CHRIS @ WORLD

Friday, 31st August 2007.

Earli in the mornin, I woke up ard 4 am… Other than to check on my TM team on hw its doin and to set up my next match’s formation… I gotta go and eat my breakfast as I get ready to leave the hse to go to n meet my NS mate…

As I ate my breakfast and after I finished settin in TM… I went on to mtv123.com to search for this song, wo ai de ren…. but too bad, it cannt be played… anywae, frm wat I saw its sang by chen xiao chun…. I den proceed on to youtube.com to find tis song…

After listenin once, I realli felt touched and almost cried… I also sang along…. The lyrics is like tat….

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

Guessed this song brought me into my past love relationship…. and normalli when I woo after a girl, either the girl dun haf feelins for me or the girl alreadi haf someone she liked deepli alreadi….

I tink tonite wat i told ZL is somewat of wat i realli saw… U realli cannt used a guys tinkin and put it on the girls thinkin coz it never works… and guessed wat… normalli wat a girl thots, she can tink till too mani things pops out of tat thot… But for a guy, when we thot of sth, its juz simplicity… Haiz….

Ard 6am, I reached sengkang mrt stn…. Initialli, my NS mate and me are supposed to wait for the other NS mate… but hor… he went over to slp at our 2sg xiao chen’s hse also never sae… Wah liew… play stunt lol…

Anywae the bth of us took the mrt till harbour front met stn… On the whole journey, bth of us are juz shag and shag… we kept on slpin… bo bian… too tired and woke up too earli liao… When reached harbour front, we bth somehw still felt sleepy…. Ai Yo Yo…

Waited till 6.30am… Santos reached and joined the bth of us…. together 3 of us shared cab and went dwn to west coast park… alamak… guessed todae its another dae bah… Haiz… walkin session time…

After changin into PT kit, my NS mates and me who had earlier met at the Mac proceed on to the venue where everyone gathered… and the best thing lol… we finished walkin ard 8 plus am… Its realli earli…

Told my boss I will be on 1/2 dae off on mondae…. Nt onli tat, for tues, I gt duty… wed, I takin 1/2 dae off, thurs and fri, I am takin 1 dae off each…. Guessed if I dun clear nw, BMT recourse come back also no time to clear… haiz… After breakin the news to cui cui, I guessed its up to him whether he wans to be independent or nt le…

Nw a funni thing happens… When we all are walkin together, cui cui gt angry wif xiao chen who keep on disturbin him… Ai yah… bo bian, who asked cui cui wan to condemned himself one…. Tats why no one wans to help him…

After all the prize presentations, the whole thing ended ard 9 plus am… Tinkin its still earli, I changed my clothes and rushed dwn to my sec sch, PRSS…. haiz… realli missed it, so lookin forward to goin back…

Its still alrite for me to reached jurong east mrt stn coz the bus is quite fast…. But hor… when I took bus 66, it realli becomes a tour ard singapore… I started to board the bus on 10am… hwever, i reached PR, its alreadi noon… Thruout the whole journey, I was feelin quite unhappie… thou its like very slow lol but again…. cannt help, the bus had to go ahead wif the journey…

Reached my sec sch, PR…. its been a long time indeed… I smiled to myself… haha… definetly gald to be back here and realli wished to see my teachers…. esp. Ms. Ang arhx… Guessed wifout her help in my maths, I wldn’t haf any chance of goin to ITE le…

I can onli stayed for a while, will be leavin soon… walked ard the sch… here and there… Juz cldn’t find any teachers… haiz…. Juz as I guessed tat I am abt to leave the sch, I thot why nt walked ard the place for one last time….

So at the hall, I finalli found my teacher, Ms Ang…. well, she still looks the same… Well, nt too bad… at least she haf taught for batches and batches, different students graduated under her will also wan to thank her for her teachings…

After seein her on stage, I guessed my time in PR is up…. I den rushed dwn to boon lay mrt stn… well, if nt for the army open hse…. I guessed I wld be at home restin and preparin to go dwn to ymca… but nw… haiz…

At AOH, there are a lot of stuffs out there… a lot of exhibitions and galleries out there wif a lot of activities ard the place… Anywae, tat csm of ours sae we can onli leave at 4pm lol… Wat liew… goin to make myself more tired…

I went to take part in one of the acitivities, shootin of SAR 21… seein the weapon again brins back memories when i was havin bmt in sungei gedong…. Kool, and after all those shootin, I gt myself one batch back home… quite some present for me before I go bmt recourse lol…

We all also proceed to the cookhse for lunch… but todae, the cookhse looks juzlike some foodcourt sia… and the best thing, which is tat I never thot it wil be paid at here… I tink no matter hw gd is those food tat we ate todae, the standard is still the same lol…

My NS mates after eatin went to the e - mart and bought a few of the pt shirts…. Haha… at least can wear somtimes… Its also more cooler in tis wae… Hopefulli my credicts aare able to help one of my NS mate…. 

After we all left the place and boarded onto the train…. I went onto a different route wif them… Initial thot was to go straight dwn to YMCA, but seein the time which is so earli, I decided to juz go home 1st…. Its realli abt me bein tired bah…. I guessed I kept on slpin and slpin durin my journey…

6.30pm, I reached YMCA… I proceed straight to the meetin rm… There are familiar faces there like hui jing and one guy whom I am surprised to see him there…. Terence… I thot he was too busy to take part in any y outings or activities… So I am realli surprised to see him there…

He was also surprised too… He didn’t expect me to be in the committee helpin out either… haha…. I guessed since we bth haf nt tok to each other for such a long time, its possible we dun knw wats happenin… but hey… he still continues to read my blog, haha…

Nw the meetin todae seems quite alrite, other than the ice breaker and some aims of pauline… There is tis job allocation for the Y outings on oct 20… I initialli wanted to join the facilitator… but tink further…. as my bmt recourse is comin in soon, I dun tink I wld wan to do sth more than wat i cld… so in the end, I chose for sth which I cld be able to help out one… The marshaller…

Its nt tat marshaller is easy lar… but as the reason given, for tis kind of job is sth, I at least can do sth and nt juz go there and do realli nth lol….

Returnin home ard 9 plus pm, I took the mrt back… Haiz… my ezlink dun even haf enugh money to let me go home… neither do I haf 10 dollars to put in my card… Bo bian liao… haf to buy standard tickets to go home… Wah hw ke lian I can be sia…

Nw… I am goin off to slp liao… 3am, and tmr still gt Y outings… Power le lol….

Thursday, 30 August 2007.

Eyes lookin at a far end… I saw nth… Nth in a distant… Nth which shows tat there shld be a side where u can stand… Its tough for me…. nvm abt the toughness… U experienced it, u understand it… Tats life…

Partialli, I guessed I am into the work wif all my NS mates… Nw, I am realli doin all my bit to complete job after job… Shag can onli the word to describe my tireness dae by dae… Guessed I could easili fall ill nwadaes…

Tis mornin, I am realli unhappi wif the words of wat my boss sae… Last wk, when I told him I wld be applin off for tmr, he sae its ok to go for it… Todae, when I mentioned it again, I did nt get his approval… WTH… and he even signed on the off pass bk liao…

I realli felt unfair… Tmr’s teachers dae and I couldnt even go back to PRSS to visit my teachers as a form of gratitude to them… I can still rmb clearly… wifout the help of my sec sch teachers, I will nt be in CSC doin so well, neither will I be able to go to ITE to further my studies after my O lvl…

Its realli unfair… simplinli to solve all these, I took off on next mondae, wednesday, thrusdae and fridae… Haha… ai yah… even after takin all these daes, I still gt 7 daes left… aniwae, lucki me, sundae and tuesdae, I gt duty… so heng arhx…

Tink further… its time I let cui cui become independance… since he like to depend on others so much, I shall pushed him dwn to his death and let him learn hw to independance… I shall nt come back and help him at all…. U knw hw eagles fly??? Their mother pushed them dwn and they learn hw to fly… If they dun flip their wings hard, they die… Tats hw I wan cui cui to learn…

Anywae, jobs at NS are nw fruitful for me… mornin went out to settle the inners for it to be put back at 35 QM… haha… I knw at least knw wat I am supposed to do when loadin n unloadin the inner… guessed its somehw a little bit easy le…

Den rain always appear at the time when we are workin…. frm returnin of stores of the reservists to puttin back of assault bts… its rainin and rainin… I was wet the whole wae till lunch time lol…

Durin lunch, all 5 of us tok abt hw BMT time has passed, wat happened at BMT and when we keep on tink back… we realised… woah… its veri soon tat we all are goin to ord at a blink of our eyes… and the thing… one of my NS mates who is goin to ORD chio me to do handin over n takin over documents next wk… but see hw 1st… dunno next wk free mah… Tink tmr tok to him again…

After lunch, work went on… and we are all at maintenance at the whole time… bookin in trailers after trailers… The best thing… liftin up n dwn of the trailers… Kool… I guessed everyone is nw well trained… our strength is at a higher lvl nw, I tink….

For candace trailer esp… We haf to greese it before we book in… But no matter hw one of my NS mates and me try, we juz cld nt greese…. bo bian… Tink its the nipple of the candace trailer gt prob… but anywae… after my NS mates try later, they also found the same prob…

Durin bookin in of the documents… I guessed nw, no job is realli difficult for me… Nw I can easili bk in stuffs and bk out stuffs… Its juz a matter of whther those staff sergents and the officers will kan u…. Haiz… guessed its hw hard a NSF life is nwadaes…

Returnin back to office… I was shocked at a instant… I thot out office key went missin… OMG… kan chiong… Thou I am quite calm as a matter of fact, I tink before I went on to find the keys… I went back to the hangars to trail for the key… Nt found…

Wif my thots, I closed every place and left for maintenance… My brain calmli tells me tat if the key is nt at the hangars or the office, den it will be at the maintenance… Wifout any further waitin, I rushed dwn….

On my wae there, my 2 NS mates returned… and phew… the key is wif one of my NS mates there… lucki me sia… After all these comotions… I rushed back to maintenance again and found out tat some documents are nt done yet…

After finishin all those stuffs… I photostated some copies and prepared to gif to the officer in charge… too bad, he’s nt in… I also thot of takin the goody bags for all my NS mates… but ai yo yo… still need nominal roll… ai yah… bo bian, mondae den take le…

When I returned to office, my other 2 mates who went for ICT briefin and AVI also returned… wah… they work until so late todae…. haha… and gd news perhaps… another of my NS mates joinin me for bmt recourse… plus one goin to ord soon… Looks like the comin stocktake is a hardship for the rest fo them stayin…

Alriti… goin off nw… Tmr needed to go to west coast park in mornin for some walk …. Haiz… why??? I do hope tat I can go dwn to PRSS tmr… Haiz…

Wednesday, 29 August 2007. 

Shld I describe myself as shag todae??? I tink I shld… After a hard work todae, I realised tat I am no man of steel… I guessed everyone will be tired after so much work given… Glad tat I felt for my other NS mates…

In the past, no matter hw shag they are, I will never understand them… I guessed todae I am truly in their shoes… Knwin tat its never easy to do so much workload in one dae, where sometimes, u get some minor injures which can lead to pain for daes…

After restin for a while at my office in NS, I was immediately out to action for the almond’s inner back frm ST Marine… Met up wif the driver, we set off to find the 7 tonner… Wif all the biis readi, I thot tat I will nt be needed to go dwn to ST Marine…

Haiz… tat lazy staff sergent forces our side to send one ppl go dwn… Wa Lao… Bo Bian… had to go dwn lol… anywae, sittin on the tonner makes me feel slpy… Esp on the wae to ST Marine which is located in Tuas… I certainly felt tired and slept for a blink….

After my blink, I immediately went awake… After all, a vehicle commander shld nt even felt sleepy lol… It will be dangerous, wat if the driver also felt sleepy??? Accidents will surely happen de…

Reached the place and settle some paperwork… the staff sergent plus 2 other NS guys frm gedong side went on to take the inner…. Guess its like a transformation of optimus prime… When the tonner has the inner added on, it instantly became a truly transformation… haha…

Guessed everything went out quite fine except probabli for the reverse gear of the tonner, which totalli sucks… The driver had trouble most of the time makin the reverse gear causin difficulties at times…. Well… hw did a vehicle which juz passed the avi had its reverse gear so difficult to hit???

On the wae back to seletar camp, I also felt sleepy… The driver, I tink also had the same problem… The best thing, bth of us are on a vehicle on the expresswae and I guessed its the reason to say tat this journey is quite high risk orhx…

Anywae, I managed to pass by NTU which is I tink Daniel’s current sch arhx… or is it nt???

Back at seletar camp, after finishin all the ST Marine’s stuff, I head back to office and saw 2 buggar… Haha… Its ronald and joel… Long time never see them liao… Hm… tink its abt 5 mths back lol since tat they haf ord…

Great to see them, thou they still make fun of me as usual lol… Diaoz… Haha… nvm… However, its great to see these guys back a while…. Tokin to them brins me back memories of the past of BSS, my current section… In the past, hw great it was… Sadli, nw the feelin is somewat a different case… The 2 guys left ard 1 plus pm… haiz…. Hope to see them soon…

I continued workin but tis time round in my store… Haha… wifout eatin any lunch, I managed to work and work till 4 plus pm… Woo hoo… new record… Guessed todae, I did alot of tidyin and the best thing, I did a great job tidyin the hangar… Nt bad…

After finishin all the tidy up, I came out wif the whole body black and the best thing… Todae its wat I called total shag… I guessed my energy lvl somehw went to a lowest pt… Tats where I thot, maybe I shld refill it wif plenty of rests…

Hw wld I knw after I came out of the hangar, I still cld nt rest… I den had to proceed to maintenance to hand up the ST marine’s form and wats worse… tat staff sergent dun wan to put back the inner todae lar… Nw, the maintenance officer wans us to put back at the place before mornin’s teabreak… Wa lau… Lan Lan…

After returnin frm the maintenance, I am alreadi too shag, I guessed some sip of A & W helps in replenshin all my energy… Den… still had to do the checklist for the mosquitoes…. Ai Yo Yo… hw come suddenli I am so popular wif so mani work one???

All in all, I am quite displeased wif cui cui…. When we were so busy, he did nth and nw when we had so much to do, he juz went for his university course… Tis is nt a rite thin lol… He sae he’s excused, but does tat mean tat he no need to do anythin??? Tell him to do small little stuff which he can do, he dun even bothered to do it… and wats worse, he do nt knw hw to take initiative…. Juz by cleanin up of hangars, he had to wait for me….

Wat’s up wif his attitude??? I realli cannt let cui cui continue wif his wae of doin work… He is onli makin all of us more busy…. Even wif me goin dwn lessenin the workload, it doesn’t help tat much…

At home, I checked my e-mail and kool… Y reading’s club, I am in the list of committee members… haha… Thanx pauline orhx… I guessed I didn’t realli go and expect myself to be in the committee nor did I realli wan to fight for the place… but I hope tat wif me inside, i am able to put my experiences to a gd use…

Definetly lookin forward to bein a committee members for the Y outings and activities… Yeah!!! 

I guessed I had my stomach pain till nw… Guessed tats the effect of nt eatin in the afternoon, I dun realli had the mood to eat tat much, but well… had to eat sth, or else I will haf gastric pain for sure tmr…

Nw… did I missed out anythin which I shld be sayin… haha… No clue… Coz ZL haf nt find out yet… and I am definetly nt thinkin abt it… so wait till he told me sth, den I will be able to tell all of u… haha…

Guessed nw… goin to rest…. tired and pain in my arm… Needin wats the impt… Rest… 

Tuesday, 28 August 2007.

Mani thots are nw runnin in my mind… Morning are supposed to be something which refreshes ur mind and u wld wan to haf a veri gd start, but todae I had a bad start in the mornin which leads to a busy dae…

First thing first… If I knw yesterdae tat my NS mates will be so busy, I will nt even bothered to take off lol… my NS mates never told me also… Haiz…. Bo bian…. Anywae, todae my boss keep on naggin and naggin…. Ai Yoh…. He even threaten to confine all of us lol….

Manz… Pls lol… dun spoil my plan… Pls… I dun haf much time before my bmt recourse… dun let tis small thing affect it le…. I realli dun haf time…. Haiz… Why does heaven dun understand one??? Haha… Nt realli to complain, but more like makin a requests….

I alreadi said before, we are a batch of guys who will do things willingli de… No need to sae things till so serious, we are also willin to do one… Haiz… So back at out office, we went busy frm mornin until lunch…

Frm mornin, we started to clean up one of the hangars… After tat, I introduced to my undertsudy, cui cui, my store… and gave him a brief description about wat each equipment is lol… Thou, wanted to do more on the hangars, but haiz… need to help out lay candace boats, so cant do much…

Anywae, layin of candace boats is one thing u wld never wanted to do… Esp when its heavy and dusty…. plus u need to sling it before u can lay it out… Ai Yo Yo… mani work lol… anywae, after all the layin and stuff, my hand and shoulders became too dirty tat even hw much detergent tat u used, u cldn’t washed ur hands clean…

Before I went for lunch, as the forlift is park outside the hangar, someone had to look after it, therefore, we made cui cui to stay in the office…. The best thing, I told him to hang up the chart for the 5 sections before we go for lunch…

The best thing, he didn’t even bothered to help all of us to hang up…. If he did tat durin lunch time, I wld haf saved a lot of time by juz fillin it up later, but kaoz…. I had to spend time hangin up too…. Can’t cui cui do some work lol….

Even best, he ordered wanton mee for lunch…. later when all of us are eatin at the cookhse, he said he onli wan char siew and no wanton… All of us laughed at an instance… Although there are ppl like him lar…. but can’t he make the stall auntie’s life more easier???

Anywae, stop talkin abt tis person who wanted to do nth…. Haha…. When I am nt tat busy, he dun wan to care abt his store, when I am so busy, den he asked me to help him wif tis and tat…. I thot why nt he take some initiative to do sth and nt keep on askin me wat to do…. Well, hw long can he be independence, he is no longer a new soldier lol… In the end, I juz told him off and tell him to clean up the hangars…. Haiz…

Well… back after lunch, I continued to help out layin the boats and finishin the charts… Kool… tats a busy dae todae…. Guess tmr, will haf to do sth abt the store and hopefulli, everything is to our boss likin… Haiz…

Returnin home… I thot of askin my mum for 20 dollars…. but well, since she did nt haf enugh, I didn’t asked her for tat amt…. She did helped me wif a 2 dollars, which i felt its ok…

So wats wif the money…. Its tat tonite, I am goin to meet samantha for dinner…. But, I felt realli strange… I was juz tinkin, why did I even agree to go dwn for the dinner leh??? I juz totalli felt strange…

Anywae, since my mum cldn’t gif me tat amt… I bombarded ZL’s hp for almost 10 times till 6.50pm…. I gave up, cld nt even get thru him… Haiz… Bo Bian… had to make do wif wat I had in my wallet… I den told myself, since it cannt be avoided, den let it happen….

Reachin the time makes me tink of a lot of qns…. I was realli hopin tat nth will happen tonite… Haha… but hor, its juz a matter of wat will realli happen… Haiz… Anywae, she msg me on my wae to meet her…. Makes me feel tat I shld realli go dwn…

Finalli reached the place… I received another msg… Its frm samantha… Tis msg gifs me a sign of relief…. Phew… Heng arhx… DG are there too… At least he is there, or else, I realli dunno wat to do wif samantha on a one on one….

At there, I didn’t tok much to samantha, DG and my other disciple, Joel… Haha… Guessed its juz tat DG and Joel’s friend is there and the four of them are frm the same ITE… I juz cldn’t get into their topic…. Onli probabli till where DG starts tokin abt network marketin, I managed to gif him some tips…

After chattin for almost an hr, DG and samantha returned to their block… Joel and me chatted under his blog for a while and we all went separately out wae… I didn’t managed to sae gdbye to samantha, so guessed a msg of gdbye will do the job…

I tok to ZL at nite abt the situation I am in since he misunderstand everything…. I told him tat since Samantha is so sincere askin me for dinner, why nt go dwn…. He den analysed the situation and I was hopin, its shld nt be wat he sae lar…. 

After he went to check out some info for me, I guessed the situation is still unclear… I juz guessed tat hopefulli, nth will happen lol… Coz onli one girl stays inside my heart currently and I dun hope to haf ani other ppl enterin… ZL promises to find out more later tmr perhaps…

Anywae, I still remain my stand… Onli one stays in my heart… and hopefulli, the ans I wanted will be clear to me soon…. Haiz…    

Monday, 27 August 2007.

A dae where I probabli slept for 12 hrs, I guessed… Todae woken up at 2pm is the best proof… Woo hoo, havent been slpin for tat long esp for someone like me who needs 15 hrs of slp per dae, todae, I managed to haf a power slp… Thanx to my dae off…

Wakin up at 2pm todae means tat 1/2 of my dae is simpli gone… Great… I wasted 1/2 a dae slpin to full, and another 1/2 dae is simpli a dunno wat to do dae… Guess I will juz be back to my normal routine at home…

Finishin my brunch, I went into the internet world surfin again… haha… Ever since I had my com in sec 1, I wld juz surf the internet whenever I had the time, no matter hw busy I was, I will try to find some time usin the internet…. Probabli the onli time I am nt usin is when my com breaksdwn, which I am suspectin the com to breakdwn anytime lol…

Anywae, ard the same time, my NS mate called me, tellin me abt my store to be issued out for ICT… I was liked OMG… why didn’t they draw on last fridae??? Anywae, I had to thank one of my NS mates, dalton…. tink he helped me a lot of time when he came to seletar camp… haha… great to knw him… Anywae, my store didn’t haf gd equipments to be drawn, so I can onli let them draw watever is available lol… Bo bian…

Hm… Pauline e-mailed me abt YMCA stuff todae… sianz… couldn’t go for the meetin on sept 4… too bad, wanted to join in plannin for the Y readin club, but got guard duty liao… haiz… Guessed I had to see hw to help after they had planned… Haha… Anywae, I realli had to thanx pauline for givin me a chance to join in the committee… Thanx, but nt tis time… too bad… 

5pm… Its yu le bai fen bai… todae is the xin guang ban’s fen si dong le hui…. features the taiwan’s xin guang ban… They are a talented batch and most of all they haf good guidance frm singers and producers, so they haf good singins n techniques wif them…

I liked one of the xin guang ban’s singer, the female one… forgot her name alreadi… but I admire her, out of so mani guys, she still can make it into the top 10, pei fu… maybe, I shld go and try out the project superstar 2009… which I told my NS mates, I will be goin lol… haha…

At nite, I went out to my bro, ZL… haha…. he arhx…. slp and slp becoz of his headache… I den had to wait for him frm 7.30pm till 8.30pm… Haiz… After drinkin one cup of green tea, I didn’t wait for him to come and ate my dinner… Anywae, I saw the TV review of the EPL… kool…

Tis season, I switched supportin real madrid back to liverpool… I guessed switchin supportin teams is a bit… hm… dunno hw to describe, maybe I support the team’s form more than hw much I loved a particular team…. Probably tats hw I decide I support one team…

After ZL came, we chatted for quite a while…. as we walked ard tampines, we chatted stuffs frm network marketin to life…. haiz… in the past, I didn’t haf ppl chattin wif me network marketin, nw, almost most of the friends ard me keep on doin network marketin… haiz…

I gotta sae thanx to ZL… he has agreed to help me out wif my birthdae chalet… Haiz… guessed, tats one great bro I had out there…. Actualli, whenever I called him personalli, its always askin him for flavours… haha… The last time is… hm… oh yar… secretly hang the birthdae gift of samantha at her door step…

So gotta thanx him for his great help…. ZL had helped me in some of the most difficult situations which I had in at times, so tis time, gotta thanx him again for helpin me…. Phew… Another big problem solved temporary…

Alrite, tats all for todae, folks… Anywae, glad to see tat my blog had ppl still comin to take a peek… thanx guys out there…. Currently, there seems to be some glinch in the page per view for my blog section as over one wk, there had been no ppl viewin…. but todae the page view is back to normal…

Haha… thanx all for viewin… I am realli grateful… Tmr, lets hope tat there are some other things happenin… A quote frm AJ : Things gets better when one least expected…. Haha…  

Sunday, 26 August 2007.

Tommorrow is the start of the last wk of august…. Gettin closer to my bmt recourse arhx… haiz… If its comin, so be it… I juz dun wanna go n tink abt so much… Had to get on wif life anywae… Coz its part and parcel of life…

Yesterdae nite before I went for my slp…. one long time friend appeared online after a veri long time… Its MX… woo hoo… She’s finalli online after one mth… Great… Currently she resides along UK… workin, nt yet studyin… Apart frm adaptin to life at there, she’s also gettin to knw more friends…

In her timezone, its 3pm in the afternoon for her… Whereas here in singapore, its 10pm… Woah… 7 hrs of difference, guess tats why she wasn’t online for a while… Anywae, yesterdae nite, she’s usin the msn messenger at a internet cafe… haha… Great to see online…

We chatted for a while before we slept… Get to knw more abt wat is happenin in her life nwadaes… Anywae, her internet connection in UK is realli laggy…. I sent her one sentence, she get to reply me a few minutes later… haha… too many ppl in uk uses internet causes so much lag…. haha…

Anywae, MX, I realli hope to see u online soon… Thou nw tat ur life in UK is nt realli interestin yet, but I believe it will be soon where ur life will haf new adventures and journeys for u to keep on goin…. Take care, girl…

Anywae, tis mornin, woke up earli at 5.30am…. Actualli I woke up at 4am alreadi… but wif my characteristic, I normalli juz go back to slp…. and tats wat I did at 4am todae… So went back to slp for 1 hr and vola… my dad woke me up at 5.30am…

The ppl runnin had to reach AHM at 5.45am… Due to my stomach havin diarohee, and I had some vomittin, I msg my boss tellin him abt my situation… but well, he onli replied me at 7 plus am lol… I tink he was still slpin when everythin ended…. kaoz…

After finishin my breakfast, my dad drove me dwn there… I couldn’t find one place as a drop off pt as all road are closed tis morning…. Its until near Marina Square shoppin mall tat I managed to drop off frm my dad’s car… Thanx dad… Maybe I shuldn’t even ask him to send me there, he’s alreadi tat tired alreadi…. haiz…

Reachin there ard 7 plus am, I decided to meet one of my NS mates… We meet near the marina square’s mac… Ard 7.20am, I tink… bth of us walked towards the floatin platform… Guess seriousli there are mani public who are willin to pay to juz run 12 km for AHM… haiz… Sundae’s where ppl wanted to rest, isn’t it???

Anywae, my other NS mates arrived ard 7.30 plus pm…. After markin the attendance, there is seriousli nth for us to do… Ai yo yo… So wat are we goin to do for the rest of the next 2 to 3 hrs leh???

Seriousli for those who are nt runnin, we are there to do nth… Realli nth… Bo bian, 2 of my NS mates proceed to eat mac at suntec… subsequently, the 4 of us left also went on to eat breakfast… and yesh… I had 2 breakfast todae together… haha…. Anywae, spendin time findin ATM in marina square is like u r tryin to find a way out of the maze…. haha…

After the enjoyable breakfast, all 4 of us went back to the floatin platform, join by the other 2 NS mates who went to suntec… The 6 of us simpli sat there n do nth… In fact juz get sun tanned at there… Diaoz….

Everything ended ard 10 plus am… Phew… finalli get to go home… Nw… who wld haf thot tat comin fridae all of us are supposed to go to west coast in the mornin for life run lol…. Phew… glad to haf taken off and in any case, I am goin back to my sec sch on fridae to visit my sec sch teachers…

Oh yah hor…. when I am walkin to City Hall MRT stn to take my train, I passed by Yi Wen leh… Hw conincidence… Guess Singapore is realli small…. In tat kind of situation, can meet her also… haha…. Thou, i did nt call for her… Hope to see her some other daes… 

Hm… heard abt the news frm my dad tat one of the officers died after runnin the 21 km in the AHM tis mornin…. Sadz…  but since its life, we juz had to accept it… Lets hope less of these will happen again…

Back at home, I get to haf some plenty of rest… The whole afternoon, I used my com and the internet to update some stuffs online… After tat, i get to watch TV and haf some slp at the same time… Guess tats realli some gd rest esp after wakin up so earli tis morning…

Saw AJ online…. she’s quite sick and feelin bad abt the dae happenin to her… i tried my best to let her feel fine lol… Cannt realli see tis friend of mine keep onstayin unhappie…. She’s someone who shld keep on smilin de…. Stay happie, Ms. AJ…

AJ… rmb wat i sae to u…. dun feel so bad abt it alreadi lar… Its definetly nt u started it de….  : P 

Nite time, I played some free game at gametap.com … Kool those free games are games which I had long wanted to play, like KOF series and street fighters… I even found games which are interestin but didn’t managed to find it…. Guess at times when I am bored, tis are good entertainment…

Ard evenin time, thot of findin ZL for dinner…. Alamak… He was the one who called me in the afternoon to sae wantin to meet me later… but I waited and waited, he did nt even contact me…. Haiz… Juz as I was tinkin abt wat I shld be eatin, I thot of samantha… So, I went on to msg her and see whether she wld wan to meet for dinner….

Waited till 7 plus pm… Still no news frm her… Haiz… Guess I wld haf to go dwn and buy my own dinner… Tonite on channel U… there is shanghai noon…. kool… Maybe there is still another entertainment for me to watch at least…

My disciple of the past is online !!! haha…. his name is derrick, who I taught him alot on leadership skills and so on before he proceed to become the Interact Club’s President on 2006… Anywae, I was quite surprised to find him online, as I thot tat he shld be back in camp ard tis time…

Tink we chatted for quite some time abt NS stuffs… He mentioned to me abt his postin… He said he is in the list of platoon medic… Woah… but tink of it… Its likely tat 75% u will probabli get tat post… Hwever, his wish is to be rifleman… So, wish him gd luck den…. Anywae, I broke the news to him tat I am goin back for bmt recourse… haha….

Hm…. so wat’s goin to happen to my birthdae chalet…. ZL…. Tink haf to let him settle liao…

Ard 9 plus pm, after my bath… Samantha returned my sms… She worked full dae shift todae… Haha…. guess I didn’t knw her schedule, so didn’t find the rite time to ask her for dinner… Anywae, after tat msg, I thot tat well, probabli juz wish her gd nite, tat will be the end….

Hw I thot tat she will repli me by askin me to go for dinner on tuesdae… I definelty was shocked… I didn’t expect she wld ask me tat…. A mixed feelin of fear and uncertain strikes me…

Tink again… maybe I shuldn’t tink too much… Guess nth will happen anywae, so I juz went on and agreed to go for the dinner on tuesdae…. Since bth of us haf nt met each other for a long time, maybe I shld juz go n meet her…

Further later at nite, I also saw another friend whom I haf nt seem online for a while… Charlyn… Tok to her for a while too…. Guess becoz too long nt tokin to her, i didn’t even knw she’s on holidae nw… haha…

Tinking…. Guess friendship is realli fragile in somewae… U never knw when it will be broken…. When u least expected it to break, it breaks at a instant and u hardly had any chance to save it back…. Den on, u gt to slowly fix it back piece by piece… sometimes, it juz goes missin and u lost it forever…

Wats true, wats false, its realli nt impt to me anymore…. Hardly I will haf any choice to change it, do I??? A surprise to me todae is where enard msn me and tell to link her to my blog…. I was liked didn’t she had the address alreadi???

Anywae, enard, pls dun keep on sayin tat u r fat and short… I am truly sorrie for sayin u those words durin tat time… I take it back, ok??? I realli dun wan u to keep on sayin u r short n fat… U r nt lol…

Feelin a little bit tired and unwell… Gotta go rest nw….      

Saturday, 25 August 2007.

My new life didn’t exactly went the wae I wanted… Guess my dog shit luck went out on me alreadi…. For 2 daes, my life is droppin dwn, and no matter hw much I wanted to stay positive… I am gettin hard and hard to stay on tat wae…

I am realli nt cut out to be strong wif myself… Currently, I am neither positive nor negative, more like couldn’t find the meanin to my life… Guess I am finalli at my wits end…. I realli didn’t knw tat I can ran out of ideas finalli…

Looks like I am a bit stuck on tryin to lead my life to some objectives and perhaps makes it meaningful… Likely nw its nt even possible…. Gloom, somehw it is… Maybe the feelin is nt even rite… Its realli hard, isn’t it???

My mornin is somehw quite relax… Todae didn’t haf to go for Y outings or activities, so I am feelin quite fine wif the time I am spendin at home todae…. Woken up and found tat my left eye seems a little bit swollen… hm…. at afternoon, its alrite alreadi…. haha… realised tat I haf nt spend too much time alone on a saturdae mornin for quite long sia…. Glad tat todae it did…

After watchin animes till 4pm… I left my com and TV on while I went on a slpin session for 1 hr… I tink… Dun rmb wat happen anywae… Juz seems tat its totally quiet todae… The whole dae… Its juz quiet and peacefulness for me…. Haven’t been experiencin tat dunno since when…

I tink tis is juz some kind of feelin I wanted todae also… I needed tis peace to sort out all my feelin for a while… I guess my actions for the past few daes were like highs and lows…. Nt like the past, but its almost like it went the same wae and goin back soon…

I am realli afraid… Afraid tat once everythin went back to the past, I will lose everythin… Lose wat I wanted to change, wat Iwanted to improve and wat I haf been fightin and cherish… I guess I haf been someone who hasn’t been tat strong for a long time…

Guess everythin will become to a losin end for me… A dead end where I will nt be able to find the bright side of life anymore… Sorrie friend, looks like I was hit by somethin even dangerous and dropped deep to the space where u saved me frm the past…. Guessed tat drop makes me harder to climb up nw…

May it be an unfortunate series of events happenin again… I knw tat I haf to fight back tis time… If I continue to stay there n wait… Den there is no one I cld be waitin for tis time… Those mths of waitin is terrible… so is it even worth of waitin, I dun realli tink so….

Anywae, saw my junior,huiting, the current ITE Clementi Interact Club’s president… Haha… she went on news and its the report on the jalan bukit merah… the place had some bad explosions… I tink a few wks ago… and todae, they are givin out cooker, I tink… Anywae, i asked her abt the situations at there nw… Its quite fine for them… haha… glad to hear tat anywae….

Maybe I am someone sturborn…. Even frm the past till nw… but my judgement has never been wrong….. Even thou as I am nt a gd leader, but I am someone who is gd at trainin leader… blah…. still ok lar… Anywae, I haven’t change my opinion on huiting as a leader… frm den till nw, it remains the same… She needs a lot of trainin, thou she may haf the potential but she is nt ready to be a leader yet…

*** Special Report : Campus Superstar 2 Grand Final ***

Welcome to the special segment of the Campus Superstar 2’s Grand Final…

First up, on the female’s final battle between zheng ning and keely… Bth of them at the start sang fan wei chi’s wo men de ji nian ri… For me, i felt tat keely sang better than zheng ning in terms of vocal… while zheng ning seems like a lack of breath to me….

The 2nd part of the girls final is where zheng ning sang dance jolin’s wei wu du zun while keely sang and dance jolin’s mr Q…. As a truly jolin’s fan… Zhen ning definelty dance better than keely… However in terms of singin, keely did better…

Altogether, I felt tat bth had did their best… and bth realli improved a lot frm tis competition… Guess its nt easy to sae who will be the female champion… Hwever, singapore made their choice and keely won…

For the guys, the male final battle are between shawn and benjamin… The song they bth sang are JJ’s xi jie… In terms of vocal and strength, Benjamin did better and to the terms of stage performances, Benjamin definetly did better than shawn…

The 2nd part of dancing and singin… Shawn sang n dance Mayday’s zhong jie gu dang while Benjamin sang and dance Gary’s 3-7-21… I haf to sae great performances to bth contestants, but in terms of their strength in tis round, I haf to sae Benjamin did better than Shawn… Shawn seems too tensed up… Hwever, benjamin does haf slight weakness wif his vocal part where he shld focus on…

Even thou Benjamin did better than Shawn, I guess singapore made their choice where shawn becomes the male champ…

Comin to the battle of the male and female champ… Firstly is a duet between keely and last season’s campus superstar grand winner, huang zhi yang… I felt tat this performances are a nice one… I did loved their performin together, they gave me the feelin of like the couples singin together…. hw nice….

Hwever, the duet between shawn and last season’s campus superstar’s female champ, teresa tseng… I felt its veri strange… Maybe its becoz shawn is too young and he did nt put int he feelins for tis song… I was like… OMG…. the wae he sings is juz like sing for the sake of singin…. too bad… teresa cld haf a better partner in singin duet…

Final performances by bth male and female champ…. Keely sang A Mei’s ren zhi while Shawn sang Gary’s shi jie wei yi de ni… Keely is realli tired frm all these mths of competition plus tonite after 3 round of competitin, its nevertheless she has miss out at some part of the song…

Dunno realli why, but shawn sang more relax in tis round and definetly, he seems like to haf sang more well den keely who made some mistakes in these final segment… I in my mind alreadi knws who will be the new champ thou its nt the person I wanted…

Anywae, my champ of tis season’s campus superstar is always elaine who has been out of the competition a long time ago… haha…. anywae, todae is a veri harmounous time for everyone, nt realli tense up wif all the results….

There are still other campus superstars 2 performin… plus there are campus supertars 1 performin at the start of the show… den we haf some of the project superstar 2 performin… lastly, the performance of stefanie sun provides us the biggest entertainment in this final…

Final result… the grand champ is shawn, winnin by popularities… I guess frm all the past competitions, onli lin cui fang won superhost as the onli female champ… but the others were all won by guys…. and todae is no surprise… Guess I am losin my interests in watchin and supportin these shows…. haha…

Todae marks the end of campus superstar 2, thanx for all ur time in watchin and supportin all the contestants… Be sure to catch hey! gorgeous startin comin mondae and star search every tuesdae…

*** End of Report ***

Great… thanx to the special report, I haf a great summary of wat happened and can rmb all those moments fresh in my mind… Its realli a memory u wld wan to keep on rememberin… Perhaps, when times come, these memories will somewat be in ur mind for a long time…

Haiz… tmr need to wake up tat earli… haf to go for a silli run at the floatin platform lol…. 5.45am… ALAMAK….     

Friday, 24 August 2007.

Ever get fraustrated before? Ever lose ur cool somehw? I tink I did in the past… Its due to stress and tense times tat I will be like tat… Hwever, it seems like a long time esp after my life changes… Maybe I shuldn’t haf lost it…

Somehw todae I didn’t keep my cool… I guessed todae I sorta didn’t ctrl it… Hw wld I knw I suddenly can be du lan tat easili??? I guess I realli had wae too much to improved on… I muz improved… I muz…

Keepin on tellin myself isn’t helpin… U juz gotta do it… When u dun do it, and u juz keep on sayin, u will nt be able to show ppl ur willingness to change and in the end, u become someone unworthy of… Todae I almost become one… and I am nt goin to let myself step back into the past again…

Hw did I lose ctrl? Todae becoz of my understudy in camp… Its rainin heavili… and he’s in the 7 ton… I told him to drive nearer to the doorway so tat I can passed him those stuffs… WTH… he juz dun wanna listen and keep on sayin the 7 ton cannt go near…. I guess part of my mistake is tat I thot the 7 ton can drive thru the 2 candace boats… which it can…. or maybe the driver dun haf confidence…. but another pt to note is tat, its rainin heavili, n u expect me to gif u the equipments thru the rain meh???

Tats hw todae I lost my cool… Eventualli after nt able to tell him my idea, I walked off and leave him to pick up the equipments which i placed at the doorway himself… I guessed part of it is rite thing to do, as I stop myself to quarrel wif cui cui but the bad pt is tat I shuldn’t haf left him there…. Its realli bad for me who has been improvin myself wif my NS mates… Haiz… guess my bad daes happens to me like tat….

ICT or in camp trainin comes in the afternoon ard 1.30pm… ai yoh… my MA is likely to be a cannt make it alreadi… Too bad… Had to postponed in the end… I finished helpin the rest of my NS mates ard 2.45pm… Wah…. my appointment 3.45pm… Too rushed alreadi… After changin it, the next appointment date is sept 28… 3 daes before my bmt recourse… Guess had to accept the fate…

Sundae cannt enjoy sia… Bo bian… haf to go to floatin platform for AHM at 5.45am… Wah… Hw sia…. 12 km leh… Had to go there and run… and wats worse??? Wake up earli juz for a run on sundae??? Haha…. I guessed all the bad things happen at one time… Haiz… Well, had to get on wif all these… Thankfulli, I took mondae as my off daes, or else consecutively havin NS stuff cld realli make my mood drop badli…

I am realli runnin out of time once again… Once tat my career starts to come to put to a stop, I realli cannt tink of it… I guessed tats me, once I get committed wif one thing, I will be stubborn to let go of it until I finished my aim or objectives and nw, juz startin everything, I had to stop it makes me even unaccpetable of the facts….

But since its the facts, i juz had to accept it… Guess I may nt be someone who has truly changed as I had a lot to improve on… But at least, i am glad to keep one thing wif me and tat is to stay positive….

Tis is impt and wifout the positive in me, I guess I wld haf been a doom to fail in my current situations… I guess after thankin my good friend for so mani times, I haf to thanx her once again… I guess tis valuable lesson is sth which I need to keep myself up and progress…

Be the situation is hw bad nw… i juz haf to get on wif it… Maybe it will be put to a stop, but YMCA outings and activities, I am determined to carry on wif it… I guess its time to realli tink and find out hw… Tats why even why I am goin for my bmt recourse, I am still into it…

For the first time, I am goin to sae… Its time for the plan to start, begin and unleash…. Its time for me to act nw… Before its too late… Its time to do sth….

I guess its realli time…. Time for a fight for my future… Time for one more huge changes…

Thursday, 23 August 2007.

I do haf dog shit luck… Its realli true… Either in my life, I win some or I will lose all in my life… Thats probabli hw my life is… I can sae I was never tat lucki… But I dun complain… Coz everythin is entirely caused by me…

I guessed sooner or later I will be missin me NS mates… the MO has passed my bmt recourse ffi and I am goin back for recourse on oct 01… Good thin is tat I will go back to seletar camp after my bmt recourse…

Haha… guess I am realli unlucki… Hw wld I knw I did nt failed tis ffi??? Even like Henry and santos of my other NS mates managed to fail their ffi, and I managed to pass??? Great… Nw its realli a big thin to me….

Haiz… my volunteerin career has juz been built up and nw I got to stop for 2 mths… I realli am bu kan xin… I am tryin so hard to build up sth and nw I had to stop, even so, I had mani other stuffs up and preparin to unleash in life and nw, I gonna to stop everything I planned….

Complainin won’t worked either… Had to accept this fate and get on wif life… If I am still in my old self of the past, i probabli will be depressed the whole dae todae… But todae, I did nt felt sad, nor depress, more of the like cannt let go…

I built up a strong friendship wif my NS mates after tat devastatin period and nw, I gotta sae gdbye to them for 2 mths… Even so tat I am goin back to seletar camp, but who knws, I will probabli be posted to some other place… Its nt even confirmed…

To tink tat I haf to get back to the bmt times again… Haha… Anywae, i haf to admit it was fun… I gotta admit, it is… Todae’s ffi was nt sth tat I didn’t expect it to happen… I thot well, maybe tis time, I cannt escape alreadi…

Tink again… I will missed wat I am doin… especialli after committin to YMCA… haiz… looks like everythin will be put to the end and after 2 mths, I will need to re build again… Time sureli does nt stand on my side…

Anywae, I told my boss abt the bmt recourse, and todae I formalli got myself a understudy… yeah!!! Finalli, I got a understudy and he has nw take over me…. Kool… haha… all my lost items nt my business liao lol…. No lar… cannt like tat, leave my understudy to die… 10 k worth of stores… WAH!!!

Well… my understudy is my section’s veri own cui cui… He is realli cui… all of us tok to him either, he cannt link wif us, nor understand wat we are tryin to do, nor does he knw why we did all those…. He’s frm JC, cannt blame him… but the worst is tat he doesn’t wan to do any work in our office… Even carryin a pile of files, he also find it so hard… Haiz….

No wonder nobody likes him, coz he is nt doin sth productive and he is juz lazin ard the whole dae in the office… Nw might as well do some justice to him… At least there is some responsibilities for him and he will nt end up as a guy who does nth at all…

I guess for sept, I will live my life to the fullest, and also, i will train myself in preparation for the ippt… Haha… Tis is sth I promised myself… I gotta go train lol… or else will end up my physical quite poor…. Furthermore, nw I got a big stomach to swell it dwn…

Nw everythin I do, I always tink… Goin back for bmt recourse, I actualli thot abt it… Guess tat if I keep on escapin, hw mani more times do I haf to escape before I ord??? Might as well, pass for one last time and gif it back to them… Den in the future, i no need to worri so much…

Haha… might as well be like tat, I guess life goes on… So far so good for me, I tink I am realli fortunate le…. nth much which I cannt put dwn except for one girl, one career…. I haf indeed seal tat feelin inside my heart, but nw, I haf to reopen it….

I knw she will be du lan wif me again… but sorrie, girl. I juz wanna sae, tis time, I am prayin for ur safety and wishes u stay fortunate in ur life…. Tats all, realli nth else… Friend, will u forgif me and gif me one more chance to be ur friend??? Please… I am realli tired of nt bein able to tok to u as a friend alreadi…. Please forgif me….

Finalli, I may nt haf any regrets nw… Take care…

Wednesday, 22 August 2007.

I have to admit… I am realli almost late becoz I thot I planned my time wisely, but tink again, I tink I realli planned it wrongly… Ai yo yo… looks like if tmr, I dun leave my hse earli, I will be late…

Tis mornin, even as I left my hse at 6.50am… I took the LRT to Jalan Kayu to take a bus dwn to my camp… Haiz… its alreadi 7.30 am… I was like… huh??? Even as I left my hse before 7am, I still reached the same time… Alamak…

Worse of all… I was readin I weekli tat i missed bus 103… OMG… Once u missed tat bus, you haf to wait for a veri veri long time… Haiz… Bo Bian… have to walk all the wae dwn to my camp… Reachin the camp inside, its alreadi 7.50am…

Heng arhx… I walked very fast, or else, even before 8am, I surely cannt make it for the role call… Phew… Anywae, saw the BRO tat Aug 31st is the AOH (Army Open Hse), eventualli thot tat my off will be eaten again… Phew… Coz Aug 31st tat dae, I am goin back to my sec sch, maybe ITE if possible to visit my teachers… Luckili, my boss sae tat I can go on wif my off… juz tat need to tell my CSM… phew…

Back at work… I helped out flush the OBMs… its the outbound motors which I never had the strength to carry…. So everytime in the past, I will nt bother to even help out in anything…. but after the new life revival… I knw tat as long as I continue to do it positiviely and wif initiative… My life can onli get better…

After lunch… I went back to prepare my store for the ICT tmr… Haiz… tifor jacks gets missin… OMG… haha… its nt the first time my stores went missin anywae… Nt tat I get used to it nor tat I wan to gif up… But I tried to find it back lol… I realli dunno hw or where to find those stores back… but I had to react to all these positively… Be prepared lol…

Late afternoon… was juz quite peaceful for me and my NS mates… we all rested after finishin all our stuffs… Great job everyone… Although still had a long wae to go lar… but keep it up… Ho ho ho… more will be comin….

Anywae, back at home… I had my usual time alone… Tink nw tat bein alone becomes back to my old sheldues of my pasts…. Juz like wat hunk told me on msn todae… Gt time den find the turtles to come out fly kite…. Guess, all of us are realli busy… haha…

Be it for a while, or for times…. Comes these time of period, everything is no longer the same… U probabli juz haf to accept tat all these are happenin and get on wif ur life… Its been like tis in the past… Nth has realli changed except for some time in life…

Guess… tats part of my life too… Part and parcel brins ur journey to somewhere where u dun wan to go… Unexpected, surprisingli…. There are realli a lot of things tat juz keeps on happenin… Time may nt be at ur side either….

Maybe we realli sae nvm… dun care abt it, tink and tink… it juz doesn’t seem rite… So why am I doin and doin sth out of my own will??? For wat??? Its doesn’t even makes sense and I am still at it…. Do i realli had to???

Nw tis realli becomes wat is ur life is meant to be…. A road of hardship and progess frm all ur current efforts…. Its a road where u see, feel n touch wif ur heart and mind…. Sometimes, u may cry, sometimes u laugh… In the end, tis is still a road u haf to get on wif it….

I guess its the wae it is… haha…. 

*** Thanx to all… My blog’s newest series has successfully reached episode 13. I guess this series does nt seem to be realli tat interestin. But to be able to write until episode 13 is nt tat easy as I am quite lackin of ideas… Haha… I hope tat gif it another 17 episodes and hope tat A New Life will be able to brin climate to tis series… Thanx for ur patience… ***