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Tuesday, 21 August 2007.

Todae in particularly… I went to camp real late… Ai Yo Yo… The real reason behind is tat I initially finished my breakfast quite earli… But due to the fact tat my online soccer management game, Trophy Manager is goin thru its new season update, I thot of goin online to check hw’s the update process…

My time shows 6.30am… The TM time is 00 30… Manz… I thot the updates done, hw wld I expect tat it to still be updatin… Haiz… den shouldn’t it be finsihed later??? OMG… wat to do nw??? cannt go in and check out on my team which is havin a friendli tonite… ARGH!! haha… nvm… Cool down… I knw it will be ok later… come back to check after I return back frm NS lol…

I reached my camp ard 7.38 am… Alamak… I am realli late nw… My NS mates are all late too, I guessed… one of them called me to tell me tat since we all may nt be able to make it for the life run later, might as well go for fatigue aka area cleanin… I agreed wif them…

After changin to some PT attire, I went down to find the others… Todae’s duty orderly sergent is our veri own 2SG, so the fatigue shld nt be tat tough… haha… tink again, he sometimes can be slack also… oops.. shouldn’t sae him like tat…

Fatigue’s done, the 3 of us went for life run… OMG… the maintenance side are preparin for the army half marathon, and they are runnin 4 km todae… The 3 of us had to join in as normalli, we will walk at life run, but todae, no one is walkin, so we had to run…

Haha… we onli run 1/2 wae… Even though, I had the energy and breath to run for the first time, we still walk back… I got to sae… tats kool… I got my physical level back somehw… Anywae, one of my NS mates, santos… he quite chui… haven’t even run for 1 km, he alreadi went tired… ai yoh…

After cool dwn exercise, my NS mates and me went to play soccer… Todae I am quite proud of myself as my level of goalkeepin came back to me somehw… Its nt the same lvl when I goalkeep for my class durin ITE times… Yeah!!!

Santos keeps on kickin the ball to the side of the street soccer field… He knws hw to socre one… but oftenly, he kicks to the side… and I saved a lot of goals wif him scorin… so does my other ns mates scorin…

At one time, I rmb hw the galactic football, the anime’s goalkeeper character poses after he saves goals after goals… I den imitate his pose… Dunno hw, it became I challengin santos in the end… haha… well… good luck perhaps… I won tis battle and managed to earn drinks for all my ns mates wif him treatin…

After lunch, I went totalli tired… After all those savings wif my legs and hands… I am too tired… I slept away frm 3pm to 4pm… Realli too tired alreadi to even do anything… Oh gosh… I tink I realli had too much things to do and got to finish them somehw…

Returned home earli todae… Everything is normal… Glad tat it is… I am nt someone who wans to haf excitement all the time… Peace is also another great wae to enhoy urself… Its those kind of moments tat u knw hw to relax…

As I haf been sayin relax… I may nt haf learn well… sometimes will be too tensed, either tat, or I dun knw when to relax… haha… stress myself too much liao… Maybe, shld learn to control the stress and dun tense myself tat much…

Glad tat tonite I am tokin to samantha again… Guess tat the turtles are too busy to be online wif their studies… so dun realli haf anyone to chat wif me… well, wif MX overseas and havent seem her online ( tinkin tat she’s online when I am slpin or workin, den when I am online, she’s slpin or studyin or she cld be studyin wifout time online ) haiz… dun realli knw when I will see the turtles again…

Anywae, thanx samantha… realli enjoyed tokin to u tonite… u muz realli take care of ur health lol… tmr, see a doctor.. hope u get well soon… take care…

Well… guess todae is another normal dae, huh??? So be it… Watever the thing is, its a good thing… haha….

Monday, 20 August 2007.

U tink life cld be as easy as u wan??? Tis qns haf different ans for different ppl… I guess my ans is tat sometimes u get wat u wan, sometimes u dun… When u dun, dun feel dwn, coz when u reach the front of ur path, there will be a turn wif lights infront…

I guess todae at NS is a prettie short dae for me… I didn’t haf much to do… After settlin some stuff at office and fmw, plus no spoilage to the stores return, I guess I returned home earli todae…

Tink deeper… Todae actualli shouldn’t took the 1/2 dae off… Hwever… wif 2 of my NS mates whom I wld sae as the brothers taken MC and MA… they always somehw be missin durin impt period of time… and 2 of my NS mates whom has taken off earlier, plus 1 of my 2SG goin for duty… there left onli me and one of my ns mate left…

Tink again…. wouldn’t it be like we are doin nth at the camp??? Den hw sad cld it be to spend the rest of the dae wifout nt much ppl and onli 2 of us…. I didn’t felt like doin work todae either… haha… Mondae blues bah… guess everyone wld haf it somedae….

Back at home… nobody’s in…. well… nt too bad, able to do tings feely as I wan… I guess tis are kind of moments I look forward to sometimes in life… Sometimes bein alone for a while is realli nt tat bad coz u get to clear ur mind and rest as much as u like…

A surprise or perhaps I realli didn’t expect… DG’s sis, samantha is online… haha… yesterdae, I sae if I saw DG online, will ask abt his sis… haha… todae when I returned home, she’s online… Its realli coincidence…

Maybe its becoz tat I haf nt tok to her for quite some time, I felt tat I can onli tok the nromal wae to her… well… probabli, I didn’t wan to tink too far… neither shld I… Yesh! I shld nt tink out of anythin more than a friend shld do…

Chattin wif her for a while, I realised tat she has fall sick… As a friend concernin her, I told her to rest well… Let’s hope tat she gets well soon… After all, tis kind of weather nwadaes makes ppl fall sick easili…

Before she left, she told me she is goin for work…. Out of concern, I felt tat since she’s sick, she shuldn’t realli go for work… but well, i tink for her, she has her plans in mind… Anywae, her hp no. haf nt changed… Well… gotta msg her somedaes as promised to her… haha… Told her tat hope she will nt gif me a repli “Who r u?” msg back to me…

Arhz…. my YMCA career are goin on the rite path… The person IC for the MINDs outing, eileen called me todae… Kool, I am able to join in the outing… Hwever, tats onli the 1st step… I gotta find out more outings on saturdaes in sept and hopefulli will nt be bored dwn by nth to do like tis comin sat… haha…

Well… its a pity tat yew chong didn’t do his job… I volunteer for quite a long time and he did nt tell me abt sept’s outings… Nw I find my own wae to go for the outings… Its at least tat I am willin to keep on tryin to keep my career in sight…

Lunch happens for me ard 3 plus pm… I went dwn to buy yang tau foo… With some fast cook noodles and a packet of chicken soap… I cooked it together and well… normalli, I always do tat when I cook noodles to eat… Its part and parcel of my learnin process for cookin… I may nt be a master, but I am able to cook sth tat can be eaten… After the noodles is cooked wif all the yang tau foo, I added some oyster sauce to it… Makes it nicer… haha…

A sleepy afternoon indeed for me… I went on to slp wif my com still on… Well the rest of the daes is the same for me… I guess tis is life… Tis is qat I call simple and u can haf some moments to relax n escape for all ur troubles for a while…

Guess tmr will haf some unknown incidents happenin… Well, I haf to react it as it is happenin… So be it if its happenin… I dun realli need to tink of hw to change nor do I haf to do anythin to change it….

Juz act accordingly and maybe surprises happen out of nowhere… So be it if it good or bad, sometimes tis may lead u to more things tat u never expect it to happen…  

Sunday, 19 August 2007.

A dae where I tink of hw I miss ppl ard me… The turtles… Hey guys, todae, I gotta sae, august will be a big change to the turtles… or shld I sae the turtles are goin to disappear soon???

Normalli, my grp frm Y camp are never tat strong in bonding… but the turtles has been together outings and outings for ard 1 mth alreadi… I realli felt great knwin the guys out there… All the plesant moments are goin to stay inside my heart and I will never forget…

But juz as I try to rmb all those moments, the turth has arrived… I tink the turtles are abt to dispatch alreadi… Its nt tat I am tryin to be bad, but as wat I can see, some of them frm ITE haf alreadi went back to studies, and recently some of them in Uni haf also started their lessons while tmr, more will go back to studies…

Den tink further… All of us will be busy wif our own stuffs… I myself also got committed to y outings and activities… Therefore, I keep on knwin new friends… Hwever, most of the turtles did nt follow my footsteps… To even some extend, MX and Chong Ming are leavin and goin overseas to further their studies… Turtles loses 2 of their members…

So, I had to sae tat the turtles will dispatched… I dun tink there will be even time when all of us cld meet any sooner… Tink again… when we go back to our own field of life, we get to get intouch wif our own friends, get busy wif our own life and activities… den we get to knw mani other friends, the truth is we dun realli get in touch wif one another tat often anymore…

Furthermore, 1 mth are a lot longer than I thot for the turtles… I thot it will be shorter… Maybe realli tis time is to sae goodbye for everyone…. More than I hope tis is never goin to happen, but I knw it myself, its time for the turtles…. To end this wonderful journeys wif all the memories in them…

Maybe we will meet some other daes… But I am sure we will… Hwever, we will nt meet tat soon again everyone… Lets hope tat all of us will return in dec 07 for the y camp and may all of us see each other and get together again…

Nw… Back to my life….

Todae, I am havin a late mornin… I tink for quite a long time, I haf nt been wakin up late, and tats why I felt so restless… Hwever, I realli enjoy tis particular dae…. Its nice, and coolin… and I get to relax while I do my own stuff…

Ard noon… as promised to hunk, I finished his report…. Its a one page report tat he needed, so shldn’t be much problem for someone who cld wrote 20 pages of report… For his project, its easy to do the report, as I juz needed to summarise wat is the main point of his project…

The rest of the daes are juz spent by surfin the internet and watchin TV… I tink evey nite, when I returned home, I did tat… every wkends afternoon, I also do tat… So watchin TV for the past 20 yrs has been a habit more than some actions alreadi…

Maybe tats the onli thing I can do at home other than surfi the net… Hm… I dun haf cable TV, neither haf I got a Xbox… so my entertainment at home is nt realli tat high… plus, i dun haf a PSP, MP3 or a cd player… It makes my life even borin… haiz…

Near evenin time, I went out to meet my friend, ZL… Bth of us haf nt seen each other for 2 wks, i tink…hwever, tats nt uncommon… He’s nw concentratin on his network marketin business, while I am concentratin on NS and YMCA activities, therefore, busy as we are, we realli dun get to see each other nwadaes…

Maybe if I stayed in network marketin business, I wld haf been busier than ZL… I tink as ur network grows bigger, there will be mani stuff u need to do, u need to maintain, u need to learn and do… Therefore, I am nt realli suitable in tis line even after stayin in and out for 2 yrs….

Gettin together, bth of us haf a chit chat session for hrs… I dun realli rmb wat is the time, but it sure is fast… it does passes fast… Anywae, at nite, I also met one of my junior, DG and JL… they are one of my best disciples in my CCA in sec… I tink they are also nw… Moreover, hw its so conincidence tat they bth are workin in my ex compani nw… haha…

I tink if nt for gordan, nt mani ppl knw tat I work in my ex compani… A pure advertisement… Gordan is someone who I brought into the trade of network marketin… while me and one of my upline and bro, SY aka Ace left the compani, he stayed on, strive on and nw he is one rich man, earnin 6 figures per mth and also haf his own car… kool….

The first thing DG see me after askin hw am I, was why I left the compani… I den told him abt the reasons which decided my leavin… Hwever, I juz felt tat as u stayed on in network marketin trade, u tends to feel the pressure in there… tats probabli the main reason I left…

Anywae, the 4 of us stayed on chat on network marketin stuff for ard 2 hrs… I tink the exchange of pointers are impt as u learn more things frm others and in tis wae, u can appli some onto ur own… Its definetly impt to learn wif a humble mindset…

Before leavin, I thot of askin hw is DG’s elder sis, Samantha nw?? Afterall, she is someone whom I haf feelins for in the past… and even if I am nt her bf nw, I still wans her to haf happiness and stay fortunate… Hwever, the thot of her stop me frm askin… Dun get me wrong, but I juz dun wan to tink too much, tats why I never ask anything…

Maybe, I will ask some other daes when I see DG on msn… but definetly, nt todae… haha… do realli miss samantha in some waes after all, I had some nice memories of her in my mind… but its alreadi over for quite a long time… haha… ai yah… nt need to tink tat much… it will nt change anything also…

At home, saw AJ wif her nick… haha… she sure is funnie lol… since I haf nt tok to her for quite some time, I decided to chat wif her… Haiz… she misses a lot of ppl…. tat also need me realised tat actualli they are a lot of ppl tat I also misses… Dunno hw are them alreadi???

I will definetly meet them sometime at somewhere… Singapore is nt tat small, but we will see each other somehw…. 

Saturdae, 18 August 2007.

In the past, durin my sec sch time. I joined Community Service Club as my CCA… As a VP, I did mani projects for the club… My skills of volunteerin, I can onli describe it as level 4… Haha… At tat time, I got in touch wif children care, elderly care and also vegetation and environement… CSC in my sec sch is a buildin foundation to my career in volunteerin… Even as a volunteer leader, I may nt be the best one in the club, I did had too much mistake… but to me, I did regret wat I did, so I wanted to make a new change for myself…

5 yrs of steppin stone in sec sch brins me all the foundation tat I need… Project plannin were somethin tat I never thot of it… Neither is it workin wif ppl… Confidence rose high to a pt… I had my low… but its time when thins didn’t go well… To say, tat 5 yrs built up my personality as a volunteer leader…

ITE were my next stage… Interact Club was the CCA tat brought me to a golden age… If CSC is my sec sch’s golden age in them, Interact Club is another one… One after the other… A team standin wif me, workin along side me, givin me all the support we need for one another…

I am definetly had much to learn frm bein a leader… Never the best, but nt to an extend of bein worse… I may be ambitious enugh as promises were given to leaders of the past… I stressed myself to reached a higher level…

I knw tat if you had to go on for a long journey, you will need to brin urself to go forward and rest at times… U had to learn, do and share… Tats why my leadership skill as a leader improve slowli at a time… I knw tat I fail mani, but I thot it was the benefit for the club… Wif tat in mind, I never gave up…

Interact Club brought me more wif elderly care for the 1st yr… 2nd yr… Other than the usual elderly care, I got in touch wif a group of friends… They haf somethin which we dun, they are the intellectualli disabilities…

They are unqiue in their own waes… Coz communication wif them, u will need to understand wat they r thinkin before u knw hw to tok to them… Techniques are an impt thing, coz u will nt wan to hurt them in the process…

If I will to rate myself… Interact Club pushed me to a new height… I probabli gif myself a level 7… Hwever, workin wif the IDs, I am nt realli givin me a gd time… probabli I still felt some distant between them… Tis changed a lot in 2006…

2006 Dec’s Y camp were the turnin pt for me when workin wif the IDs… I began to get into situations faster than I was… All the more, I work wif them more naturalli than I did in the past…. I tink probabli, the changes were for me to keep on goin…

Its nt easy to stay in volunteerin line… To be a good volunteer, u need to keep on goin for wks to wks… After restin for almost 1/2 a mth after the 2006 Y camp… I suddenli felt tat I had lost my skill to somewhere… Haha…

2007 June… I returned back to the heart of Y camp… I told myself, goin back I had to fulfill objectives set for myself… I nw want to challenge myself to a better stage in my volunteerin career… Givin the results in the 2007 Jun’s Y camp… I rate myself a 8… I knw tat nw, I got a big decision to make sooner or later…

After spendin abt 1 mth on outings wif my 2007 Jun’s camp mate… Its time to make tat big decision… In the past, its either I am lazy, or I will feel too tired to even join in outings or acitivies… Other than Y camp… Nth else…

Aug 2007 came… A new stage in my volunteerin career began… I became a full time volunteer in YMCA… compared to my part time… I tink I can do more in outings and activities rather than onli joinin Y camp onli….

Last saturdae, its my 1st… Todae I went back and continued my journey…

7.40am… I reached the door of YMCA… Nw, am I gettin somethin wrong or wat… I was in no man’s grp… Haiz… Quite disappointed by wat yew chong did… If he told me tat I am nt needed, den its ok… Rather than he sae tat, he told me to come… In the end, I had no specific grp to follow… Haiz…

Nt to get disappointed wif all those unnecessary incidents, I followed one of my volunteer friend whom I knw frm the last outin at the readin club… He helped me alot… Help me to find myself fit in… Hwever, I knw cannt be dependant, coz I wanted to start tis new volunteerin journey wifout anyone I knw… Tats why I slowli separated myself frm tis friend of mine…

After settlin the name tag and also the shirt… I bought on a bus and thot why nt join some other grp… Tis grp is nt the usual Minds which I worked wif before, neither are they the APSN grp which I worked wif last wk… However, they are frm SAMH… A new grp I neevr work before wif… So its more of like a new challenge to me…

A grp of familiar faces I saw at there… Frm Chong Ming (his last outing wif YMCA le…), Hui Jing, Huiting, Anna and even Huda frm Turtles… Even last wk, my new known volunteer friend also were there to help out…

Ok… Todae’s activities is a walk on the NDP platform… 1 km… President Nathan was there to lead the walk… Which it started ard 9 plus am… My beneficiaries were quite active… he is also someone who can tok to him abt any stuff…

I joined the SAMH grp and paired up wif another volunteer…. For tis volunteer, he’s in his 30s… However, i am sure nt surprised to see someone in 30s doin volunteerin work… Its onli in YMCA outings, activities and camps, you will see all kind of volunteers… Tats why I left Interact Club’s advisor role after I retired frm my VP role in 2006. My advisor role was given to me after my retirement and in 2007, I left the club…

Anywae, tats nt impt due to the fact is tat I am nw under YMCA…. anywae… the whole walk, my beneficiaries went on and on… he can walk and walk on his own… He’s definetly independent… Doesn’t seem to need me nor my partner…

Haha… Hui Jing and my volunteer friend, Yi Liang kept on walkin behind me… I was like, well… they chit chat here and there…. Haha… Joke ard lol… Anywae, Yi Liang had been funnie all the while…

The whole walk was realli cramp… At some pt of time, u will nt be able to find space to walk… At times u need to squeeze here n there… Therefore, the whole walk was a big one… wif different organisations, u can see different beneficiaries at there…

The whole walk ended at 10 plus pm… All beneficiaries were quite happie after this walk… Goodie bags were given to them… Hm… I tink, becoz of traffic jam, their bus reached the place quite late… In the end, rain were pourin dwn heavili… Kool… Well… its nt realli tat I did nt expect the rain to happen at 10 plus am… as its due to the effect of cloud seedin…

After the beneficiaries left… the rain were also slowli gettin lesser and lesser… The volunteer leaders had debrief… As its approachin lunchtime, most of us decide to went back to YMCA by cab….

Reachin pauline’s office the 2nd time, I helped carry stuff back to there… After tat, Hui Jing, Yi Liang, Pauline, 2 other volunteers wif me decided to went for lunch… Initialli, Pauline suggested tat why nt eat QQ noodles at Park Mall… hwever as suggestions were given, pauline changes her mind ard and ard until at last to KFC… but I say its a big difference btween QQ noodles and KFC… so all of us went to eat QQ noodles…

Before I left her office, I told pauline tat I will volunteer thru her frm enxt mth onwards since after todae’s incident in the mornin… I tink its easier… Nw… Pauline’s readin club is my permanent, muz go outing….

At lunch time, Pauline were laughin like craze lol… Juz some words bein said and she could like and laugh… I was totalli stunned… Juz as Yi Liang sae, onli eileen frm YMCA can laugh wif her like tat…

For my QQ noodles, I ate the noodles addin char sew and egg… Quite nice and its affordable, costin onli $3.50… Its also delicious, so guys u shld go and try it… Its at Park Mall…

After biddin gdbye to the rest of them, I returned back home and rests… Too tired… Anywae, my Y outings for tis mth ended todae… Next wk, its fulli book at sentosa, so cannt go… Haiz… Or else, I wld haf completed one mth of acitivities and outings for YMCA….

Oh ya… Hui Jing and Yi Liang left earli to reckee for MIND’s outing… Back at home, seein Ah Li at home, as she went wif the 2 of them to reckee, I thot why nt ask her whether still can join… But she told me to contact Eileen… Haha… Ah Li said the name lists are out alreadi!!! I was wonderin… The newsletter are nt out yet, and they had the name lists out… Hw unfair lol…. If there are other ppl who onli knw the acitivities onli after seein the newsletter, den does it mean they cannt join alreadi???

Anywae, for the sept 01’s MIND’s outin, I e-mailed Eileen abt it alreadi… Hope she can gif me an answer soon… Well… 2nd wk saturdae will be Pauline’s readin club… Nw onli left to see wat’s for 3rd, 4th and 5th wk of sept’s sat will be the acitivities for me to join in…

Kk… guys… volunteerin will onli be fun when it comes rite out frm ur heart… Rmb tat…   

Friday, 17 August 2007.

After a AVI dae yesterdae, todae returning bakc to camp gifs me strange feelins… I dun realli knw why??? Hwever I told myself to stay focused and stay positivie… Rite nw,e verything in my life is goin on the rite wae…

I think I am realli lucki… To haf good bros, good elder n younger god sis and to haf a nice family and great friends… I tink even money cannt buy you all these happiness… Juz like wat my elder god sis, Serene said to me in the past… The defination of Happiness to to have good friends, family beside you…

I tink in the past durin sec sch time, I may nt agree wif her…. Hwever, after goin for the philosophy of success course in earli 2006, I tink I had improve the relationship wif my parents and my younger sis… Recently, I also changed my relationship wif friends ard me… I tink I haf nt failed much of them except someone in mind…

All and all, I realli felt fortunate nw… Probabli, I may nt be tat happie and fortunate in the past… I always say Heaven is totally unfair to me… I always blame ppl ard me… But I realised… If u never caused all these to happen, it will nt happen…

Tats why I am realli fortunate wif the ppl ard me, wif the incidents and situations in my life as I always haf tis dog shit luck… Most of all, I haf learned hw to stay positive….

Comin back to NS… todae is veri slck… Nth in much to do realli… As a matter of fact, the whole mornin is juz some chit chat sessions in the 35 Canteen… I tink my NS mate and me haf gt a long time nt sittin dwn together like tis to tok…

At the 35 canteen, I saw a veri old show… Its in 1996, I tink… Yue Jing Jin Shen by Fann Wong and Xie Shao Guang… I tink I realli pei fu wif xie shao guang’s acting… He is realli a good actor and he acts naturalli…. I tink there is nt any of my friends do knw tat I am someone who likes to act in drama shows… Haha… basicalli, tis is one of my hidden talents…

Anywae… ORD personals returned back to seletar camp… Frm our side, Andrew a guy frm our side ORD todae… well… kool… Hm… he disrupted dunno which yr and came back to serve in May… Todae, he has finalli ORD… Haha… Tink of it, there is still 2 person in my side to go, before I can realli shout ORD…. although nw my 2 hand can count the no. of mths alreadi…

In afternoon, our veri own CSM told my NS mates and me to help him put up some banners and posters… In the end, when we finished wif those jobs, we got to set up tables and chairs… Haiz…. Well, it looks like the Officers are havin a dinner at seletar camp tonite… Tink again… its the man who had done all the job at NDP, and instead my guys and me got onli 2 daes off plus the other 2 daes pay back after doin so mani sai kang, while the officers juz sat dwn there and eat dinner for celebrations… Its seriousli nt fair… But wat to do???

Oh yar… since I haf committed myself to Y outings and activities, I decided to nt include myself in any duties on saturdae… Hwever, when has tat realli bothered me??? I always try and use my 1st wk of the mth nwadaes to finish all my duties… Lets hope next mth, I get some better duty dates…

Back to seletar camp… Nw did I sae abt the dinner for the officers tonite… My NS mates and me finished all the job at ard 3 plus pm… I gotta sae I got out of sort when helpin out wif the job… Shouldn’t be like tat… But I gotta admit, I haf nt been tat focus juz nw…

Hm… for tonite’s fireworks, I decided nt to go… Most of my NS mates are nt goin… So thot, maybe I am nt goin alreadi since I gt 2 tickets… I dun realli knw who to find, or who to gif… In the end, they share the tickets among those who are goin… I tink for tmr’s one, if hunk, Shu Wei never sae anything in the afternoon, den after my Y activities, I will probabli go home and rest…

My Ns mates and me, those who are bai bai for the seven mth, we left the camp and went to serangoon’s sheng song to buy those stuff needed… After returnin, we set up everything and started everything… Juz some things we forgotten and after added it in, everything went on fine for all of us… We finished everything ard 5 plus pm… Its nt realli we are doin it becoz we had to… but I tink as the main reason has been stated, its to gif all of us a peace of mind…

Did I sae I haf been restless for the past few daes and my stomach felt pain… Tis mornin, when I woke up, its the same feelin… Dunno why??? Its realli a sharp pain lol… and the thing is when I am in such state feelin so tired, I frm mornin to nite haf alreadi eaten 5 meals a dae… Hw shockin can tat be!!!

Maybe shouldn’t tink too much, but eatin 5 meals in one dae is like a shockin matters… I dun realli knw hw come I am eatin tat much for, coz unless u knw wat u r doin, or else, u r juz like a lost lamb, dun realli knw wat u r doin…

Sleepy as usual… Tmr goin for Y activities… Slp well lol….

Thursday, 16 August 2007.

My stomach is feelin a sharp pain. OUCH!… tis morning, I didn’t get the best of my health… Hm… is it tat I haf nt clear my bowels??? Haiz… But after clearin it, I am still restless and tired leh… Why arh???

Reached camp todae quite earli… 7.15am… Tis morning, there is no parade, no life run nor there is any impt things happenin in camp. Juz tat I have to reach there earli to meet up wif one of my NS mate for AVI… Annual Vehicle Inspection which we haf to do monthly…

The morning, my NS mate and me meet up at the 7 ton carpark… There we haf wif us are the documents ready to go to nee soon camp for the inspection… There the drivers are there too… and bth me and my NS mates thot we can go out alreadi….. If we leave earli, we can finish earli mah…

Haiz… hw I knw tat the 7 ton haf to leave much earlier than we thot… No choice den, we had to leave seletar camp later… My NS mate and me den went back to our office and sleep… 9.30am…. we went back to the carpark…

RAIN… RAIN… raining… the weather which neither my ns mate nor me expected it to happen… Wifout wastin too much time, we juz had to drove out and leave as rain pours over the tonner… Meanwhile, on expressway, its coolin and seein rain pourin dwn… It brins back a lot of thot of my past…

Reachin Nee Soon Camp… since we left late… We had to postpone the morning schedule to next wk… Ai yah… if we knw we can leave at 7.30am, den bth my ns mate and me will nt waste tat schedule and we could haf finish 4 7 tonners todae… Nw it seems like we can onli finnish 2… Ai yoh yoh…

Since the next 2 timeslot are in the afternoon, the drivers and the bth of us had to take the safety rover back to seletar camp… Its bored to be back durin lunch time… Other than lunch at cookhouse, I played some Xbox game at the soldiers mess… I am simpli bored the whole dae… Makes me feel sleepy….

Anywae, the rest of my NS mates are doin sai kang at show village… Therefore, todae its a nobody’s place at our office… Nobody… But its nt tat they willingli go dwn… Its becoz of our CSM, tats why they had to go dwn… We can onli described it as UNLUCKI…

The afternoon went faster for me… Finishin the AVi ard 2 plus pm… After keepin all the stuff and restin for some while, my NS mate drove me back to my hse… I finished all my ns stuff at an earli 3 plus pm… Great…. Another dae for me to rest…. Hm… basicalli, my other NS mate at the show village also had an earli fallout, but too bad, they are forced to clear the offs given to them… Hw cld the officers do tat??? Does it mean, its fair??? Well… too bad, life’s never fair to anyone…

Life’s never fair… Tats wat my younger god sister, rachel told me when I was veri depressed at some time before I had a positive life… I tink tat time, I was realli surprised by her words, coz she has nt tok to me for quite some time… Tats why I am realli grateful to haf her as my younger god sis, coz at elast, she still rmb me… Dunno abt my other god sis… But they are some of my elder god sis, younger god sis and bros still rmb me… I am realli grateful to them…

Back at home… same lifestyle… Its nt a big thing at all… But to haf a nice rest… IS MORE IMPT THAN OTHER STUFF NWADAES… Maybe, I am realli too weak nw… Weak but in wat sense??? Nt sick, Nt ill, den hw come I feel so restless wif no energies at all???

Anywae, hunk, shu wei is findin ppl to watch fireworks on staurdae… Oh ya… Fridae I will be watchin the fireworks… Saturdae too… Kool… 2 daes of fireworks for me… YEAH!!! Especialli when I saw my another god sis, enard… she’s like wantin to see the fireworks… I told her… U shld realli find someone to wtach wif u….

Haha… miss tis girl… The last time we met, its at my friend, apple’s birthdae parti… It juz happen the last mth mah… At tat time, she pinched me lol… Sobz… She gets angry over some comments I sae… Haiz… I am juz jokin bah le…. Take it easy… When I am nt doin serious stuff, the words tat I sae never meant anything one… Hwever, if I am facin my work, my interests or someone whom I loved deepli, I will mean wat I sae….

But too bad… Its nt always becomes truth to wat u haf been wishin for…

Oh ya… as promised, hunk’s report will be finished on sundae as promised, since I am watchin fireworks on saturdae… I was initialli confused by his report becoz my thinkin was to gif him a business style of report like wat I usualli does for my ite project of the past… But since his is a summary one… Den i onli cld do a summarise style of report… Haha…

Tmr tink got go out and buy the seven mth’s bai bai stuff to be put outside the office in NS… All of us in our NS side felt tat to haf a peace of mind, we decide to bai tmr… Nt realli tat we do bai the god, but we do it to haf some peace for the office and all the guys…

Slow steps at a time, brings a lot of energy to further urself in the whole journey… 

Wednesday, 15 August 2007.

Maybe I was realli too shag last nite…My energy level hit to a newest low pt for my usage… Its irritatin for me to tri and open my eyes… ARGH… dun like tis kind of blurry blurry feelin…

Nw, did I sae I am too tired… I dunno wat happen to my body recently… After sundae, my whole body became too weak for me to do any major activities… Felt like veri sick, but yet, I am nt fallin sick yet??? Does it mean, I am havin a serious illness veri veri soon???

Maybe… but for me, I had too much things to do… Avoidin fallin sick is the best tat I can tink of… Currently for me, I am hopin to get more rest which I cld, but too bad… Mon to Fri, I will be in NS… and particularly frm Aug to Nov, dun tink there will be rest so easili, coz stocktake for my store is comin… and 2 major one sia…

Haiz… let these few mths quickly passed bah… I am gettin tired and tired… Haha… realli wan to slp for daes sia… Hm… if I slp le and den dun wake up…. Choy!!! touch wood… Seven Mth nw, cannt anyhw sae…

Anywae speakin of mon to fri is for me in NS… at wkdaes nite, TV is the best relaxation for me… there will be nt much nite events in wkdaes… Saturdae’s for YMCA’s outings and activities… den at nite… if I am nt outside, I will be at home again… Sundae… for me, I am sincerly hopin for a nice nice rest…

But tats if I dun go out at all for these few mths… Maybe I can… since I am nt goin for much of the turtles outin… Even my other friends, when they ask me to go out, I reject them quite a few times… I do need some rest… Haiz…

Nw… wat abt me tis time round??? I feel tat all the things tat I told myself to improve on definetly goes to waste… In the last series, I told u guys tat a man shld haf this 3 qualities : BOLD, HONOUR and MAGNIMOUS… hwever, I feel tat in recent times whether I am at my NS side, or whether its at outside getherin wif my friends or turtles, I am somehw deprovin bit by bit…

To me, promises are hard for me to fulfill nwadaes… Especialli I failed someone recently… Tat incidents hit me back awhile… I knw nw tat I haf to keep on positive… Therefore, I am goin to hit forward again… I am goin to tri and bi men si guo… and hopin I can get some improvements in my characteristic…

Before I went back to my NS camp… I was tinkin abt my nov’s birthdae chalet… woo hoo, gettin veri veri excited abt it… My mind started to tink frm wat will be my room number since I book it alreadi but wifout tellin me the room’s no… to the ppl I am invitin to the food and drinks tat I am orderin… Veri veri excited… To tell u the truth… The room no, I can call them in late sept to ask for it… The food n drinks quantity can onli be decided after i confirm who is comin… So tat leaves me wif who’s comin… Hm… I will send invitations thru e-mails, friendster, hp and msn messenger… 4 medias… However, I am probabli expectin less than 50 ppl to come… or even lesser… haha…

All tat will be known when I sent out the invitations on Oct 01 2007…. 

At camp… Same old tings.. However todae need to loan out some stores for the Army Open House frm my store…I also unleashes the newest version of tifor jacks… a equipment for the boats… I tink… hm… haha… dun realli knw wat its use for… But tis new tifor jacks are 5 tons and its more heavier than my current 1.5 ton and 3 ton tifor jack…

Anywae… the thing abt tat tifor jack is tat its heavier and there is light comin out??? Nah… nt realli my problem… Lets see… my store do need to condemn mani equipments… Currently stores frm my side tat came back frm NDP are out unusable and I am thinkin to condemn it…

I seriousli believe there will be more stores for me to condemn it… Well… the gedong store side finalli took awae all their generators… but their stores are nt taken back… Hw am I goin to stocktake by my own before the 2 major stocktake sia??? Haiz… Its never easy to handle stores alone and I am doin tat for mths alreadi… Sia lar…

After lunch, I went to NUH for MRI Scan on my back… My rite knee’s injured durin PTP times, tats why I am out of course… I always thot tat medical appointmment will last forever coz I will be able to stay at my current camp… However my BMT recourse ffi is back next thursdae… and wat can be worse??? If my MRI Scan shows nth… tats the end for me… I will nt haf any medical appoinments… haiz…

Dude… Rmb… Stay positive can onli help u get on wif ur life more easier… If u stay in a depress mood, you will nt tink out of the box calmly and if u cld nt tink calmly, u tense to stress… Once u stress, u will find urself dead in a situation wifout solutions… Hm… so, why nt juz find solutions???

Good grief, I am able to tink calmli for almost a mth alreadi… Lets hope I dun get tense and fuss out wifout reason like wat I did in the past… Positive… Stay positive… need to concentrate and focus…

Let’s get on wif life… I haf, Haf u??? 

Tuesday, 14 August 2007

Everything just ended with my eyes blinked at an instant. Hi folks, todae one of my good friends, Ms MX has finalli left Singapore and she is now on her wae to UK, Manchester for her further studies…

Welcome to todae’s episode of A New Life… Eventualli, I haf nt realli tok abt ppl goin overseas in each of the series in my blog… Todae shall be the first… Anywae, my original thot was tat Ms MX will be leavin on 15 August, therefore, didn’t prepared anything to gif to her… Haiz… Till juz nw den I realised, oh dear… she’s realli board her plane….

~~~ Bon Voyage, MX… Thanx for all the lovely and wonderful moments you brought to all of us… Thanx for all those times when I needed someone to tok to, to hear my thots… U r the one there… Thanx…. We will still see each other online and definetly I will miss u… ~~~

Todae at my NS side, was quite fine… Finishin the Army Open House, where we loan out stores to them… Hm… Tink of it, before lunch… another section, the Ops Storage took too long to sort of their generators to be brought back to them… Therefore lunch time was pushed back awhile…

Meanwhile, after waiting and waiting… My NS mates and me finalli waited for the Boat Coy to open their gate for us to loan out the Assualt Boats… To tink they said they will open at 1.30pm, we waited till 2pm… Haiz… After carryin the boats and put on the trailers, we had an earli fallout…. Hm… thanks to my boss who was kind enugh to gif us 2 daes of earli fallout, my NS mates and me are able to went home earli to rest…

At home, I was totalli shag… Even thou my eyes was on my com and the TV, my mind was too tired to concentrate… My eyes keeps on closin…. ARGH…. irritatatin… I decided to go for a nap….

When my eyes opened again… OMG… its almost 6.30pm… Oh gosh… Tis time I am sure to be late, since the Turtles are all meetin at 7.30pm… I den took bus 27, and a train from tampines to reach Changi Airport… Okay… The whole journey, I was tinkin and tinkin… I wonder maybe tis will be the last time seein MX le….

I reached the airport ard 7.41pm… My bro, Terence reached the place ard 7.35pm… Ai yah… thot tat they alreadi sae do not be late… In the end, I thot I am onli the one late, how I knw all are late also… Haiz… Anywae, Ian, CK and Shu Wei realli had a nice thot for MX, they brought gifts for her… Hw nice…

Supposingli, I thot I was the lastest… Hw wld I knw there is one person later than all the Turtles… our Ms AJ came the lastest… and to speak the truth… When I was about to leave my hse, I still see her online… If she’s tat late, I am seriousli nt surprised bah… Well well… our Ms AJ todae put dwn her snow white appearance, and she went on to become hunk’s slave???? Wow… when did she even want to do tat???

Ok… The turtles are sayin tat I will be naggin ard and ard in my blog… Hahaha… Did I??? Anywae… Todae Ms AJ finalli treated all of us… Nah…. some of us…. hahaha… Guys, since Ms AJ is so nice to me, I dun wan to sae bad things abt her lol…. Got touched or nt, AJ??? Well… she did wanted to treat lar… but my health todae is nt realli tat good, as my stomach feels strange especialli after returnin frm NS… so, I had to reject her goodwill… NVM… Ms AJ, I will definetly find u to treat me some other daes… *Hintin*

Nw… did I sae abt AJ todae skipped her usual Snow White dresses and became slave of hunk… She wear a branded clothin and jeans… Thou, its branded and in pink… but Ian made fun of her sayin tat she needs some cover as her clothes is torn… OMG… I had to sae… Ian is totally lame todae… but his lame jokes are good doses to made all of us keep on laughin… Counted as a great job done??? Tis will haf to be judged by the Turtles…

Anywae, we met MX ard 8 plus pm… I tink bah… She was like sittin there so lonely lol when we first saw her… The time realli passes very fast… Frm dinner, to dessert, den finalli biddin goodbye…. Everything happen in juz a blink… Never thot those times will come when everything will end… I always say : “Good times will come to an end.” Finalli todae, this realli happens to me…. My good friend, MX has finalli left Singapore and is now on her wae to UK….

Hm… When we are abt to left, her friend came ot join her… Tink subsequently, MX’s friends also came and accompani her… Ning was nt there wif all the turtles todae… Hwever, she still made a phone call to bid goodbye to MX… kool… Even when one person is nt ard, the turtles are still together as one team…

I however, after leavin the place was in total shagness… On the bus journey, I fall alseep immediately… A pt to note : Ms AJ didn’t accompani me back on the same bus lol… Haha… if she see tis, she will be du lan wif me… Nt tat her Ian’s pic can scare ghost awae lar… but her lane back to her hse will be so sacry if she took bus 27… I understand one… So dun worrie… snow white… and dun du lan me lor….

Haha… After I reached home… I can onli described myself as dead tired… Never felt tis wae before… In my mind, I probabli juz wanted to sleep… But I knw I realli miss MX alot, I knw hw my heart tinks one… Will realli realli miss her….

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Goodness Gracious, hw am I surprised to find her tokin to me on August 15 2007 at 1 am??? I thot tat time MX will haf boarded the plane and is on her wae to UK… but surprised, she’s in the departure lounge tokin to me….

Our conversation is nt realli long… coz I am too tired to keep on tokin and tokin… But for todae, MX is happie tat the Turtles are there to see her… I tink beside her is her family who will be accompaning her for 1 week…

We ended our chat till 1.20pm… She should be boardin her plane rite nw… Bon Voyage, MX… Take care and see you online in UK… Cya…  

Monday, 13 August 2007

A blurry morning which I woke up todae wif… My eyes had some tears flowing out… Hm…. Wonderin wat I had been dreamin thou… Anywae, I normalli dun rmb wat realli happen in my dream… hahaha… Need a dream catcher…

Woke up as usual… Dressin up and stylin my hair after my breakfast normalli takes me ard 30 mins… Woah… I was wonderin… If I do nt do it faster the next time, I will definetly be late on one dae for sure… NS is nt a place where u wan to go there wat time, u go there wat time, unless u return frm duty or u have permission… haiz…

The whole dae was quite ok… Becoz of stayin till so late till 7pm on fridae, I decided to ask for earli fallout to my boss… Thou nt askin for me… At the first thot, why nt ask for 3 others who are worthy to get the earli fallout wif me, coz they haf been helpin me too much alreadi in my life at seletar camp…

However, one of my NS mates told me to ask for everyone… The reason behind it was a dark reason… Conflicts makes everything worse… When u do nt admit ur mistake, u create problems for others… I seriousli do nt agree wif those who wanted to do these… However, sometimes, for the sake of others and I do nt wish to see punishments came out becoz of those problems… I gave in and ask for eveyone…

My boss was quite kind enugh… After all, most of us came back on fridae when we shld be on off… He galdli agree to gif us off todae and tmr too… I was so happie… and definetly was thankful… phew… Can go home rest earli after tirin myself for the past few daes…

Seriousli, I am feelin a little bit sick, like I told Ms MX a few daes ago… at times my body temperature will rose quite high… Tats why I had to perserve on… Makin sure I dun fall sick unnecessarily…

Anywae, after the boat coy brought back OBM… OBM stands for outbound motor… Its fix on an assualt boat… a boat which is heavy… Arhz… the boat coy… reminds me of my bro, Terence… He was also frm the same camp wif me… but nw he’s in Uni… haha…

After lunch, waited for my store to return… Everything ended at ard 3pm… Kool finalli after fo so long, I can earli fallout leagalli wif permission… Haha… Gald tat I ask for permission… or else, hw can my NS mates and me continue tis kind of life in army wifout much rests… I dun tink anyone can keep on workin wifout any rest lor…

Reachin home… I did my usual stuff online… Hm… well, actualli dun tink there is any meanin in puttin tat she’s online at here… I mean for wat lor… But was glad tat she’s nt tat angry like she was last saturdae… Tats fine… as long as she dun get piss off wif me again… Anything is fine wif me… Even if I had to become an invisible friend to her….

Enugh tokin abt her… Here comes the unlucki part… I was called back to camp at 5 plus pm… Hw do we knw tat the NDP’s flamingo… A large boat trailer was returning to my side’s hangar??? Its bein washed in the mornin and all my NS mates and me did nt even knw tat its comin back lol… haha…

I immediately put my msn messenger status to awae… Den rushed all the wae dwn to seletar camp… Nt tat I am the Flash who cld come and go like a wind… But thanks to one of my NS mates who came back frm his place and on his wae, he drove me to the camp… Thanx dude…

Returnin to the place, I realli ran all the wae frm the gate to my office… After the flamingo was returned… Its nearli 7pm lor… haha… The thing is tat I had taken a bath when I returned home and after returnin home again… I went bathin again… ALAMAK…

Back at my hse, I was surprised to find my younger god sis, Rachel speakin to me online… however dunno wat time she sent me tat msg… I returned home and replied her… but tink she went offline after checkin her status… Haiz… so long never tok to her alreadi… Haiz… When can I haf a chat wif her again??? Rachel arh Rachel…haha… She’s a nice girl if I didn’t forget…

Oh yah… before I forgot… A long time friend whom I haf nt seen for a while, Samantha… Oh manz… She forgotten whom I was… haha… I sent a forwarded msg to her which was forwarded to me by hunk, Shu Wei… Ok…. she realli forgotten who I was… Hw sad… I tink will haf to find her sometime later n tok to her to let her memory come back… hahah  

The nite todae was all abt Campus Superstar… I tink tonite’s last semi final will determine who are the 2 to proceed to the final… Well, to me, I saw their performances improved alot in the last semis… haha….. regardless who is in the finals, I tink they had given their best tonite… Although i hope my fav. contestant, Elaine is in the final lol…

Todae shld be abt it… Tmr there will be a dinner for Ms MX at airport at 8pm… Adventures will arise tmr… Hopefulli… Of course, todae is the start of the lunar calendar’s 7 mth… Qi Yue aka Ghost festival… Guys and Girls out there… Its nt advisble seriousli to go out late for tis mth…. Take care sia…

Sunday, 12 August 2007

The first part of today’s episode was to apologise to her for my wrong doings… Now, let me brin u todae’s outings… I have to confess sth, today, its nt tat I wanted to be like tat, but its juz another side of myself todae…

Before I start, I got to sae sorrie to the turtles. Todae, I shown all of you the other side of myself… My other self was not realli someone who likes to sit down and hear ppl tok so much… I may be a open up to ppl kind… But I am also someone who can keep myself out of others…

Todae unfortunately, I shown you all the different side of myself… I was like out of place as a fact tat I realli didn’t knw wat I am thinkin either… Maybe todae, I realli juz wanted to walk here and there, spent time on myself… Tats why when the turtles walk here and there, I did nt follow much…

Sorrie guys… I knw tat I shouldn’t be like tat, but I am juz tryin to make myself invisible… I tink I did it all wrong… Perhaps, you all may nt see me anymore… But I haf to sae again… Sorrie…

At the start, I reached the place a few minutes before the movie started… Well… at the least thot tat I may meet them outside… So thot, maybe should nt even meet them tat earli… Tat was when i saw the AXS machine and went to try and book the birthdae chalet… Vola… after bookin for the 2nd time… Its confirm tat it will be frm Nov 02 to Nov 4… Yeah… N the most happie thing is when I saw the e-mail confirmation… Phew… thankfulli, my money isn’t gone to waste….

Upon reachin the place, I was juz wantin to get into the cinema and watch the movie… To sae the fact, I told myself… if she’s goin to be angry… there’s nth I can do abt it… As long as I make myself invisible and not irritate her further… Things shld work out fine… So at the start when walkin into Cineleisure wif hunk, Shu wei and Ms. AJ. I told myself to do wat my other self will do….

Watchin the movie… Its flashpoint… Too bad… I only liked the action part…The story line is veri veri weak… Flashpoint is good if u like action part wise… But to realli like its story, you will haf to get a better movie to watch sia…

After the movie… The turtles went on to take neoprints… I didn’t join them due to the fact tat in 2005, I had neoprints taken at there wif someone I loved in the past tat time… But after we all gone apart… I never wanted to went back again… So thot of nt goin wif the rest of them… I went to HMV instead…

Feelin abit hungri… I thot why nt go back to cineleisure for some bite… I den went to BK to haf a meal… After tat, I went back to HMV again, thinkin tat they may nt finish tat earli, I walk ard the place…. Hey… the MayDay’s new song appeared… I liked the tune and the lyrics… so sing along…

After they had finished, Shu Wei and Da niao came back to find me… When the turtles gathered again, we went back to cineleisure again… So, I had been in and out of cineleisure 6 times todae… haha… The rest of them went to grab some bite to eat… Feelin tat I am nt suitable to be at there, I thot of finsihin my drinks immediately and went up to arcade to play…

But I knew i didn’t haf to spent my money this wae… I felt guilty to do tis… Shld nt even spent the money like tat even if I did nt join them… But tink again, if I am nt there, den where shld I go??? After they finished their food and walk ard the place for a while, I rejoined them and all 7 of us went to Farer Park to find Ian…

Hm… I tink I disappoint them too much… In a wae, this is a problem which shld nt surface… But I had to make myself invisible to make her less angry… However thinkin tat my sacrifice could let the rest of them enjoy their time together well, I thot why nt….

Findin Ian at his Singtel promotion store… The 8 of us went to a nearby coffee shop to rest and chat… Not sittin together thou… We juz sat seperately… Anywae… on the wae to the coffee shop… Terence told me if he knew tat I had be like tat todae, I might as well not come… However, I didn’t wan to explain much… But sorrie dude, tis is a side which you all never see before… Its juz tat I wanted to keep mum and nt tok tat much… But well… I shouldn’t even do tat… I was wrong…

After chattin till 7pm… Ian left and went back to his store… The rest of us went on to Mac Donald to continue chattin… anywae, while sittin together, I realised tat I am out of the space… It seems like wat the rest sae, I couldn’t sae much nor tok abt… Nt realli into the topic they are sayin coz cannt fit in… Hm… Shu wei still at least tok for 2 to 3 lines, I tink…

I tink todae spent alot… Coz… Eat fast food for lunch and dinner… should nt even spent on arcade… n the thing is I booked my birthdae chalet… So… well, this mth had to save and save… haiz… Anywae, seriousli, I did nt fit into their topic much is becoz wat they sae are uni stuff… n its also becoz I knw tat I shouldn’t tok tat much…

Anywae before we left, we played number bomb… I got taste the penalty in the last round… Its a mixture of chilli, mayonise and something else, I tink… Yucks… it taste strange… Haha…

Well, the rest is nt much to mention… Coz we all left to return home ard 9 pm… Well… actualli, I thot why should I be doin all these??? I dun realli haf to… But I tink I did something rite after all… Anywae, Ms MX told me abt the tuesdae dinner… I will need to consider… hm… ponderin to go or nt… Maybe terence n da niao may nt wan me to go since I am nt in the rite attitude to join outings… Maybe I shld nt go… I dunno… Realli dunno…

This should be sth ended and a new beginning startin… Its time for some changes in life… I will juz haf to accept my life goin to be alone for a while….