After it ended : Before it Began 1.0
Back from Y Camp Challenge Jun 2007
Hey Hey…. I am back postin after abt 2 mths….
Tis 2 mths, I was fallen to deep space… Hopes ended for everythin…. sad….
Tis 2 mths is juz like HELL for me….
aniwae, 2 mths of sadness came to an end after goin to my recent y camp.
Jun 07’s y camp was my 3rd…. yupz… my 3rd…. veri interestin indeed…
There r a lot of tings i wanted to sae…. but too much to sae…. haha…. anywae, in tis y camp, i learnt a lot frm other volunteers, frm my beneficiaries….
Responsibilities is the word…. anywae, for tis camp, i had 4 objectives.
1) To help the volunteers ard me.
2) To help my beneficiaries as much as possible
3) To make as mani new friends as possible
4) To help ard the camp as much as possible.
For these 4, i had the confidence to sae, I completed all 4 objectives… so its fruitful for me in tis camp. Although never had my beneficiary made me so tired, but its the word responsibility tat make me learnt alot of life lessons…
After tis camp, i promised myself to change my attitude, behaviour and characteristic. For the sake of someone, me and my famili. I will CHANGED.
Tokin abt tis camp, it also made me realised sth in life. Sth tat made me fallen almost to my death for mths, gave me new hopes again.
Its abt love relationship. Someone actualli gave me new hopes. For those who knw, juz keep quiet bah. Hm… well, she is special in my eyes … haha…
well, yesh, i did nt haf ani confidence in the last few mths, even nt believin it anymore, coz it hurts me too deep. My heart was flowin wif blood… tears flowin dried. But it was her who made me had the courage to be confident again.
It is realli her tat, i began to smile after 2 mths. It is her tat I began to pick up my shattered parts of my fallen self once again. Its her who made me wanted to change for the better.
Why do i wanted to believe in love again? I had thot of it for daes. She and I are a lot different. She and I are juz like heaven n earth… Too much of a gap. So be it if I were nt the guy of her dream, so be it if i were to fallen dwn again, so be it if i were to be shattered again.
Its her who made me to haf the confidence again. I had thot to myself… Tis may be my last time realli fall in love wif her. So be it, if i dun haf any chance at all.
But she let me believe in sth. Never let myself regret.
I truly never wan to regret anymore. Thanks to her, I haf decided to regain my fallen self AGAIN.
anywae, guys out there. all those who helped me when i was down in the past, i thank all of u. I am back to normal wif some hurt in me, but the smile of HER helped me step by step back to normal AGAIN. thanx.
