CHRIS @ WORLD

all these yrs…. I have tried to calm myself down…. whenever, bad things happen to me…. I always get angri…. Well, angri and slowli become frustrated….. I dunno why, but, maybe, its become one of the deadlock…. cannot change….

Went home and saw this e-mail frm hui ting, the girl I luv… ( well, this is no longer a secret le…. cause some big mouth in my class leak out the secret…. ) Oh ya, the e-mail…. she sent me this e-mail and makes me feel quite touch…. Dunno its by conincedence, aniway, thanks to her…. I felt better now. BUT this is a deadlock, I cant change tat, but will try to control myself….. cause this onli happens the 2nd time in class….. NOT everitime, I will be angrie hor….

Back to the past, I had mostach and always wanted long hair, BUT on thursdae I changed… Cut my hair and make it short, mostach shave…

Which means …. A New Me….

For my work, everithin seems so gd and fine…. Still continuin my winnin streak in my work…. Which means have yet to fail and test yet… Gd thing….

As for love, I have not give up on tat girl but will have to if this month I still cannot win her heart…. Let’s hope…..

Well, there is s specific reason for tat. I have tried to concentrate on my studies and careers, however, who would have thought tat its so easy to go on n try out the best way to be successful….. No one can, and on body reallli can….

I tried my best, but it doesn’t seem so easy…. Sigh….

As for the girl I luv….. So sad, so sad…. I juz can’t forget her…. Who would have thought being friends r so easy…. I realise tat I cannot lose her…. Why can I do…. kaozzz…

Anyway, can we realli still be friends? I actualli wanted to call her tonite, ask her how is she, ask her mani things and tok to her…. BUT, I realise I do not have the courage to do tat… WHY ????

Yesterdae, was quite peaceful to me…. Yes, quiet and peaceful….

I was writing a my 2nd series of Forever Senior, well, crack my head and did not know how to continue… Well, actually, I have completed till episode 23…. My plan for this series 2 is to write till episode 40 ( hm… didn’t I told u tat series starts from episode 21 )

Anyway, I promise myself tat career and studies r in the 1st place… BUT my test is on MONDAE…. Kaozzz

This week is a veri busy week for me…. I went back to my sec sch to settle some unfinished business and yes… Its time to end wat I started…. Ha ha

I am not tat evil la….

Todae, went back to ITE…. sigh, earli in the morning… kaozzz…. Went for Student Consillor Interview…. I juz speak wat I think…. Wat a dae….

Todae thought a lot…. as everyone has 2 side, I believe tat I have a sub conscious…. I den realise I am goin to be 18 yrs old in 2 mths time… Woo Hoo… To me, 18 yrs old is veri impt…. BUT not tat I can drink beer or smoke…. It means its time to strive hard in my studies and career….

As for luv…. No more, cause I have decided to luv onli one girl and tat girl although rejected me, but I will still luv her… as for the other girl… I will nt even think of anyone except tat girl who I luv le….

Let’s tok abt this mornin ( or shld u sae afternoon ), I went back to Tampines to visit one of my old friend, Christina… Well, as usual, she did not trim herself down and was still fat as usual …. However, she was so busi tat we do nt even have time to tok more to each other….

Maybe… Maybe…. Next time we will tok more….

Anyway, later @ nite…. the girl whom I tok to yesterdae ( I knew her for mths of course ) tok to me tonite again and ….. we tok for 4 hours !!! -_- , HOWEVER, she and I became like havin a feelin for each other or somethin…. Well, I dunno, I dun even dare to think…

CAUSE THIS MAY BE JUZ ONE SIDED LUV…. We’ll c for time to time on wat happens….

Anyway, one of my another friend tok to me tonite on msn which was quite a surprise cause for 1 wk, we have been quite busi ba… Tonite, she read my blog BUT to my sudden, she told me tat its nt gd to like 2 girls @ one time, I joked wif her @ 1st, but I came to a point when I agree wif wat she said…. BUT, she sure dunno sth…. Hee ( WILL NT SAE WAT IT IS DE )

Frm the morning, I thought of watching TV but then, the biggest TV in my livin rm went dead on images… WTF, I have to watch the subt. TV, the small TV in my parents bedroom, and wats the solution for all this problem…. Kaozzz, its to bring tat TV to the livin rm and sell away tat spoil TV without repairin…

Den late @ nite, one of my friends called me, and we chat frm 7pm plus to 10 pm plus…. I tried to console her most of the time lol, but she is still feelin sad and down….

Well, firstly, I got to sae I have bad luck in my luv life and I can tel u, I always will do. Dunno why, yesterdae nite was one of the time when I got rejected and well ( who ever the girl is no longer impt, we have agreed to be friends le )

Anyway, tokin to Fabian todae seems like he is veri sianzz… Well, he sianz, I also sianz, he is broke but he still manage to hand on in life… After tokin to him, he seems quite ok…. Hee I can be a veri gd listener and advisor to any problems….

Well, watchin Singapore Music Awards 2004 while I typed, a great show, ratings shld be A+++++ . This show has almost all my fav singers and grps, its a show I will not miss every year… Also, this show is fair in givin out all awards, keep up the gd work ba….

Finalli todae is a veri happie dae for me. It is the begining of the school holidae…. Woo Hoo…

Todae didn’t get any better for me…. Sad as usual, no much mood to tok to any ppl…. I am always like tat when school holidae reaches….

Sigh, Wat have I done??? Kimberli seems to have read my blog and are beginnin to ask who I like in my class… However, thanks to Fabain ar… Friend Friend…. But it seems like there r all sorts of wild guesses… Ha ha, Shermei, Wai Ting or Li Fen ??? Duh…. I can onli sae any of the girls in my class could be the one I like…. ( I WILL NOT SAE WHO IS SHE DE )

Torture myself again… one plate of vegetabl rice, one bowl of mushroom meat noodle and one plate of chicken rice…. Kaoz, WTH and WTF am I doin????

After school seems borin, waited and slept thru the dae…. Went to Interact Club’s orientation …. Den went home… Wat a BORIN dae…

Speaking of that, todae a gang fight almost started…. Woah !!! Ha ha, but its like my class is never at the wrong lor… How it started… Well, speaking of the truth, during 1/2 way thru the soccer match with tat bastard class KC, suddenly, one of my friend Ping Nam or Shawn, dunno is it he played too rough, den tat fat bastard became fierce…. Den Shawn tok to him in quite nice way, den tat fat bastard still not comforatble, den continue to say… After tat Ping Nam came in and interferce… den… A punch flew out, both parties broke out almost into a fight… Woah, luckilli for all the classmates, we tried and push the 2 angry guys aside, or else, it will be realli a gang fight… den u will see ppl fightin here and there… Ha ha…

Well, speakin back to me again… Sigh I torture myself like yesterdae again…. Durin the break, I ate one big plate of vegetable rice, one bowl of macaroni, one bowl of lor mee and one plate of chicken chop and french fries…. WTH !!! Oh SHIT…. Why did I eat so mani again??? $ 10 become until $ 2 plus left….

Sigh…. I promise yesterdae to one of my close friend tat I will not be sad !!! BUT still… sigh… Who can realli understand me … boo hoo hoo… Why ??? Why ???

Ai yoh…. the secret is out… One of my friend who read my blog knew who the 2 girls I like are ( hm…. I can onli sae one of the girl is who I know recentli lor, hm… if u know who u r, dun ask me hor… I will not sae its u de… As for the other one, I can sae she is in my class… but who is it??? Hee, whoever u sae, I will also not sae out the truth )

Anyway, watever it is, unless I have met with accident, OH SHIT…. touch wood, touch wood, den I will sae who they are lor… )