A New Life - Episode 14
Thursday, 23 August 2007.
I do haf dog shit luck… Its realli true… Either in my life, I win some or I will lose all in my life… Thats probabli hw my life is… I can sae I was never tat lucki… But I dun complain… Coz everythin is entirely caused by me…
I guessed sooner or later I will be missin me NS mates… the MO has passed my bmt recourse ffi and I am goin back for recourse on oct 01… Good thin is tat I will go back to seletar camp after my bmt recourse…
Haha… guess I am realli unlucki… Hw wld I knw I did nt failed tis ffi??? Even like Henry and santos of my other NS mates managed to fail their ffi, and I managed to pass??? Great… Nw its realli a big thin to me….
Haiz… my volunteerin career has juz been built up and nw I got to stop for 2 mths… I realli am bu kan xin… I am tryin so hard to build up sth and nw I had to stop, even so, I had mani other stuffs up and preparin to unleash in life and nw, I gonna to stop everything I planned….
Complainin won’t worked either… Had to accept this fate and get on wif life… If I am still in my old self of the past, i probabli will be depressed the whole dae todae… But todae, I did nt felt sad, nor depress, more of the like cannt let go…
I built up a strong friendship wif my NS mates after tat devastatin period and nw, I gotta sae gdbye to them for 2 mths… Even so tat I am goin back to seletar camp, but who knws, I will probabli be posted to some other place… Its nt even confirmed…
To tink tat I haf to get back to the bmt times again… Haha… Anywae, i haf to admit it was fun… I gotta admit, it is… Todae’s ffi was nt sth tat I didn’t expect it to happen… I thot well, maybe tis time, I cannt escape alreadi…
Tink again… I will missed wat I am doin… especialli after committin to YMCA… haiz… looks like everythin will be put to the end and after 2 mths, I will need to re build again… Time sureli does nt stand on my side…
Anywae, I told my boss abt the bmt recourse, and todae I formalli got myself a understudy… yeah!!! Finalli, I got a understudy and he has nw take over me…. Kool… haha… all my lost items nt my business liao lol…. No lar… cannt like tat, leave my understudy to die… 10 k worth of stores… WAH!!!
Well… my understudy is my section’s veri own cui cui… He is realli cui… all of us tok to him either, he cannt link wif us, nor understand wat we are tryin to do, nor does he knw why we did all those…. He’s frm JC, cannt blame him… but the worst is tat he doesn’t wan to do any work in our office… Even carryin a pile of files, he also find it so hard… Haiz….
No wonder nobody likes him, coz he is nt doin sth productive and he is juz lazin ard the whole dae in the office… Nw might as well do some justice to him… At least there is some responsibilities for him and he will nt end up as a guy who does nth at all…
I guess for sept, I will live my life to the fullest, and also, i will train myself in preparation for the ippt… Haha… Tis is sth I promised myself… I gotta go train lol… or else will end up my physical quite poor…. Furthermore, nw I got a big stomach to swell it dwn…
Nw everythin I do, I always tink… Goin back for bmt recourse, I actualli thot abt it… Guess tat if I keep on escapin, hw mani more times do I haf to escape before I ord??? Might as well, pass for one last time and gif it back to them… Den in the future, i no need to worri so much…
Haha… might as well be like tat, I guess life goes on… So far so good for me, I tink I am realli fortunate le…. nth much which I cannt put dwn except for one girl, one career…. I haf indeed seal tat feelin inside my heart, but nw, I haf to reopen it….
I knw she will be du lan wif me again… but sorrie, girl. I juz wanna sae, tis time, I am prayin for ur safety and wishes u stay fortunate in ur life…. Tats all, realli nth else… Friend, will u forgif me and gif me one more chance to be ur friend??? Please… I am realli tired of nt bein able to tok to u as a friend alreadi…. Please forgif me….
Finalli, I may nt haf any regrets nw… Take care…
