After it ended - Episode 5
Saturday, July 14 2007.
Todae’s episode is definetly high flyin, excitin and something called feelins all spreaded around.
Remember last nite… alrite, its midnight, I slept ard actualli nt 2.15am but its actualli 3 plus am. Definetly I cannt even wake up at 8.30am tis morning. Therefore, I crack my head and out of nowhere, an idea struck me. It told me to send msgs to 3 ppl to ask them to gif me morning call.
Den in my handphone, onli 3 numbers I can tink of…. Elin, Yining and Terence. So ard 2.33am, I sent them the msg askin them for morning call… When I went to sleep, I was tinkin… alrite, since I had 3 ppl to mornin call me, I dun tink I will wake up late even if I tend to switch off my alarm clock after it rang.
MY PHONE RANG…. My eyes opened… wow… 8.15am, and the 1st person to call me is elin… When I picked up the phone… Wat I heard was so sexy, tat it lead me back to slp somehw… although I was like halfway wakin up…. Alamak… Elin’s voice too sexy liao…. Den ard 8.20am, I tink, Yining gaf me a morning call…. Haha… Tis morning call is the best sia… I immediately woke up wifout any hesitation…. At a moment, when she called me, I immediately stumbled to wake up sia…. Her voice was high pitch… and I was energetic…. Haha….
Den a thot came into my mind…. Haha… Yining can realli become NS Officer… The commands tat she gaf will defiently scared a lot of new recruits sia… Haha…. After I woke up … a few minutes later, after my alarm clock rang… The most funniest incident appeared… Terence called me… and yet he sounded more shag den me…. Diaoz…. I was tinkin… he couldn’t be slpin later than me??? and he sounded so shag???
I realli got to salute the girls… I can see tat they slp quite late and yet, they can still wake up earlier than guys… Haha… Especialli her… She went to the movie last nite so tired and she slept quite late… tink upon reachin home… yet, she could wake up tat earli… haha… Its realli nt easi lor…
So after buyin drinks, I took the train and went down straight to Habour Front…. Ok… So, we spent some time ard Vivo City buyin tis and tat… Also, we all spent ard some time waitin for other members to arrive…. Ard 11.30am, all of us finalli went into Sentosa…
Thruout the whole dae in Sentosa… There were activities liked playin volleyball, frisbee, den there was captain ball… They also went inside the water… and I was dragged in… Diaoz… I alreadi told them I had no extra pants and underwear… Haha… So be it, I was dragged into the water in the end…. Well.. for a person who haf nt been swimin for the past 9 yrs… I gt to admit, I almost ran out of breath while tryin to swim frm one end to another… But, all in all, my skill did nt become wasteland… However, in the process, I gt cut by rocks… on my thumb and leg… Diaoz
Nw thruout the whole outings…. we were playin games and eatin and drinkin… My eyes sometimes glance over to her… Sia lar… Why when I wanted to put down this love feelin and be friends wif her and yet, I could still let my eyes stay on her??? Whenever she went, or even when we had closed contact, my eyes will definetly stick to her lor….
Even when one of my guy friend who was tryin to get close to her thru tokin and tryin to impress her in mani waes, i tink… My eyes were like… glued to them… I gotta admit… I was a little bit of jealous…. But tink again… well, its nt realli tat I am her boyfriend… so whom am I to do anything…. anywae, I thot we are juz friends??? Why shld I be so got up wif tat guy friend’s action???
Maybe I dun understand my heart tat easili… My mind kept on strollin awae… Until she left… I never realli had much chance to tok to her…. Nt tat I felt regretted, but shldn’t I be normal and tok more to her??? But tink again… I did communicate wif her den and nw… so why shld I even haf tat kind of stupid tinkin sia???
Nw for the start, onli 3 of my guy friends knws abt I fallin in love wif her… But nw… sia lar… almost all the camp mates knw abt me and her… Well, I did nt realli stop tokin abt it which I felt well, no pt of nt tokin… well, its the past and she alreadi rejected me… So, I felt its natural to juz tell them…
We were den tokin and tokin, den when I told them tat I was remose abt her… All of them speak to me in one tone, tellin me I shldn’t felt tat wae… One of my guy friend was even like… OMG… lecturin in a wae to me… In my mind, I was tinkin… yupz… Wat they sae are rite… But they are nt in my shoes, maybe, tats why they dun understand hw I felt….
So thru the late afternoon, we were like tokin and tokin…. Oh ya… she left ard 5 plus pm, I tink… for a concert… I did haf some feelins in my heart, tellin me tat I felt regret since she’s leavin… but my mind tells me… so be it if she’s leavin, you dun haf the rite to stop her anywae….
For the preparation to the dinner tat part, I dun tink its interestin coz its juz bathin, restin on the bus and tokin other topics… Nw the interestin part came durin dinner time… Ok, one of my guy friends appeared for dinner… Haha… tat’s gd… coz he treated all of us desert after meal….
Aniwae, tats nt the main pt… The main pt is, after dinner, we were tokin and tokin… So they started to ask abt all the rumours, discussin here and there… Out of nowhere, they juz pop on me and ask me abt my relationship wif her… I merely briefly told them tat well… I alreadi got rejected and its tat she rejected 2 daes ago when she knew tat I fall in love wif her…. Sia lar… Thankfulli, one of my guy friend stop ppl from further probin abt the whole story, or else, I probabli will cry somehw….
So on my journey back home…. They all seem thru my eyes… Knwin tat I was again tinkin of wat has happened… Haha… One of the guy friend keeps on tryin to consul me… Actualli, they juz told me abt it… tat I wasn’t in the wrong and tellin me tat dun tink abt it alreadi… I knw I shldn’t, but somehw when the thots appeared, I cannt stop it frm tinkin….
I was tinkin… well… Maybe she said all tat is juz to tell me tat she didn’t haf feelins for me and neither was I her man of her dreams??? But if she could haf told me straight into my face tat I do nt like u or I am nt even ur guy tat u wld haf feelins for…. Maybe, i wld be heart dead to the max…. But tink again… Wats the whole pt either??? I wld onli feel sad…
Finalli, I tink tat if I never let her realised tat I fall in love wif her, wld she rmb abt her past relationship??? I am still feelin too remose towards her and to me, I felt tat I could haf done sth to make it up for her…. But all my camp mates juz told me, its nt my fault, its nt tat I shld haf done sth for her… she’s juz tryin to tell me onli… I was den tinkin… Well… if onli they are in my shoe…. They will understand… But nw, so be it…
Too tired nw to let my mind goes on… I dun even knw wat to write on… Tired…
Tmr’s may the better dae came by….
