Nevertheless, I am going to move on to a new blog… Below is the address….
http://www.alivenotdead.com/wenwemx08Till then, See Yah….
Its been 2 wks since I wrote anithing on the blog… haha… Aniwae, after tokin to ah xuan yst… yupz, she’s back in singapore for a short while… So, well, wanted to spice things up as requested by ah xuan arhx… hahaha….
Aniwae, hm… how shld I spice things up??? Well… lets see… ah xuan and tis and ta and tis and tis in a love square??? Woah….
Keke… for the serious stuff nw… Hm… the Uni Y paintin wif APSN was completed last wk… yesh… I managed to complete 3 pictures wif my buddy, YJ… Kool… Also, if u looked at the 3 pictures together, you will realised tat it becomes a story… Woah, I realli gotta sae my buddy is veri talented… juz like me arhx… haha…
Aniwae, on 25th of aug, there will be the finale for tis paintin project… yeah… trust me, I will be there…. Haha… Ooh, juz tat I may nt be goin there earli le… See hw larx….
Wat else arhx??? On sundae where singapore are playin for the olympic gold medal in the table tennis final… I am havin a recee wif my team at the turtle museum… Aniwae, project d, the theory I am usin, is a success… I can see some difference in the way hw my team is workin frm the past and hw my team is workin nw… Its a big difference, I also realised tat I am able to help my teammates to develop into a different stage….
Aniwae, singapore got a silver in table tennis final… Its a team game though… Oh yar, project d is my final attempt to create a new workin method for the leaders and also a new workin style for the leaders. Its actualli a make or break for me, if I fail this time, I may nt be able to be a good leader ani more. Also, I decided to use tis chance to test my abiliti for one last time…
Currentli there’s a slight dent towards the project d cause unexpected scenerio happened… But I believe everithing will be goin out fine…. Nt a problem ehx… I am more of like hated my performances for todae, tinkin tat I haf nt done well….
Ya, before I went to the recee, I went wif C to the career fair… nt realli where I thot I can get a job at there coz most of it is issurance agent or properti agent… other than tat its mostli on education side where there are courses… There’s still starbucks but I am afraid tat when I got a job in ymca, I dun haf the time to work in starbucks lehx…..
N yupz… I got a job in ymca le… Thanx to terence tat I got the job. Workin part time nw, and yar, at least I am able to work at some place which I am interested to… Alrite from tmr onwards, I am workin at ymca lorx….
But aniwae, I went back to my secondary sch for a reunion dinner… ack… it cost 40 dollars woah… but the food was gd larx… nt realli sae bad… hwever the whole program was nt at the best, I sort of like nt interested as the performances put in by band, chior was nt to my likin….
Actualli, the best for me at tis reunion dinner was tat I am able to tok to one of my fav teacher in sec sch…. ms. ang… haha… she’s still tokin veri straight forward like she does… haha….
Sigh, onli a slight dissapointment, didnt see my other classmates and sch mates there… even my form teacher of sec sch wasnt there…. haiz… But well, there’s still teachers’ dae to come… hee hee….
Nw comin back to my sep apsn outin… Actualli most of the plannin part is done… woo hoo… but hor, serene toh’s droppin out of the committee is somethin I never realli planned for… But well, changes will always happened n its un aviodable….
The recee is set and next sundae, I am sure we all will be havin some gd and tough times at chinese garden… Coz, I am nw usin a theory module to help myself improve my leadership and also helpin my committee members to breakthrough frm wat they usualli does….
I realli hope my theory will be proven a rite one…. hmx…
Normalli, a saturdae is used for Y outings… But somehw, tis saturdae is used for Singapore Garden Festival… Hm… I went for the familiarisation tour, but didn’t get the chance to use wat I learnt at the tour aniwae…. Well, I reached there ard 8 plus am…. after waitin for instructions and briefings, I begin my dae as a show marshaller….
Actualli its quite borin larx… coz wat I haf to do is to move ard, makin sure the crowd are nt crowdin ard…. But somehw frm wat I can see, there’s no big and messy crowds…. Aniwae, met the APSN outin grp lead by yiwei…. wah, so touched…. some volunteers and beneficiairies still rmbs me even though wif my coulor changed hair??? coolz….
Den marshallin till ard 12 plus pm, one of the IC, mark told me to go for my lunch and den c ome back to be at infomation counter…. Yeah… No need to walk ard liao, can sit lorx…. hahaha…. Arghx, but lookin at my bank acct after passin by an atm, makes me doesn’t even knw hw long I can survive wifout a job….
In the end, I was poor until onli able to get one stick of sausage and one stick of fishballs…. OMG…. After I went back, I began my last few hrs of shift, usin my cheerfulness and prolite smiles to attract the ppl to the information counter to buy the show booklet…. wahahahaha….
I end ard my shift at 4pm…. den went home…. Hm… tokin back abt this garden festival, the beautiful flowers and gardens is certainli the most attractive…. Esp. the gardens…. different designs shows hw much efforts each designers put in… I was realli glad I was there….
It will be back in 2010…. I am sure, the attractions will den be back again….
Aniwae, comin back…. These few daes, I haf been watchin the anime, INITIAL D… woo hoo…. till yesterdae, I haf finished till the 4th series, episode 7 le…. Nw, why did I specialli wan to mention abt this anime…. One of the reason is becoz of the driftin part done by takumi, the main character…
OMG… if you knw tis veri veri veri old model car, called AE86, u will certainli wonder hw the heck, takumi can drift wif such an old model car…. aniwae, he wins all his opponent, except one time, when his car engine blasted in a battle…. But the new AE86 is definetli better nw as shown tat in series 3 and in series 4, where takumi joined Project D, a team formed by ryosukue…. the 3rd new AE86, is definetli better….
Hm… nw wats the 2nd reason for mentionin tis anime… If you realli look into the story part, there will be times takumi said tis phrase : “No matter hw fast your opponent’s car is, you never try and you will never knw the result.” I seriousli like tis phrase… Coz if you put it into your daily life, den it will be : No matter hw difficult each situation is, you never try and you will never knw the outcome.
I guessed its hard, but when you keep on tryin, you will be able to change everi situation ard…..
Juz 2 daes ago, I read a book on love relationships, den I came to a paragraph sayin to leave my past behind…. After reading it, I suddenli was havin deep thots abt it….
Nw, if you wan to move into a new and healthy relationship, you definetli haf to find a place and store all the baggage you r carryin frm the past…. Tis sentence gifs me a veri impt tinkin coz when you haf a baggage, the potential woman in ur life also haf a load of her own and in fact women probabli haf even more baggage than men….
As I keep tinkin and readin, I suddenli realised tat I didn’t even find a place to store all my baggage of my past…. Tats no big wonder, coz after bein hurt, there’s a ‘refuses to trust the next’ reaction…. I guessed I was bein hurt too mani times, but I totalli cannt blame ani woman at all… well, as I always believe in a relationship wise, bth man and woman plays a part… so, its up to whether bth hands wans to clap together….
But nw, I totalli understand, if I cannt fulli open my heart to trust, I will never go far in aniwae….
Aniwae, tis nature walk is for coporate’s one wif APSN…. wif roger, victor and me, we formed the log team…. woo hoo…. Aniwae, after a briefin at 10am wif eileen, the 3 of us went straight to APSN….
At there, we took some pics of the garden at APSN…. its beautiful leh…. I can still rmb the times I made a garden at my sec sch, it didnt came out so successful at all…. Aniwae, the program went on after the rest of the leaders and the volunteers came…. So its work after rest, den work…. hahaha…. the most funniest thing is probabli roger, victor and me singin so loud while the rest of them r doin icebreakin games….
Aniwae, after lunch, we 3 went back to ymca to take the rest of the snacks and drinks…. We left ymca ard 1 plus pm, victor was the one drivin, so before we went to fetch eileen, we had some men’s talk… woo… will nt tell u the details though…. Aniwae, when we finalli found eileen somewhere before the Hort Park, we had to rearrange the stuffs in the car so tat roger and me had space to sit…..
The day ended, wif phillips takin back all the uneaten snacks at APSN, while the rest of them gone back, I was waitin for victor to gf me a free ride home lorx… haha… nt exactli lar, juz tat I was also waitin for eileen to sort out the things she wanted, so tat the stuffs will nt be lyin ard…..
I ended my dae back at home doin evaluation forms ppt slide for eileen…. though its seems like nt my business at all, but juz help out lorx…. aniwae, finished it in one nite and e-mailed her….
It may seem serious when I mention problems…. but its nt anithing big at all lar…. The thing is tat my buddy at metta sch, is veri bright…. N his language and maths are at the highest lvl…. so when I go thru his bk, he totalli understands everithing, even if he doesn’t, you juz tell him once, he will understand it….
Therefore, I changed the strategy in coachin him… Instead of juz sticking onto his bks, I gave him a one page compo, 250 words of compo as homework…. Tats for language onli…. As I still dunno his maths understanding, though its said to be a lvl quite high, I gaf him some problem solving questions and some multiples, 5 digits addin, times, minus and division qns….
Tink the next time, haf to use pri 6 em2 /3 (is there still an em3?)’s qns to teach him le…..
Aniwae, while goin hme…. thanxfulli nt alone, coz sok wai live on the same line wif me…. yupz, we bth r frm NEL. so we had some chattin session. Well, by interactin wif someone, you get to understand hw has the person been…. N I did…. Well, due to some problems wif her com, tats why sok wai did nt even came online at all….
Arhx…. becoz of her com, I had to wait like one wk, den I can speak wif her abt the oct’s apsn outin tingy…. and its confirmed, she’s my 2nd grp leader, besides serene toh…. Hm… so who r the other 2 grp leaders leh??? I realli dunno who I shld find, coz my list of leaders r a bit long liao…..
19 July 2008
Another dae of Y confidence…. Nw wat did I told u…. I left my hse too earli liao…. 6.30am…. its juz like the times I am in NS, left my hse tat time…. N wat… I reached SHINES at 7.40am???? diaoz….
Tis session is gd…. lettin the BBBH boys goin thru wat we had done over last wk in the low elements…. Frm the tokin wif my buddy, I feel tat he has a veri interestin life…. Yeah, definelti…. But somehw, I felt tat his attention span towards the elements are a bit short and tense, when debrief, he will do his own things….
But I seriousli can feel his involvement, and tats why I dare to say he’s improvin…. No freat…. coz its onli the 1st session together wif him, I still haf a long way more….. I am sure, he will make a big difference after tis Y confidence…. Aniwae, had my 1st time doin debrief wifout even bein notified before-hand…. Its a gd one, juz tat wifout preparation, the debrief lack ideas and powers…..
Coz for debrief, when u prepared before-hand on wat to sae, u will at least had the idea of like able to discuss with the team in the manner tat ur qns will be sth to let them ponder abt…. hahaha… I am still nt veri gd at debrief larx… but well, can sae need sth more to let me become better….. Aniwae, tat debrief which I did at y confidence lack depth, I juz tink of wat and ask wat…. moreover, wif no conclusion, I will need to tink abt it again on hw I can improve lorx….
Aniwae, onli one small unhappiness happened durin the y confidence…. well, seriousli eileen’s rule of stickin to ur buddy seems onli workable wif the ID beneficiairies…. as for the BBBH boys, u will need to gif them freedom and respect at times, they r guys, and if u treat them like a small kid, followin them ard, hw do u wan them to trust us???? tats why I didn’t follow them towards the toilet durin lunch time….. N wif a ’so wat’ frm eileen, I didn’t even bother to keep on explaninin to eileen liao…. coz I was seriousli no in the mood animore to explain tings and even durin the volunteers debrief, I dun even wan to speak up liao….
Nt realli of angry or wat larx…. after all, I realli respect eileen and therefore wat she sae gt reason one…. Moreover, I enjoyed the times I had wif my buddy, why will I even be angry???? hahah… juz tat I too shag liao…. coz thurs is nature walk, fri is y metta reading, den todae is y confidence….. Wah…. I superman woah….. So if u tink I can still explain things more…. den pls, do it for me…. haha….
Aniwae, actualli I had been lookin at ning’s blog tis few days… yupz there’s indeed one qns to ponder… who’s the mentor tat influences you…. Hm… I haf some mani mentors in the past, but currentli there are onli one who influences me alot lorx…. Shall keep her identity secret till the end…. hahaha…. Actualli, I haf been mentionin her for quite some time in my blog liao… but for her name, I dun tink its time to tell anione, unless u ask me personalli larx….
After the Y confidence, I went to orchard to meet yiliang, ah kar aka christabelle, and val… we had some slackin session for the rest of the daes…. So frm walkin in taka findin presents for val’s bf, to eatin ice creams at dempsey’s ben & jelly’s, we den went to holland V for a dinner at subway…..
Its still ok lar… coz thruout the whole dae, we juz keep on chattin and chattin…. until its ard 10 plus pm, I sat on the same bus wif val as I am goin to hougang to take a bus back home…..
Ok…. nw, I hadn’t been restin on sunday at all…. which 20 July…. The whole afernoon, I had a talk wif one of my old sec sch friends as he wans me to go back to network marketin… sianz… I long time never go back liao and moreover I doin so well, outside, so askin me to go back seems wrong lehx….
Aniwae, I did told him to tell his manager, a guy whom I took into network marketin yrs ago, to haf another session wif me, coz I was rushin for time after tat…. so see hw larx…. After all, if I will to go back, I do wan to go back highli…. But part of tat is tat, I haf another friend who is knowlegeable abt network marketin, so goin back, I will seek his advice 1st….
Den on sunday nite, after dinner wif my bro, rave, I was alone larx…. so I msg C ( yupz…. name her as C.), den see if she wans meet me lorx… N she does larx, so we went to haf a chit chat session at mac till 11 plus pm, den sent her home….
Nw… hw am I wonderin to myself, where am I able to find so much free time to do volunteerin work on fridaes…. But somehw tinkin after 2010 dec, I am not continuin to do volunteerin work le… why nt nw do more???? Tats why I joined the y reading club @ metta sch…..
Tis y readin club is different frm the y readin club @ SCAS…. At scas, u r concentratin on playin games and readin stories to the buddies, but at metta sch, you will need to help the buddies to improve their grades…. Tats why I find it so meaninful and tats why I wanted to help them improve in the comin exams….
I guess at the start its nt easy to juz tok to my buddy as I needed some time to warm up, but as time goes on, we are chattin and chattin…. I realli find it great coz I am able to understand wat he’s doin…. I guessed its alreadi some great leap in me in my skills in volunteerin work….
For the next few y readin sessions, I will be doin my best to see hw much I can help him improve his english…. I guess its abt time to use my skills in volunteerin and skills of life to help myself improve in areas i am weak, like nt tokin much??? Nt intitiative enugh????
Haha…. hw surprised am I to find siok wai, a interact club members alone in tis program…. After a chit chat session on the way hme wif her, I am interested to put her as my grp leader for the y apsn outin in oct…. U knw wat realli made me to do tat??? Its her courage to come out of interact club and do volunteerin work alone in ymca…. She somehw reminds me of hw I start goin for outins alone in 2007… I didn’t go to any of the outins or activities wif anyone, I juz joined in myself….
N sok wai is someone who can chat wif u almost anything…. I truli believe tat is one great qualities a leader shld haf…. Will tok to her next wk to see wat’s her view to become one of my grp leaders…..
12 July 2008
Juz one dae after seein eileen, I saw her the next dae…. sigh…. hahahahaha…. juz kiddin larx…..
Ok, u can ignore the 1st line actualli…. Aniwae, I went for the y confidence trainin and tis program is a program which let me RETRAIN, REDO N RELEARN my volunteerin and leadership skills…..
Perhaps its been yrs tat I forgotten hw I started it all…. After servin as a volunteer and volunteer leader for such a long time, I guessed I haf forgotten the happie self when I first started as a volunteer and the courage and initiative self when I first became a volunteer leader…..
Y confidence is definetli a program I found back the first of a volunteer in me and the first of a volunteer leader in me…. N to my surprise, becoz of tis refound of all the first, I was happily enjoyin everi moment in y confidence…. Nt even a sign of disappointment of nt becomin one of the leaders in tis program…..
It was also tis program tat made me leap forward of my skills of volunteerin and leadership in the past tat I had…. RETRAIN, REDO N RELEARN helped me to get in touch and communicate more wif the other volunteers, takin initiative in any things more than I ever did these few yrs…. Since like I had onli ever did those when I first started out as a leader in 2001…. Den slowli, I never did tat….
My skills of volunteerin stop for some time, den new skills comes in and it juz went on…. But tis time round at y readin @ metta sch and y confidence, I haf to RETRAIN, REDO N RELEARN everi thing tat I knw and to use my experience to help my buddies whom I never gt in touch wif before……
I seriousli believe I will be a better volunteer and volunteer leader after tis 2 programs ended…. RETRAIN, REDO N RELEARN is realli a great thing…. This experience will let me knw hw much can I improve frm the skills I alreadi had…..
Ok… nw, juz wanted to sae thanx to my mentor…. hehe…. Ooh… If ani one who saw tis post is interested to become one of my apsn leaders for oct outin, do contact me, k??? I currentli haf serene toh, sok wai is nt confirm, but will be tokin to her on comin fri…. So will need 2 more??? haha….Nw, earli in the mornin at 8am SHARP…. I reached Pasir Ris Mrt stn… Coz its my 1st time as a leader of MINDS outin… woo hoo… Aniwae, after some serious remindal frm my mentor, I guessed its abt time I shld changed my habits of bein late for outins… N I will keep tis up as long as I can….
8.30am, ning was earli than my other comm members… I actualli dunno why she came so earli also…. But well, I dunno wat to tok to her either… Its nt realli easy for me to change overnite lar… I mean, to go over to all the volunteers n say : “hey, hw are you?” I seriousli needed some warmup lor…. Aniwae, I was busy dryin my bag as water frm my water bottle spilt out…. Ok, but after as more volunteers come, I did some interaction, which I cld sae is a breakthru lar….
Hm… for the whole outin, I guessed my performance as a leader was juz a good…. Nt realli the best, coz I haf still alot more to improve on… I guessed tis outin, the pts tat I set for the volunteers were met, so seriousli, they haf done well… But I gotta remind myself, I was never doin the best job as a leader. My performance still needs a lot of improvement…. Guessed my mentor said correctli….
Aniwae, I hoped tat tis start of a good performance for tis outin will brin in better performance for ani outins….
After debriefin session wif the grp…. Everione got together to celebrate ning’s birthdae… Haha…. wat a chaotic times it is, as she is smashed wif her cake…. Hahaha…. Ok… I didn’t did much to help her either and I got my retribution…. I was juz standin at a corner and while she was chasin after someone else, she juz came beside me and smashed me wif her handful of cake… OMG…. Thank god tat I will be changin my clothin before I go to after glow…..
I left after the comm debriefin and went straight for home to change…. Its time for After Glow….
I did manage to come juz a little bit late…. Hm… tis after glow is a bit different frm the past post camp gatherin I attended… Eileen had tis ice breaker game, disaster for all of us to play lar… o_O … hahaha… but seriousli, I guessed its gd as volunteers frm each sub camps are abled to mix ard….
Den lookin at the camp video, I was tinkin abt alot…. 5 y camps alreadi…. Woah…. Hw did I managed to continue for so long??? I seriousli dunno…. Juz as all my past camp mates, onli like ning, terence, daniel, huda, ai jia, jinng yi, arnold, enard, alicia and huijing came back more than once, I guessed huijing, alicia and me came back the most…. But tink back all the hardship I went thru as a volunteer in tis camp, all the busy times in the log team and the haeadache and larah times I had as a programmer, I guessed all is worth it….
I made a promise to myself tat y camp dec 2010 will be my last one… If I can continue till den, I will be able to go thru 10 y camps… N more realisticalli, I haf to tink of wat roles do I actualli suit more… so I actualli haf requested eileen to put me back into the log team and nowhere else…. Seriousli, tis is nt juz out of the blues tingy, but more of after I tink thru carefulli…..
Hearin ppl tokin abt their reflections abt the camp, I was seriousli touched… especialli when ning came out to sae abt hers, I was inspired by wat she sae…. Frm 1999 till nw, I haf been doin 8 yrs of volunteerin work, at times when I was abt to gif up, it was the ppl whom I had work wif bear wif me all my tempers and mani other unreasonable requests to do mani stuff, tat I had the confidence to keep on goin…. Nw wif a mentor guidin me, I am realli glad she did….
After hearin frm wat ning said, I will wan to continue till dec 2010 wif ymca…. After tinkin realli hard, I realised tat nth is more impt when you actualli put all ur heart in to help the ppl whom you wanted to help…. More imptli is tat, you are able to gif as much of ur love and concern to the ppl ard you….
The after glows ended in a huge laughter wif the funnie videos yinghui made…. Hahaha….
Den, some of us proceed to timbre for some chillin out session… I had to sae I lost all my image when after drinkin 3 full cups of bacardi plus mixer, I vomited… OMG…. N wats worse, infront of my gd friend, ning…. diaoz…. o_O”" … wah lew…. sigh…. After the 2nd time I vomited, justin and jerome, n tink ying hui helped me out to let me take a cab home… thanx to them….
Argh…. tat nite I had a freakin headache after drinkin tat much… OMG…. though the food is nice lar…..
July 06 2008
Kool…. yeah… I managed to wake up at 9am, despite of drunken state…. haha… Aniwae, I went online to surf till 3pm and left home… I am goin to val’s surprise birthdae parti….
I reached east coast park at ard 5pm… Ok, nt becoz tat I was late, I managed to take a bus and reached the park at 4pm, but walkin frm carpark E3 to C1, it took me nearli 1 hr…. OMG…. When I reached there, I was like…. shag…. realli shag….
After chillin and tokin for a while, yiliang and tiying appeared ard 5.30pm… wif lots of stuff…. Aniwae, we managed to juz stand ard and tok and tok and tok till val came lar…. Ok, at the start, its onli juz food and one small birthdae cake lor… Wats fun is tat val had a big box of present for her…. woah….
Aniwae, the food was nice… but I seriousli cannt eat too much, after vomitin too much yst…. I also drank ard 3 cups of coke and changed to green tea…. Den, had some small chit chattin session wif yiwei… gd to knw tat he’s also in y confidence…. haha… he’s camp commander for dec 08’s y camp, so he had to be there….
It will be a challengin y confidence lorx…. N I hoped I can do my veri best in y confidence…. Also heard tat val will be in dec 08’s y camp as sub camp commander…. gd gd….
Hm…. well, tis paragraph abt wat actualli happened, actualli I wanted to put it into my entri, but somehw I dun feel its appropriate…. So, I will nt put it in, but I will write it in another way…. I can onli sae, heaven is realli fair… I am nt a veri gd guy, tats why when he let me met gd girls, they can onli be my friends N nt my girlfriend, but its ok, I guessed tat girl has met someone better than me…. I sincerli wish them happiness…. I knw I am nt in a way better than ani of the guys, nt even him, n moreove, the me nw is nt concentratin on love issue, so might as well forget it….
I was a passerby in love, a friend to the ones I haf feelins for…..
Aniwae, the biggest surprise for val is tat her bf, samuel came lorx…. hw sweet…. Seein 2 couples, val and samuel, libing and andrew, I felt tat its normalli when the girls can out her faith on tat particular guy who can take gd care of her, tats hw they are together….
Den slowli, libing and andrew left 1st…. followed by pau, yiwei and huili, den val and samuel…. Onli left yiliang, ah kar, tiying and me tokin and playin games, which I had a hard time figurin out the answers larx…. The 3 of them got some slp after 4am… I was tinkin a lot in my mind and thus cldnt slp….. We did tri to wait for the sun to come out in east coast park, but juz cldnt see ani… so sad….
We left the place at ard 8 plus am, after our breakfast, returnin to our hmes wif a tired and shag face….
I am shag, but I still cldnt slp yet…. I dunno why seriousli, but guessed I still had lots of thoughts to tink and tings to do….
Firstly, as tis blog entry begins, I am goin to put my dream car’s picture… The Mercedes Benz SLR 772…. Ok, the beauty behind tis car is tat the design, and the whole feelin… N moreover, u will be able to see tis car in the new batman movie… Woo hoo…. Bruce Wynne is drivin tis car…. Wats better is tat, Jay Zhou has been drivin tis car… OMG…..
Gotta apologize to those whom had worked wif me in the past…. I realli thanx all of u for stayin thru till the end of the route wif me durin the times we all worked together…. I wanted to thanx u all for bearin wif my bad tempers and veri poor leadership…. Hwever, I wan to thanx u all becoz its all of ur bearin wif me tat made me felt confident to continue wif wat I wanted to do….
All these yrs, thanx u all…..
Nw comin back…. I haf been busy plannin for sept’s apsn outin…. OMG… there’s still alot to do lar…. N wats worse, I had onli done a little bit onli…. Currentli, I am also assemblin a new committee for the apsn outin in sept and oct…. Tis grp of leaders I am goin to work wif are grp of leaders whom I had worked wif before and the trust is there for quite some time….
Hm…. still waitin for one more leader to join the sept outin’s comm…. Aniwae, had to thanx alan for helpin me out… I guess I do haf to put in more effort le horx… Or else, ltr august come, I will haf even more things to concern abt….
Actualli, wat can we do durin mid autumn festival except eatin mooncake and haf the lantern???? Arghx… Headache, headache…. Nvm, will tok to alan and the guys soon….
Oh, oh…. yst, I started to play one new RPG game… its called Secret of the Solstice… Its quite a cool game… Hm, for yrs playin rpg game, I tink tis time round, my technique haf somehw improved…. But aniwae, anione interested in playin rpg game, I do recommend tis game…..
Ok… Next time den…..
Ok, before tat…. I had dinner at Spizza wif the rest of the comm of Y camp…. we had some interestin chat and some good pizza… I also managed to chat wif yiwei… hahaha…. quite some time never see him le…. Ard 9 plus pm, the group of us went up to the cinema for the movie…. I didnt wan to get ani thing to eat, coz past experience told me tat if I had a big box of popcorn, my drinks will be finished before my popcorn does….
So, I got myself a cup of pepsi… Den, there’s tis problem… U got to bear urself wif the bladder problem… N I got to bear wif it for an hr or so…. Haha…. Rushin off frm the cinema to find one toilet to remove my bladder seems like wat I haf always been doin after everi of my movie…. hahaha….
Late at nite, after the movie, I didnt go home wif most of them, instead, jerome, ying hui n her bf, justin and me went to Harry’s bar for drinkin session…. Aniwae, the nite’s long tok at harry’s bar made me feel tat some of my decisions will haf to continue… I guessed its never easy…. Ooh…. thanx to justin, I managed to get home…. hahahah….
Hm… comin back to reality…. Days has past, and I felt tat I needed to do more for my life…. I haf requested on more enquiries for OJT frm seals enterprise…. Hm… workin in the social services sector, I will haf to gif myself more time to tink abt it…. Coz there’s a lot of things I realli worri abt….Hm… why nt let’s go back to wat happen in the past few days…..
Let’s see…. Wednesday…. I went back to ymca to help out wif the feedback form thingy…. N tat makes my whole dae @ ymca lor… Nw, the whole morning had been me typing the feedback forms in the com…. I guessed mani were surprised by my new hair color…. Ok, I bleach the whole hair and ppl get excited…. But well, tis kind of excitement happens onli once in a while…. hahah…
I tink kai fai gt addicted to it and went out wif wei guang (after he got tricked also) to buy more breads…. OMG…. heard they are tryin to trick more y camp main comm durin their debrief…. hahaha…. hw cld after glow nt be fun???? Aniwae, my rest of the daes were spent helpin yew chong to clear his store wif guo sheng n kai fai…..
Ooh…. I gotta the tix for the movie premier tmr…. saw my facebook inbox tat tmr there will be a lot of mediacorp artiste there for the movie premier of GET SMART…. hwever, tat movie is nt sth tat interest me though…. more of the post camp gatherin tmr interest me alot…..
Aniwae, tat nite, kai fai, ying hui, guo sheng and me met justin ( his eyes were rather huge for the hair colors….) for dinner at clark quay….. den we went for drinkin session…. Ok, its nt fruit juice but beer…. Though, guo sheng and kai fai dun drink…. strange…. Aniwae, I was rather sad durin the process of drinkin…. we had some heartfelt tok also…. Guessed the interestin part was tat we all spam yining’s handphone wif msgs on wat’s kai fai father’s name… ( coz bth of them had the same surname…)
I made some decisions after the drink…. Den, wei guang came and we all left for home….
Hm…. I guessed the next few days, I had been more on facebook postin funnie pictures of the programs team, addin ppl or ppl addin me…. Hm…. also lookin for some jobs tat I liked….
Tink tmr will be sendin in resumes to jobs related to social services sector…. also waitin for repli on more info frm the seals enterprise ( they are the grp which help out in the y camp’s camp fire…. saw eileen’s mail tat they are askin ppl to join them as trainers… so see whether can get a job at there…. hehe…)
Ooh…. take tis chance to wish my elder god sis, serene, HAPPIE BIRTHDAE…. she mae haf been someone I loved in the past, but nw I juz wished our friendship will never ends…. I am realli happie to haf her as my elder god sis le….
Tink its fridae, I spent the whole nite till saturdae mornin at my friend’s rave’s hse…. Discussin abt business opportunities and playin his psp…. Ok… its a long time I haf nt play yugioh, the game le…. so rather crave to play the game leh….
After one nite of nt slpin and playin…. I guessed I am more confident of makin tat impt decisions after my drinkin session wif justin and the rest….
For such a long time, I haf always been wooin after tis girl…. N I haf never succeed…. I always thot I haf nt done much better…. But I guess the problems dun lies wif any thing else, but me… After for such a long time, its onli durin those heartfelt tokin session tat I realised I was never a guy who can take gd care of ani girl….
Aniwae, after all these yrs, I nw onli realised I haf wasted all my life into something which I will never even able to achieve…. Hw foolish I can be…. I haf knw the fact tat I am nt tat handsome…. Nw I also knw the fact tat I was never a good guy any girl can put her faith on….
So I decided to stop wastin time on findin girlfriend…. Lookin at hw ning who has decided to put her time more on volunteerin work, I realised tat its abt time to move on to something I shld haf done more…. Nw, the main priority is to find a job, get stable income and to do more volunteerin work to gif back to the societi….
As for relationship wise, I seriousli felt tat there’s no purpose in it animore…. No pt to look for one animore le…. I guessed its nt easy but well, its the most wise decision tat I haf made so far… Nw, its time for more impt things … Movin on…..
Nw comin back to realiti…. todae, I went to the recee for MINDS outin…. I haf nt much to complain abt except probabali the workin style between the apsn committee and the minds committee r a lot of different…. I may nt be tat xi guang lar…. coz workin style is different mah…. But watever it is, I realli haf to thanx weili for givin me a chance to be part of tis mth’s committee….
So wat’s goin to happen to me tmr??? I guessed a start will be to send out my resumes… Hm… focus on my volunteerin work… N wats more, see wat is happenin on facebook… (hahah…. tats a part of pure entertainment)…