hopes… Lets hope I will never come back to bmt again…

24 September 2007

I haf broken dwn and is nw totalli depressed…. I dunno why but I indeed am… I laughed at myself at the moment, why am I facin all these??? Wat wrong had I done??? Tears finalli flowed dwn and I cannt hold myself up anymore, I kneel dwn onto the hard, cold cement cryin to myself….

Todae, after returnin back frm home, I was never smilin again… Aactualli its nt onli tat lar… I had nt been smilin even since I came out of camp… I was totalli out of sort… Tired, makin me doesn’t wan to care anymore, I wan to end my life… Tats my thot for moment…

Hhahahahaha…. I laughed at myself…. I dun even haf the courage to die lol… Damn… WTH… dyin seems so easy, but it became difficult lol… Damn… I muz haf done sth grave in the past… Oh heaven, gif me some light… I need it… God, dun make me fallen again….

Damn it… wat bad things can still happen to me??? Presurrin of me losin the lost store in NS, almost goin for BMT recourse, com got reboot, my dad admitted into hospital and havin operation…. Argh…. Damn, hw god is so unfair to me, hw god wans me to end my life but doesn’t gif me any chance…. 

Tired nw… a depressed guy I am… goin to slp….

Apr 2006

Finalli I haf graduated frm ITE Clementi… I leave behind my past… Leave behind my glory… Leave behind all my hard work and foundation tat I haf built for the past 1 yr… I guessed the era of me in ITE will be gone like tat… For my future, i realli haf no idea wat will happen…

In Interact Club… For the past few mths, other than the normal activities and visits to homes…. My BODs and me are busy preparin for the Installation Day… other than tat, I am also busy trainin the new BODs on leadership course and courses on interact…

I guessed tis new batch are a combined idea chosen by the bods and me…. Anywae, Chi Chiang is nt ard wif us durin the interview… The reason is tat he is on attachment wif andy chiang, another friend of ours to India… Kool leh… I dun even haf my chance to go for attachment lol…

The new batch of BODs after further discussion are as belows… Derrick as President, Yanbin as VP, Hui Jing as Secretary, Vivien as Treasurer, Syazwani as Club Welfare Director, Wenting and Jinng Yi as Community Service Director, Arnold as PR Director and Kelly as Membership Director…

As we carry on the trainins of the new BODs… problems appeared… Haiz… As the course continues, we also let the bods had on job trainins…. They started to plan the remaindin projects while the current batch of BODs promoted themselves to the Advisors in the Advisory Board, the advisors includin me advice the new bods by the sidelines…

So wat are the main problems… In the middle of nowhere, Syazwani suddenli quit sch and so we haf to set up a revival round for the club welfare directors…. This revivial round consist of capable candidates who will nominated but nt selected in the end…. After much discussion by Chi Chiang and me, we bth decided tat Enard will become the new club welfare director…

Plannin of the Installation Day is never easy… Frm all the small details to the big details, CC, Saridah and me took full responsibilities… For wks, all the bods were so busy tat we tired ourselves out… and we didn’t even knw wat we are doin…. I guessed the end results is still impt…

My idea for the installation was to make it like star awards… and to sae the turth, even thou, at the end, its nt sth tat I wanted, but we still managed to continue and carry on till the veri end…. haha… This veri moment where there are awards given out, CC givin his speech, Saridah and me givin the club’s annual report, BODs performin and finalli sth worth to rmb… Ah li and me are the MCs for tis ceremony…

Haha… Too long le, haf nt been MCs for a long time… Guessed tis is a veri impt moment, after all, I still proved to be a veri gd MC…. Oh yar… This yr’s ppt slide and music video, all of us also put in effort… Haha… I also wanted to congratulate all the bods for their effort in the installation day….

On the followin monday, CC and me held a passin of power session… Where CC and me passed dwn all the documents to the new bods…. Finalli we the current batch of bods haf retired and is nw a full time advisors… Kool… I guessed for the past one yr wifout all the bods support and help, I will nt haf the golden team creatin the new Interact Club…

Oh yar… Nw there is tis girl, she’s Joanna… I met her once in the last yr’s installation day…. Den met her on the rotary club’s dinner…. Haha… but all these were onli one glimpse of fate and after tat, its gone… So todae, I saw her again… Its realli for a long time coz I saw her dwn the stage… Well, too bad, I never get to tok to her… Haiz…

Anywae, managed to saw her durin her side’s installation day… But well, I didnt cherish my chance in askin for her hp number… Haiz… why did I missed it… Hw stupid I am lol… I guessed I shld haf grab hold of the chance to juz ask for her hp number… if nt e-mail mah…. kaoz…

Well, I did went back to network marketin for a while… Tis time round wif an aim, to get into a course knwn as PSC, philosophi of success course… Tis course, widens the knwledge of a person, and I did grow up frm tis course… probabli made me change a little… I guessed onli after u experience it, den u will knw it…

SC side was in a total mess… I guessed I didn’t even bother abt Yvonne near the end… Hweve, there was one incident, tat I almost wanted to made her shut up… but I didn’t sae anythin… I kept my cool and left the place, thus makin her look like some mad woman…. Hwever tat incident coz me to believe tat unless u respect all the ppl beside u, nobody will respect u…

Mdm Hasnah, the teacher IC for SC console me after tat, I told her the truth, since liyana and kristy had alreadi left SC mainli is becoz yvonne forces them to leave, and the whole of EXCOs had alreadi split into mani parts, I said I wanted to leave… but she told me nt and said tat since its the end alreadi, juz bear wif it…

After all the promoises to the ex exco, I stayed and nw becoz of wat mdm hasnah said, I stayed too… I guessed the teacher is quite a nice lady, I shld juz stayed… Maenwhile, I dun even bother abt anymore SC stuff and get prepare to get my cert in the investiture…

On tat dae, everythin juz ended in an instant… Gettin the cert made me finalli get my breath back for a moment… Finalli, I dun need to care abt all the nonsense and those stupid politics alreadi… SC is a learnin experience but definetly never a gd one…

Studies wise… I kuai kuai returned back to klass after some disputes… Haha… Dora Poon almost made me cannt graduate sia… Coz I haf nt been in klass for a long time durin term 4… haha… I guessed if nt for CC’s e-mail and eunice ang’s help, I will alreadi haf been nt able to graduate le… Anywae, eunice ang is my Interact Club’s teacher IC…. Well, all these happens after the installation…

In April, I gt myself the CCA Medal… Haha… finalli arhx… 1 yr’s hard work for tis medal is defiently sth… I guessed I realli gaf myself a chance after all in provin myself… Anywae, wif me were CC and apple winnin tis medal too… While ah li missed her chance as her teacher ic didnt submit her form…

A few wks later, I am sayin to tis whole world tat I am nw out of ITE… Graduated lol… Kool… Finalli all the shit in CCAs ended… all the time preparin for projects ended and so mani stuffs in ITE ended lol… Haha… like cannt believe it, but it juz ended…

I dyed my hair red for tis april… Haha… Durin the award ceremony, I showed off in red… Kool orhx… Haha… I guessed I wanted to haf a change of hairstyle before I entered NS… Oh Ya… I haf went for the medical checkup last mth and is confirmed PES B… Sianz… den i gt the info tat I will be enlisted into 46 SAR…

Thruout these mths, I am realli glad tat I had someone to accompani me… Tats mandy… Wifout, my life wld probabli be dim… The daes tat I spent wif her, i realli felt happie… Maybe, its the impact tat made me wanted to sae out the feelins for her…. I juz never did…

Tmr I will be goin into BMT… NS life will be startin tmr… Haiz… Cannt believe tat my freedom has ended le… but well, I guessed its time to face the fact… NS is startin… I sent out 1 letter and 1 e-mail on the dae itself… One is for Rachel and one is for Mandy… In my heart, I dunno wat will be the repli, but I am juz pinnin…

23 September 2007

Tis mornin, my father was admitted into the hospital… Hm…. He had an operation tmr lol… Haiz… I realli wished tat nth will happen to him… Lets hope tat his operation will goes on smoothli… Anywae, he’s realli a gd dad… and I haf full confidence in him and the operation… May all the pain goes awae after tat…

I stayed on and played gaia for a long time… I didn’t knw till when, but I juz carried on… Den as time approaches, I started to realise its abt time for the gatherin…. Anywae, ah li finalli replied me tat she’s nt feelin well… I msg her yesterdae and no repli, while juz nw msg her and call her so mani time, she also never repli lol… Dunno wat happen… Nw at least, knew tat she’s fine…

Oh yar… haha… AJ asked me why am I so interested in knwin wats the curiousiti abt… haha… I didn’t knw why also leh… pure curiousiti bah… Tink further, tis is the 1st time, AJ never told me stuffs tat I wanted to knw… Maybe, she’s gt a new friend liao… Haha… I guessed cannt disturbed as and when I liked lol…

I also msn yinin and told her abt the new zhang xue you’s album… Haiz… its been for wks alreadi… At least, she cld haf forgiven me le bah… But she still dun wan to ans me leh… Haiz… I realli dunno wat shld I do to regain back tis friendship… I realli dunno… Well, I alreadi haf so much troubles botherin in my mind nw, I realli cannt tink anymore…

Ard 4 plus pm, elieen called me and asked where I was… Oh yar hor… I shld haf gone dwn to the outin le… Haha… I den told her I will be goin dwn ard 5 plus bah… So there I was, takin a taxi dwn to east coast park… Hm… thou, I did promised to go, but wif my mind full of so mani thots uncleared, I juz pushed myself to go dwn…

Reachin there, I walked all the wae, tryin to find the bedok jetty mentioned by elieen… Haha… Hw stupid am I to miss the bicycle shop lol… At least I can loan a skatin shoes and skate towards the bedok jetty or anywhere mah… Its will be faster lar… Hwever, I juz walked and walked… Dunno where I walked too, I eventualli gt lost…

Den eileen called back and told me to go and find them, but I rejected her idea and walked back to macdonald which is closer… Haha… Sorrie, eileen… Ard 7 plus pm, they all finalli came back…. After some chit chat, 1/2 of us took yi liang’s car, while the other 1/2 took esther’s care, i tink… On the wae to the airport, all 4 of us talked about NS stuff… haha… veri interestin…

Reached the airport, we found burger king as our dinner place… I was quiet the whole nite lar… Dunno hw to fit in either… Haiz… Anywae eileen did asked abt why I came so late…. Hm… I said tat I was visitin my dad in the hospital bah… My mind is tinkin abt some other stuff, cldn’t realli find the rite mood…

Den out of nowhere, ah li arrived… Wah liew, I was bluffed by her… Totalli cannt believe tat she said tat she’s feelin unwell and yet she’s nw here… Haiz… dun even wan to sae much… The whole lot of us keep on chattin until 8 plus pm, den we switched places to swesen for some ice cream… Haha… at swesen, I became quite noisy and talkative lol… Ok lar… Try to say some lame stuff….

10 plus pm, we went over to bid goodbyes to chong ming… Eventualli, chong ming still cannt get it why am I inside eileen’s grp… I guessed he will never get it either… haha… hw much things had happened sia… All of us stayed ard till 11 plus pm and den we all left the place… I guessed tats realli the last time I saw chong ming… hm… so in the next y camp, chong ming left the team, wan leng dunno comin back, mei xuan is nw awae in uk…. and more bah…

On the wae to the bus stop for my bus 27, eileen and me talked abt lots of stuff… Bascialli my history of bein a leader was told to her… Haha… I didn’t knw hw lar… but well, say le… I guessed I haf a lot to tink abt if I were to plan outins for eileen bah… coz she alreadi had 5 generals under her… darren, wei guang, yi liang, ah li and hui jing…. Maybe, stayin in pauline’s grp and help her plan outins is better???

Dec 2005

After Serene left ITE Clementi in Apr 2005, my life was goin dwnwards…. No doubt abt it, I haf to admit tat her departure makes me life more miserable than it was… I guessed the impact has been stronger than it was in the past…

Soon after my term 2 exams, I was involved in meetins for the orientation dae for the new students… Haiz… Holidae is burned becoz all of these… Kaoz… So wat if I was the EXCO, still had so mani things to do even thou I am nt one of the ICs….

As for Interact Club, I rmb tat I had promised Serene esp. tat I will made the club go on well… So holidaes after the installation, we had some plannins to do, and its the fact tat these meetins gifs us an rough idea wat will be in for us in the up comin mths…

My board of directors consists of President, Chi Chiang, me as the VP, Saridah as the Secretary, Yuki as the Treasurer, Apple as the Club welfare director, Ivy as the Community Service director, Ah li aka alicia as the Public relation director and finalli ruzaini as the membership director…

Each roles of the director which is stated in the past are nw all re shuffled and re made to suit the new systems… I guessed for the next followin mths, the whole team supported in me plannin for all the new projects….

We had orientation dae, members dae, blood donation drive, talks, mooncake festivals celebration, fund raisin, graduation ceremony for the nitec members…. So on and so forth, maybe at times, all 8 of us had arguments to arguments, but we still continued to work hard as a team…

The worst arguments was probabli the one in sept… Haha… Too powerful, I dunno hw it did, but it juz happened… Guessed sometimes, it coz us to better understand each other after arguments… and well, everything went on well in dec… True tat the understandin is there…

I realli cherish the golden team in Interact Club becoz we worked well wif each other and understand wat each of us realli wanted, thou I may nt be the best leader out there but I am always tryin to do wat its rite….

Maybe wat u thot is rite, may nt be rite…

In SC, I am afraid I am nt havin a wonderful time…. I haf finalli given up on the team in dec… Becoz its nt a place where I am meant to stay…. the president, Yvonne always thot tat she is rite and after activities, she will juz blamed the whole team for all the tings, she thot is nt rite….

I haf to say she never respect any of us, and I dun haf a gd time at there either… Its tat I am nt used wisely lol… I am afraid tat place, if I stay on longer, I will surely be tired out… Too political and yvonne is never a gd leader….

All the shit we had done, and there’s no encouragement, instead we got blame after blame… Hw do u wan me to stay in such places???? Haiz… Oh god, pls gif me a break… Inside the Exco, I had gd friends, like Zai, Hadi, Fai, Yanfen and Kristy….

I can sae some stand alongside wif yvonne, some hate her, as for me, I prefer to care less, I juz wan my own freedom and the pt is I am more concerned for wat is happenin in Interact Club than SC…. Tats for sure till nw…

After Serene left, I thot no one can replace her place in my heart…. Haha… I was deepli wronged…. I met Aloysia in SC … Hm… she’s the new consillor… But too bad, after I tried to woo her for onli 5 daes, I was rejected…

Thou I tried my best nt to let my tears flow dwn, but perhaps, its the fact tat I still did… haiz… Bo bian… and after tat, she became my god sis…. So wat happen to serene??? After a few mths when we chatted on msns, we became like elder sis tokin to younger bro… haiz… Guessed I alreadi accepted the fact…

A few wks later, I gt to knw of one girl named Rachel… Ooh… she’s a special one… I guessed her birthdae present was the first I got to sent to her by post…. Haha… Funnie thing is tat I started to woo her after a few mths back after knwin her…

Hw did I knew her??? Its by a talk tat I knew her, but hwever, I alreadi fallen in luv wif aloysia tat time tat I didn’t take notice of her… Gettin in touch wif Rachel is durin the presybaterain flag dae…. Tat time, I was in the same grp as her and stella, my younger god sis and her friend, hui hui….

I tink I gt attracted to her at tat time… hm… probabli the time when I was walkin on the street at a certain pace, and she caught up wif me…. Hwever, I did nt sae much… Den after noticin tat, i walked fast and she walked fast too… I was liked, hw did tat happened??/ maybe, her actions made me realised her tat I got attracted to her afterwards…

Thou I tried to woo her, but I never realli took any real actions… Guessed its tis wae tat I dragged tis strenous relationship for quite a long time… Tat pt onwards, till she graduated, i sometimes will tok to her online, at times when I met her in sch, I will juz get a glimpse of her….

After she left, i guessed tats the end of us, but I did nt gaf up and continued to woo her, but well… Its realli nt successful lol…

CCAs took up most of my time in ITE Clementi… haha… As for my studies… The whole of 2005, I can be seen missin mani times in klass… Tink back, maybe I had to thank my teacher, dora poon for lettin me off…

Maybe tats why, my studies flop greatly in the yr 05… I guessed I still did projects and took CAs, but lessons wised, there will be times I am nt in klass, so I realli did nt knw wat had happened most of the time in klass… Haiz…

Maybe tats why my relationship wif them is never as gd as my relationship wif my CCAs mates… Even hwee thing who rejected me last yr, I did nt haf time to mend back the friendship tat I lost wif her….

anywae, tmr I will be goin for the first camp in Interact Club and also a veri challengin camp, which is wat its called the Y camp Challenge… Lets see wat will happened….

Saturday, 22 September 2007

Tis morning, i went for the Y outings, my 2nd last one before my bmt recourse lol… I am realli glad tat I successfulli completed another outins todae… Phew… Its realli becomin a sense of achievements nwadaes…

Todae is the y outings for the Y stars… They are goin to sentosa… I am realli late todae lar… Its the stomachache which coz me to be tat late… I guessed I had to blamed myself also for wakin up realli late…

After reachin tat place, I saw unfamiliar faces… and guessed wat I saw a beneficiari again… Yesh… again and his name is Aaron… Hw great am I to see him again… and the thing is after seein him, my memories went back to the y camp dec 06 and also the memories of charlyn and me…

Back to the realiti… I was alreadi on the bus to mount faber… anywae, I am takin care of the brothers named mathew and joshua…. Haha… for mathew, I gt his name wrong in the 1st place and called him timonthy… OMG…

After reachin mount faber, all of us took the cable car towards sentosa… All is quite fine except for one beneficiari who is called timonthy lar… He had to come by bus… After tat, den we took a sky rail towards siloso beach…

At there, we started buildin sand castles… haha… The best thing is mathew kept on buildin and buildin, but it collapsed after completed…. As for me, I continued to built and managed to built one nice one… Kool…

Den lunchtime, all of us found a shaded place for the lunch… Its bread plus some other mixtures of veges, sauagges n rest… Like some buffet style… I guessed after eatin breads in the mornin, I realli had no intention to eat bread, but too hungry le, so had to eat it… Definetli it tasted nicer…

Everything ended and we went back to YMCA… Oh yar… On my wae back, I helped yew chong to carry his ali baba bag to ymca lol… His bag contains all the sand castles maker and this ali baba bag is veri familiar lol… coz its the old style duffer bag… haha…

Anywae, we did had some gd toks wif each other lar… Nt too bad… thou in the past, i did nt had a gd impression on him, but todae I changed a slight view on yew chong… n U knw wat, i met terence at the lift in ymca todae… Hw conincidence…

Finalli, I am curious why AJ is so exasperated yesterdae lol… I tried to guess and find out, but AJ juz wld nt tell me… Haiz… Why??? I am too lazin to tink nwadae… Haiz… AJ, juz sae lar…. Pls….  

May 2005

A yr wif a new adventures for chris…. He met a girl named serene who almost made his life full of ups and dwns….

CCA wise, the route of him in leadership roles again… Interact Club is a new CSC, hw will he make his legacy back again, will he be able to revive the fallin interact club? Student Consillor… He has finalli made his dreams come true, and nw, facin him is the EXCO, hw is he goin to face it?

By Shi You’s influence, he is in Network Marketin… Hw is he goin to live up wif all the challenges ahead?

This episode, we shall go backwards into time and brings you all the past series back today…. 

~~~ Flashbacks to the past series : Chris Adventures 2 ~~~

Episode 13 - Episode 16 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2005/2/?page=3/

Episode 17 - Episode 20 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2005/2/?page=2/

~~~ Flashbacks to the past series : Chris Adventures 3 ~~~

Episode 1 - Episode 6 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2005/2/?page=2/

Episode 7 - Episode 16 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2005/2/?page=1/

Episode 17 - Episode 20 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2005/3/?page=2/

~~~ Flashbacks to past series : Chris Adventures 4 ~~~

Episode 1 - Episode 3 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2005/3/?page=2/

Episode 4 - Episode 13 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2005/3/?page=1/

Episode 14 and Episode 15 : http://greenhornet.blog.com/2005/5/?page=1/

Relationships are juz like tat…. Serene may nt haf accepted me but I will always keep this feelins inside my heart… Probabli tats why she’s the onli one who can let me keep my life goin on positiveli…

The ring which I had been wearin for such a long time is bought for her, to represent the love of her even thou we may nt be couples… I guessed tat tok last nite in CNY really brought us to somehw understand each other….

Interact Club is a club of volunteerin, similiar wise to CSC… I guessed another legacy will start realli soon, but I wanted to change my style of leadership… I wanted to become a gd leader and nt a bad leader…

However, tat wld need a team behind me to support me in watever I am doin… I guessed its hw I wanted…. I am sure after the installation, my plans will work out for the club… Its a golden plan and wif me I had a golden age team…

Student Consillor is my wish for the past… I guessed its such a sudden tat I can become a consillor, and nw I am even the EXCO… Hw come my luck changes overnite??? I may nt be able to answer tis qns nw, but as times goes by, I will be doin it well…

Finalli, studies… Nt realli gd tis term, last yr is gd becoz I dun haf any CCAs wif responsiblities, but tis yr is totalli different thing, as I am so busy wif my CCAs, so my grade somehw juz dropped… Haiz…

I haf to keep on tryin… Stay positive and you will experience different styles…