A New Life - Episode 16
Saturday, 25 August 2007.
My new life didn’t exactly went the wae I wanted… Guess my dog shit luck went out on me alreadi…. For 2 daes, my life is droppin dwn, and no matter hw much I wanted to stay positive… I am gettin hard and hard to stay on tat wae…
I am realli nt cut out to be strong wif myself… Currently, I am neither positive nor negative, more like couldn’t find the meanin to my life… Guess I am finalli at my wits end…. I realli didn’t knw tat I can ran out of ideas finalli…
Looks like I am a bit stuck on tryin to lead my life to some objectives and perhaps makes it meaningful… Likely nw its nt even possible…. Gloom, somehw it is… Maybe the feelin is nt even rite… Its realli hard, isn’t it???
My mornin is somehw quite relax… Todae didn’t haf to go for Y outings or activities, so I am feelin quite fine wif the time I am spendin at home todae…. Woken up and found tat my left eye seems a little bit swollen… hm…. at afternoon, its alrite alreadi…. haha… realised tat I haf nt spend too much time alone on a saturdae mornin for quite long sia…. Glad tat todae it did…
After watchin animes till 4pm… I left my com and TV on while I went on a slpin session for 1 hr… I tink… Dun rmb wat happen anywae… Juz seems tat its totally quiet todae… The whole dae… Its juz quiet and peacefulness for me…. Haven’t been experiencin tat dunno since when…
I tink tis is juz some kind of feelin I wanted todae also… I needed tis peace to sort out all my feelin for a while… I guess my actions for the past few daes were like highs and lows…. Nt like the past, but its almost like it went the same wae and goin back soon…
I am realli afraid… Afraid tat once everythin went back to the past, I will lose everythin… Lose wat I wanted to change, wat Iwanted to improve and wat I haf been fightin and cherish… I guess I haf been someone who hasn’t been tat strong for a long time…
Guess everythin will become to a losin end for me… A dead end where I will nt be able to find the bright side of life anymore… Sorrie friend, looks like I was hit by somethin even dangerous and dropped deep to the space where u saved me frm the past…. Guessed tat drop makes me harder to climb up nw…
May it be an unfortunate series of events happenin again… I knw tat I haf to fight back tis time… If I continue to stay there n wait… Den there is no one I cld be waitin for tis time… Those mths of waitin is terrible… so is it even worth of waitin, I dun realli tink so….
Anywae, saw my junior,huiting, the current ITE Clementi Interact Club’s president… Haha… she went on news and its the report on the jalan bukit merah… the place had some bad explosions… I tink a few wks ago… and todae, they are givin out cooker, I tink… Anywae, i asked her abt the situations at there nw… Its quite fine for them… haha… glad to hear tat anywae….
Maybe I am someone sturborn…. Even frm the past till nw… but my judgement has never been wrong….. Even thou as I am nt a gd leader, but I am someone who is gd at trainin leader… blah…. still ok lar… Anywae, I haven’t change my opinion on huiting as a leader… frm den till nw, it remains the same… She needs a lot of trainin, thou she may haf the potential but she is nt ready to be a leader yet…
*** Special Report : Campus Superstar 2 Grand Final ***
Welcome to the special segment of the Campus Superstar 2’s Grand Final…
First up, on the female’s final battle between zheng ning and keely… Bth of them at the start sang fan wei chi’s wo men de ji nian ri… For me, i felt tat keely sang better than zheng ning in terms of vocal… while zheng ning seems like a lack of breath to me….
The 2nd part of the girls final is where zheng ning sang dance jolin’s wei wu du zun while keely sang and dance jolin’s mr Q…. As a truly jolin’s fan… Zhen ning definelty dance better than keely… However in terms of singin, keely did better…
Altogether, I felt tat bth had did their best… and bth realli improved a lot frm tis competition… Guess its nt easy to sae who will be the female champion… Hwever, singapore made their choice and keely won…
For the guys, the male final battle are between shawn and benjamin… The song they bth sang are JJ’s xi jie… In terms of vocal and strength, Benjamin did better and to the terms of stage performances, Benjamin definetly did better than shawn…
The 2nd part of dancing and singin… Shawn sang n dance Mayday’s zhong jie gu dang while Benjamin sang and dance Gary’s 3-7-21… I haf to sae great performances to bth contestants, but in terms of their strength in tis round, I haf to sae Benjamin did better than Shawn… Shawn seems too tensed up… Hwever, benjamin does haf slight weakness wif his vocal part where he shld focus on…
Even thou Benjamin did better than Shawn, I guess singapore made their choice where shawn becomes the male champ…
Comin to the battle of the male and female champ… Firstly is a duet between keely and last season’s campus superstar grand winner, huang zhi yang… I felt tat this performances are a nice one… I did loved their performin together, they gave me the feelin of like the couples singin together…. hw nice….
Hwever, the duet between shawn and last season’s campus superstar’s female champ, teresa tseng… I felt its veri strange… Maybe its becoz shawn is too young and he did nt put int he feelins for tis song… I was like… OMG…. the wae he sings is juz like sing for the sake of singin…. too bad… teresa cld haf a better partner in singin duet…
Final performances by bth male and female champ…. Keely sang A Mei’s ren zhi while Shawn sang Gary’s shi jie wei yi de ni… Keely is realli tired frm all these mths of competition plus tonite after 3 round of competitin, its nevertheless she has miss out at some part of the song…
Dunno realli why, but shawn sang more relax in tis round and definetly, he seems like to haf sang more well den keely who made some mistakes in these final segment… I in my mind alreadi knws who will be the new champ thou its nt the person I wanted…
Anywae, my champ of tis season’s campus superstar is always elaine who has been out of the competition a long time ago… haha…. anywae, todae is a veri harmounous time for everyone, nt realli tense up wif all the results….
There are still other campus superstars 2 performin… plus there are campus supertars 1 performin at the start of the show… den we haf some of the project superstar 2 performin… lastly, the performance of stefanie sun provides us the biggest entertainment in this final…
Final result… the grand champ is shawn, winnin by popularities… I guess frm all the past competitions, onli lin cui fang won superhost as the onli female champ… but the others were all won by guys…. and todae is no surprise… Guess I am losin my interests in watchin and supportin these shows…. haha…
Todae marks the end of campus superstar 2, thanx for all ur time in watchin and supportin all the contestants… Be sure to catch hey! gorgeous startin comin mondae and star search every tuesdae…
*** End of Report ***
Great… thanx to the special report, I haf a great summary of wat happened and can rmb all those moments fresh in my mind… Its realli a memory u wld wan to keep on rememberin… Perhaps, when times come, these memories will somewat be in ur mind for a long time…
Haiz… tmr need to wake up tat earli… haf to go for a silli run at the floatin platform lol…. 5.45am… ALAMAK….
