Chris Adventures 4 - Episode 19
Welcome a new month…
A new month and here it is… Its September….
How I wished I could grab hold of so many chances… Never to let it go off… but I juz couldn’t, becoz… I can’t…
I knew my chances with aloy is gettin lesser and lesser… but I do not realli want to do anything… Its better to be in this wae than to let her scared of me and avoid me….
Den knowing rachel… its great… she’s an angel… but there is nothing I can do anywae… coz I am afraid… I believe to love her by fulfilling her wishes and to helped her in watever wae I can is wat I shld do now… I cannot sae wat will happen between bth of us… I am nt expectin anythin either… coz… its better to be this wae…
Never knew life can be like that… Love is also the same… for me… aloy did not gave me any hope, but she and I did have our moments together… Now, its probabli rachel… but too bad, she is graduating soon… Is this an ending or is this a beginning??? I realli dunno…
MAYBE for me… I can hardly communicate to ppl… not to sae the girls I liked… like for serene, I did tried… 2 times of more… but failed… “When u tell the other person u liked her, but u did not do anything for her…. How will u be able to touch her?”
Probably this is the best solution for me…. WAIT….
I thought life has been a easier for me… CCAs… are not that good… after the holidaes… its back to my busy schedule and more things to do… For student council… my chairman went missing… WHERE IS NELITA ??? This is a question for me to know, for she to answer…. Now the whole committee, I have to take charge… its realli not easy… especially u have attitute members like ming jie and joshua… but they are couple ar… so if u can tok thru one, than the other is not a problem….
Sometimes, communication is more important than anything in life… If the one who are following you, knows what u want and follow u… den ur problems will be all solved…
BUT… as u wonder where the problem came from, U suddenly will nt know… Like suddenly, Faisal saw the missing of Nelita, he wanted me to take over… But I sae onli for temporary… coz, its never fair for me to take over her place… and I always believe in her leadership… THATS WHY NELTA IS MY CHAIRMAN…. and she will always be….
Teacher’s dae was juz yesterdae… I went back with nash to secondary school… saw onli some of my school mates went back… others were juz missing… SAD… met Mr Halim (aka The Rock) coz… he juz looks like one… and my maths teacher, Ms. Ang… glad to still see her… hm… she has more white hair….
She seems quite happie to knw that nash and me are having a bright future and nice time in Poly and ITE… she is also proud of bth of our acheievements … I am glad that if nt for her, my maths will get F9 and not D7 in O level… tats quite a difficult time for me in sec 5, but she helped me a lot…
We interacted for quite a long time… a question keeps bothering me from Ms. Ang is…. WHY DID THE COUNCIL CHOSE ME AS AN EXCO??? …. its indeed bothering… but if nobody believed u, will u be in, I doubt it… maybe this is the reason, I am chosen into the top 15… becoz, ppl believed in me…
Project Superstar has ended… Kelvin Tan won against Kelly Poon… well, both are my fav. idol, and I support bth… I dun think there is anything wrong with who winning… Whoever wins, media will still tok abt it… there is never a happie ending in any competition, media alwayz wanted news, but never thot will tat hurt the ppl involved…
The public have to be responsible either… if their fav. superstar lost, they blame others… but have they thot if they wanted that particular person to win… Action is more important than anything, so did u vote to make it happen??? Before u blame anyone… please think….
Kelvin’s miracle win only proves to me one thing… Never give up your dreams and hopes… Why blame a person who has disabilities??? I juz dun get it… yesh, there may be some sympatize… but if u vote for other contestants… den wat will the public reply ??? wat will the media sae??? still this things keeps on happening…. why???
Finally, came to the home visit todae… nice one… interaction with the elderlys… anywae… took over chi chiang in his grps… well, givin me chance to see more of rachel… but no action taken…
Its best to be in this wae…. I suppose….
Finalli, I will pray for u all @ nite…. whether its aloy, yu fang, rachel, stella, hui ting (bth), ah li, serene … thanks for all the things we had been thru together…
cya next time…
